I am Yours...Use me

2009-05-26T22:12:00.002+08:00

Im moving!

i find no motivation anymore to blog. im moved to livejournal.
wanna read? ask me :P

2009-04-15T00:46:00.001+08:00

Don't fear

Hope this encourages you :P

2009-04-05T17:30:00.006+08:00

Many are invited but only few are chosen

I dun have any fresh nights to post.Only at night will my 'Spiritual Man' be awaken. Those who know me well, should know that I will 'zi-high' when the clock strikes 6pm and above. So usually at night will I be very effective,productive and open. Reason why Im unable to blog what God has shared to me is because friday I bookin, too tired.Saturday is service day, tired. Sunday, is book in day, bo pian. But I know, these are excuses but are facts.

Basically after I POP, Ill be sharing about 'Influence','Holy Fear','You are Chosen' and the 'secretive post' :P. For now will be just sharing of life

I really wanna thank God for my Law exam in Police. In my squad of 40, only 2 passed. Im one of the 2. And also, ever since I mentioned and shared about how Christ changed my life, they have been keeping an eye on me, hoping to find faults or any small sin.And many times they are very unreasonable.Even if I help people, they even questioned me why I so kepo. But I know, many of us who are being 'watched', are going through this as well. But the important thing is you know your identity in Christ. You live for the audience of One.So whatever you do,you must want 2 win/gain Christ's approval not man.

I'm getting frustrated at two things.First, I really know I CANT sing.Second, is I CANT hear the chords being played in songs.Even people who know they are not really good singers, still can sing in tune. I CANT! I think my voice is worst than a frog. Maybe a really beautiful princess who is able to sing must kiss me then maybe I can sing better. I was digging my root issue of maybe why Im not able 2 atleast hear or sing in tune.The only two reason I can think of is, one, I was not influence by Music in anyway since I was young. I only knew that music was music to my ears when I was in secondary one.Second, God created me this way( *why God* ). Hmm,ever heard that God will select the One to compliment your weaknessess.Maybe, the reason why I cant really sing is for God to bring a singer to me * laughs* ohhhhhhhhhhh Im just kidding ok? lol

I've learned how 2 play 'Desert Song' and Amazing Grace(my chains are gone) already.I improved my guitar fingering techniques.Now my hand very 'suan suan' :P

Im really sorry that Im unable to attend our West 2nd anniversary.I had Kingdom Matters to carry out and I was unable 2 compromise it 2 join you guys.Nxt week ill be booking out thursday afternoon.Ill be booking in one wednesday night. So Im free from thursday

afternoon,friday,sunday,monday and tuesday. book me if u want and ill check with u again :P

NS have been quite spiritual. David Hoe,Joyce and I were having prayer meets at 945pm. so cool!

Its been awhile since I did this with God.I was praying for certain people in my life and I asked God how were they doing? God showed me what and how they were doing. I was in great sadness to hear/see how certain people are doing,including myself. Last friday night, God mourned with me for His children. I really really wish to help you but I cant if you dont allow me to invade your personal,private and your life.Once I enter,I wont leave!I really wish to lavish God's love upon you. I really want 2 bring you closer to me so that I can bring you closer to God. My heart is for others.God's friendship was opened to you yet u cant fully comprehend it due to ur lack of faith and trust.Sin is fogging your mind and heart that you do not see what you are doing and where are you going. I cant promise my 24/7 presence with you but I can promise my best efforts :P . Dont lose hope! God is/was and will be always with you. But God can only enter if you allow Him. Do you want me to enter as well ? :P ( stop looking around.Im refering to everyone)

2009-03-29T15:30:00.005+08:00

Told me everything I ever did

I dunno what I wanna talk about as I only will have the inspiration blogging at night.If you noticed, every since I entered NS,my entries arent much inspiring as it was before.Okay, I really promise to post if someone bugs me ... just kidding . Maybe after POP OH!

After service,Pastor Jeff called forth the ULs to pray for the body of Christ. I did not wanted 2 waste this opportunity to be prayed for face to face. Its been awhile. So I was asking God what I needed to be prayed for. After through, I went to the alter to be prayed for. I purposely chose someone I did not know at all. And I told him a summarised prayer need. And he told me more than I ask for, infact, he told me a answer that Im been looking for 14years. I was completely stunned. After returning to my seat, I could not hold all the magnifestation of God's Glory over me.I held my head with a great sense of relief that God was so real and he still gave a second chance.

Just a brief sharing. I did the love language test again( I dunno why) . And my love language was time and attention. Thats is why God is so dear to my heart as I spend my time and attention in Him. It mentioned that how I show love is vice versa. I put in my time and attention as well. Dont you agree? So you can be loved by me if u do the same to me! *laughs*:D

My guitar skill and my aural skill has went up a level! Im able 2 hear better and I led Praise cum worship in Caregroup today. woo! I will be buying a keyboard after I POP.Im upgrading myself. I'm learning how 2 use photoshop editing.I think ill be investing in a digital camera in the later years.Im reading chim chim books to improve my english.Planning to buy a car as well. Maybe after my NS,work part time and buy a car via installment.I should get a license too ...

Im able to do 24 pull ups. Ill be entering the 42km marathon at the end of the year.So ill be doing my runs after POP. So if u want 2 stay healthy and fit, let me know. We can run together.

Man.I gained two kg in total and my body fats is 12.2kg! incease by 3! my weight btw is 61kg after eating tiny bit and a subway cookie.Just checked again and its 58kg(original) .Ill be running in camp to reduce my overall body fats and BMI. maybe shall go for 55kg. My goal after I ORD(NS finished), I must be able to do 30-40 pull-ups and run 2.4km in between 8:00 - 8:30 minutes. My last timing is 9:27minutes :P

2009-03-15T17:57:00.007+08:00

Fear

will edit this entry nxt week!

till den sms or call ! :P

My new favourite worship song is ... currently being played! 'One desire' has dropped to my 2nd *oh so sad* but both songs expresses my inner most desires :P I even learnt the song.

Songs learnt or learning during these few weeks(including the lead or/and rhythm parts)

One thing

Hosanna

Second chance

The stand

At the cross

Im yours(jason marz)

Umbrella(rihanna)

Nxt week i think ill be learning 'Amazing grace(my chains are gone) - chris tomlin :P

I wont be able 2 come for our 2nd anniversary. sad.

any1 got mp3 2 lend me temperory? :D

*bumped*

zzz no time no time to learn any songs lor :( ...

no time 2 learn new english words :( ...

so many good things that the Lord had taught me that I wish 2 post/share about it.but I promise 2 blog more often after POP(may7) yea?

for sharing wise , i can always call u inbetween 7pm to 10pm. sms me if wanna be called :P

*byes!*

u said invest in me. but u didnt invested in me. ur a liar! :( but its okay. i still got God.

2009-03-01T19:13:00.002+08:00

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Many of us will conclude all happenings as this ' everything that has happened is God's plan'
I beg to differ. As for me, I would say 'everything that had happened was allowed with a reason' theres a difference between God's Will and Plan. im lazy 2 explain . hahaha.

ok.... basically im tired in investing in all friendship. I never went far. its like a glass-celling always. I give up haha. i know there are so many good and nice people out there but i think i never want 2 go far from just normal friends.nth seems 2 work the way i thought it would be.only left is Jesus . haiz............... shall revert to my old self. it feels much less painful :P i can only choose 2 be very hard or soft.either extremes

2009-02-22T13:21:00.012+08:00

I dont know what to do

yay! just finished watching 放羊的星星. Next will be 禁不禁 . ( super weird lol) I was bored haha.

I was doing alot of reflecting in my life.I still really dunno where I am heading and am really really insecure about it. I think the song 'One Way' comes to life. Abram( which is also known as abraham after his obedience towards God) obeyed God and went into the wilderness though he didnt noe nuts about everything or anything.I want to live a daily lifestyle like that.

There was certain things I did during service.As the first worship song was in mandrain, I took the time to account to God about my life. I did the normal 'routine' everytime i approached God.

1)thanksgiving for the past,present and the future
2)Forgiveness of my sins and the World.
3)God's character;slow to anger,abounding in love
4)Needs
5)People I want to pray for
6)trusting God for the future

As I was accounting my life to God, I ..... had a great sense of unworthyness. When I compared myself to God's holyness and my sinfulness, I was ashamed before God.I guess Satan was condemning me. I just didnt wanted 2 go near God. Why? Because Im afraid to hurt God again with my sins. Though the sins I did was considerable small.Like, my friends in NS will irritate me then Ill irritate them back to show them how it felt.Showing face when they irritate me.It was hurt,showing out in anger. But, sin, small or big, is VERY destestable in God's eye. You drink a cup of poison , you die.Even if you drink a cup of water with one drop of poison, you still die.That poison is Sin in our lifes. It kills us.

So I spiritually took a step back before God and told God that I didnt wanted 2 hurt Him anymore.But what did God did? He walk towards me and embraced me spiritually and said " I will be more hurt if you go further away from me" ........

All I could say to God at the moment was ," I hate you God. I hate you for ur faithfulness.I hate you for your grace. I hate you for accepting me no matter what I did.I hate you for sending your son for a person like me.Lastly,I hate you for your abundant love.I never deserved it but you still gave and did all those things for me.I have to say , I really really really love you." I cried abit, holding my pride and 'face'.Then, I just had to worship God with all my heart. Such amazing Love

Yesterday service was a marvelous one. Indeed, Pastor Jeff's life convincted me but at the same time,it made me doubt of what God really wants to do. I had many dreams that I wanted to do for God but I was thinking twice whether is it really God's perfect plan for me. I shall not elaborate.I wanna soak myself in God's presence and submerged myself in His Word to find that answer if possible.

I was doing alot of reflecting in my life.I still really dunno where I am heading and am really really insecure about it. I think the song 'One Way' comes to life. Abram( which is also known as abraham after his obedience towards God) obeyed God and went into the wilderness though he didnt noe nuts about everything or anything.I want to live a daily lifestyle like that.I seriously dunno where Im heading to. Im like a wanderer waiting something 2 appear right in my face.Thats my condition as for now.

I guess,I was maybe somehow influenced by David Hoe. Or is it concidence that I have been thinking and saying the things that already happened in his life? dunno! my post always very messsssssy !

memories brings joy to my heart. thx

actually, the truth is there is alot of people in my life that I want to thank God for.But I did not take take photos with them.But you should know it. If u dun,can ask me.

ps:sorri if i reduced your market value *laughs* :P

Just let me know when u need me:D

Labels:Joke

A couple had two little boys, ages 8 and 10, who were excessively mischievous. They were always getting into trouble and their parents knew that, if any mischief occurred in their town, their sons were probably involved.

They boys' mother heard that a clergyman in town had been successful in disciplining children, so she asked if he would speak with her boys. The clergyman agreed, but asked to see them individually. So the mother sent her 8-year-old first, in the morning, with the older boy to see the clergyman in the afternoon.

The clergyman, a huge man with a booming voice, sat the younger boy down and asked him sternly, "Where is God?” The clergyman wanted the younger boy to know that God's presence was everywhere and He is watching.

They boy's mouth dropped open, but he made no response, sitting there with his mouth hanging open, wide-eyed. So the clergyman repeated the question in an even sterner tone, "Where is God!!?" Again the boy made no attempt to answer. So the clergyman raised his voice even more and shook his finger in the boy's face and bellowed, "WHERE IS GOD!?"

The boy screamed and bolted from the room, ran directly home and dove into his closet, slamming the door behind him. When his older brother found him in the closet, he asked, "What happened?" The youngest brother gasped for breath and replied, "We are in BIG trouble this time dude. God is missing and they think WE did it!"

Im too sensitivity! but oh well. im over it... for now.
so many locked emotions.

I cared so so much.I wish for a serious verbal commitment in friendship and familyship.

stop sinning to yourself or that sin will take over u

2009-02-15T18:00:00.007+08:00

untitled

Basically, I have no inspiration of any yet as I didnt had my own time to.All I got is emotions.Emoing and having emotions is two different thing k? 0.0 .Since I booked in I was so occupied with ministry that I didnt had time to have my chat with God. Aww ... next week must make time.I have to leave in 30minutes time and I havent changed yet.I havent polish my boots yet *die*. Once I booked in,I have to report to my Inspector to pay him 100 pushups.I last friday already pay him 100pushups but I owed him 200 ZZZ

Yay! Had Caregroup today at Bishan in Jon's house. Lead worship. First time lead worship using the plucking skill.Breakthrough. But wasnt that good. Had mistakes here and there.fingers are hurting :P

My family had been hit by the recession as well. ZzZ . I seriously didnt expected it would happen to my family. troubles are already arriving . Growth seems to be following as well. The more the merrier yea?

But even though,storms are here,I still have one thing in mind.People.There are two main types of people in my life.Each type can break down to many types as well.

Tired to elaborate everything.I slept at 3am++ for two continous nights and woke up early.

So bored at HTA, no1 free to talk at night on phone. haha . Call or sms me leh! :D

Im very proud of myself. I did 19pull-ups. By the end of my NS,I would want to do 30. Its considered alot for Police but in army,those crazy super on commandos can do 40 and above. Now thats really crazy! Are they even human???

Currently hearing to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_C_BBl6T2Jk&feature=related .Go check it out :P

My bro got himself a hamster. Its quite cute when it keeps going to the wheel and keeps on running on it. But feel kinda sad for the hamster. No1 to cuddle together with . But i prefer dogs still. Love them! lol :D

ur words are nice.but ur action doesnt show much.if its me den fine.no point if its surface relationship.

is it everyone or me? its seem like every1 knows abt it except me. if it is so, why are u judging me? u dun even noe what I want and made assumptions . oh well. all humans always do this. at saying this im already judging ......

why must there be one special day and not daily? so im the only who only cares that much?

2009-02-08T17:36:00.011+08:00

On a Mission with a Vision

I have not been posting constructive posts every since I have entered into the NS ministry due to trying 2 accept and adapt NS environment such as People,CG,Service and in HTA(Home Team Accademy).But rest assure, my posts would be of 'good fruit' to chew on,that is, if you hunger for it.So Ill share my heart-warmed feelings and than my purpose of this entry.

I really enjoy family.Not my physical but spiritual family so far.I never desired money,fame,popularity,cars,BGR but just family-like relationships.I love people smsing me.I love people talking nonsense with me.I love hanging out with people.I love sharing my burden,convictions,goals and vision to people.I love people disturbing me.I love hearing to people's life and problems.I love helping and giving my best to people.My love language is 'Quality Time'. But, Im growing to be God-pleaser than People-pleaser. And this people could be You . :P

In another hr time,I would be booking in HTA.There are other nicknames as well such as prison,jail,hell,dog compound, etc.Being brought up as a 'free bird' with all the freedom of the world,serving in NS is such a intensive moulding process for me.It was such a painful,hard and especially hurtful pathroad but thank God His grace was sufficient for me.Being in a sinful environment,my true character was put to test.Indeed, I was on the urged of being burned but I did not fall nor stumbled.

There were so many events of God's Perfect Plan that I went through and did not like it one bit.Such as loving the unlovable.Committed to God in prayer and QT.Endured lots of 'waste' from the world.But when such catastrophic events came, James 1:2-4 came into Life.

Basically, Ill skip all this long detailed parts of my life as I believe writing it out does not fully express how I felt and what I went through.But, I'm always ok with giving you guys live updates via handphone or sms(not recommended).

Ill get to the point, the main thing I would like to share is, whenever I book in on sunday night for my NS,I would have amazing amount of undesirable emotions such as 'sianness',tired,reluctancy,unwilling and excuses to run away from this.But,this few weeks, I have been going with a different mindset.When I think about NS,I would tell myself 'Im going into the World to influence and save It'. When I channeled my focus on a eternal and worthy cause,I was encouraged,motivated,empowered by God because this is not what I want but what God wants me to do.Likewise,this applies to everyone.Whoever you are,wherever you go,whatever you do, when u have a vision,u will have a mission as well to accomplish that vision.I believe most of my readers are High-schoolers,Poly,JC.I believe for the Christians that God does not only wants us to study for the sake of it or our parents ask us to study,for our life career,etc, but God really wants u 2 influence the world and through your influence,so that you might save them.But as for the topic of 'Influence',You yourself need to be influenced by God before you influence biblically.Now, what stands between People and God is You.Its a choice that was freely given.Now what choice will you make? A eternal or temporal decision? you decide.

My goal is 7 people in Police Caregroup by end April.This has never been accomplished by anyone. I want to take that ownership! Pray for me and encourage me through smses :D

I deleted all my links as many of them either had close it down or privated it.Tag me to relink ya again.thx :P

I bought a mickey mouse diary.Why did I buy it? two reasons, cause its gayish to buy and it was very very cheap :D

Labels:Joke

I dont eat after 8am.Why?Because I eight(ate) already.

i want to watch Prison break! play as a guitarist in church band. and many more!

2009-02-01T18:50:00.002+08:00

blessed birthday

i now only had the time 2 blog. but in 10minutes time i need 2 pack everything and dress up and leave liao -.-''

first i wanna thank those who wished me and bought me presents.I have yet to receive yet so ill update again for those ppl ill be crediting( exclude those who I ask to wish me! >.< )

2009-01-27T19:08:00.003+08:00

booking in!

Yes.Indeed I have Bookin blues but no choice.Once Im there i wont think so much deh.
This year my birthday is in camp.how romantic. haha.
29 january is the day ....
lol . someone wished me earlier . wrong timing ! but its okay,the thought counts ya?

29 january will be my decision day.Sincerity put into action.im sorry for this test but i just need that. just this one time

off to hell . ok im just kidding :D

2009-01-25T15:19:00.006+08:00

Making a decision(in progress)

Right now, Im undergoing a process of growing,changing,improving,adding and subtracting.I have to admit,NS has been very tough for me.Not in training but all the people around.There are many people that I cant love un condtionally but I loved the way how Holy Spirit says it," do you love for the sake of loving or are you really loving those God loves?" I seriously not fully sure what is God doing in my life but I know its for my own growth.God put the most hated person in my bunk as my buddy.I really gave the best I could.There are so many different people.I believe God wants me 2 upgrade my character.And the only thing for me to grow is problems,problems that involve me putting in tremendous amount of hurts.Who are this people? That I must care for? They have been taking me for granted,take advantage of my character that benefits them.The more I try to be mean,the more Im caring for people. Ok , I dont want to elaborate anymore.

Im going through changes.In terms of how I usually do.I feel that I have no more emotional strength to keep giving.I guess Im abit greedy for my expectation. Well, not anymore , I think.
Sathya will change.Sathya shall not be as open as before.I dunno what awaits of me.Im still thinking ........ still deciding ......

I went to find the guys at CCK park.My heart jumped for joy when I saw them.I really felt happy to see them.And I really want to thank 'aunty' and 'pig' for 'bullying' me. Ty for being 'selfish'.It really helped me to stand up.'aunty' never fail 2 intentionally encourage me.And 'pig' never fail to unintentionally encourage me ( laughs out loud) Ill ran in this race with God definitely! I will surely jiayou in the KOG. :P

I dun feel like posting anymore.I may close down my blog.I dunno whats my purpose of this blog for now . see how first..... what a stress-filled post.

*i dun wanna expect.I dun wanna seek.I dun wanna want it.Therefore i wont be hurt,broken or teared down.I guess. it feels better this way :P..... needs a *** ..... *
*i wish God send you earlier be4 'that'. i hope is this year.please accompany me '
loving Jesus whole-heartedly

2009-01-18T13:56:00.006+08:00

Your Grace was enough

This week was really one week that was beyond my control.If I were given a choice, I would like to resign serving as a SC in HTA for NS and would work as a full-time in church.But I dont think thats God's plan for me.I believe and know what He wants me 2 do.I just only wish I know what are the detailed planning for my life.That is why Faith is required.

I not really sure why God wants me to go through this but for what I have thought of is two things, able to relate with the people and trust in God.In Ns,I really need 2 be independant and to be disciplined with my life.Spending time with God is really a decision-making becaues either you will be too tired, or you dont feel like it.For all the NS brothers I know,they are quite knowledgable of the Word.Infact, I think way much more than me so I dont its tat much struggle for them but who knows? Only God and themselves.But as for me,My squad was the only squad that was brought to Hell by our F.I. Many catastrophic events were planned specifically for us.Us .........

7-9 years of struggle.Just one .... just one I want.I fully know isolating oneself or myself is dangerous.It was never God's plan for anyone to be running a race alone.

A dangerous goal.7 by end POP=may 9th.Possible? What have I done so far?

I got no time 2 personally do a special birthday celebration for you guys but Ill just wish u guys here.

Happy belated birthday Eugene Yong
Happy belated birthday Zheng Yang
Happy belated birthday Kaien
Happy belated birthday Sandy
Happy belated birthday Lilian
Happy in advance birthday Fong yee
Happy in advance birthday Shazalind
Did i miss anyone out? :P

Thx baby sotong for ur never ending spamming nonsenses of smses.It encouraged me somehow.Especially all those silly events in your life :P

Shepherding is a partnership.If you fail you comprehend this,you're at a major loss.

At night in HTA im quite bored.If ur free let me know I call you during 7:30-10:30pm :P chills!

2009-01-10T00:40:00.005+08:00

Waiting to be found

Currently, the time is 0045. What an ungodly hour to be blogging at this kind of time.

There a few things on my mind that seems to be pondering and it is tempting me to affect on my principals,character,convictions and values.Sometimes, dreaming is wasted time and energy.

Right now, my heart cry is , "God,what great things can You do through me" Such a great desire to be a clean vessel for God to use but Time and Opportunity seems to be hiding from me.I feel like Im just 'waiting to be found'. My true purpose is in Jesus.Im already saved through grace not by work.God is putting me in many test and trails lately to prepare me for His Work but I got to obey! I cant see where Im going and thats whats faith is all about.Relationship with God was never a solo thing.

I feeling very very dry.Ns is sucking every ounce of energy I have in this sinful body.I need the Holy Spirit to empower me.I shouldnt be depending on my strength.Never.Jesus take the wheel.

Gotta get myself a Acoustic guitar and Keyboard.I would like to use them 2 minister myself and others closer to God.

What a complaining post .....

*still desiring to do much more for His Kingdom*

2008-12-26T19:36:00.004+08:00

Yay God, *sobs* God ...

I want to learn how 2 play piano! :P
*brb to update*
i've been living alone... i dunno whether u can be. maybe a small one. but overall my main one im finding still .... haiz ......
ty

2008-12-25T17:26:00.005+08:00

Jesus the Greatest Gift

Just wanna say to everyone MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! This is indeed my 4th Christmas with my dear Jesus !

This is gonna be a quick post.Though I wasnt in service, I heard the drama was the same as last year.Though it is already one year since I saw that drama,the meaning behind it never fails 2 bring a tear to my eye.Indeed Jesus is the best thing happened in my life. You can check out the video below of this post.

I have to be honest people, My faith have been very stagnant.Indeed NS affected me somehow due to the time constrains.I wasnt able 2 handle my timing due to my ill-discipline and unable to be faithful with my time.God spoke to me in Matthew 10:27-29

Matthew 9:27-29 (New International Version)

Jesus Heals the Blind and Mute

27As Jesus went on from there, two blind men followed him, calling out, "Have mercy on us, Son of David!"
28When he had gone indoors, the blind men came to him, and he asked them, "Do you believe that I am able to do this?" "Yes, Lord," they replied.
29Then he touched their eyes and said, "According to your faith will it be done to you"

Few things came into my mind,if I was in the shoes of the blind men,how would I react? Lets focus on verse 27.It said that two men followed Jesus calling out to heal their disease because thats what they wanted to have because they are discontented being not able to see.And the next thing i observed is in verse 28.When he had gone INDOORS.This shows that the blind men had been persevering by following Jesus to heal them because they believed Jesus was able to.In verse 29, Jesus response was " According to your faith will it be done to you" Which means God will make it happen according to our faith.

There will be some scenarios that will happen if i were the blind men.First is, when I cried out to Jesus to heal me and he carrys on walking away, I would have been angry with Jesus because being an all knowing God,full of compassion and love, was not hearing my prayers.The next thing is since I was blind, I wouldnt be able 2 know where Ill be walking into, yet the blind men followed Jesus into INDOORS.They shows that they were willing to endanger themselves to be healed by Jesus because they believed and went to risk their lifes for that.And how did Jesus responded? " According to your faith will it be done to you" So the question is not how big is our God but rather how big is our faith in God?Indeed NS ministry is tough and its 10000times more harder to bring people to Christ rather than in youth ministry but doesnt mean that I have the right not 2 SOW. Because due to the time limitation that they have, they rather spend their time to take a break because of the stress in NS.I BELIEVE!.ILL DO IT I WILL PERSEVERE!<br>

Overall, in this passage this what i learnt

Blind men crying out= faith

Blind men following God=deed

God healing the blind man=miracle

So which means, Faith+Deed=Miracles. Amen!

Faith= seeing in God's eye

Deed=putting faith into action

Miracles= God's evidently present and powerful and working

Since it was Jesus birthday,I asked Him what does He really wanted.

Sathya:Jesus,what would You want 2 have for Your birthday?
Jesus:My children to be back with me

Indeed God could have anything He wants but we were given a choice.

Labels:Joke

One day,a handsome boy and a beautiful girl was walking down the park.When suddenly,the handsome boy tripped and fell.The beautiful girl went up to the handsome boy and asked, " Are you okay sathya?"

*credited to louis*

2008-12-21T19:00:00.005+08:00

thank God!

i no time already! im gonna be late but i wanna thank this ppl during the time i was in the NS camp.

My caregroup:theres soooooooooooo many of you! but i realllllllllllllly love u guys! thx for praying for me as well as everything that was done for me! no words can express man! really thx!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Cristine:ty for smsing daily without fail! especially the first day when in the morning u woke up just 2 sms. im touched.thx!

Shazalind:yes. indeed ur smses warmed my heart.thx for praying for me thru sms.i was really strengthened by God . and thx for shouting out my name during service. im seriously am surprised and happy though u really lose face. thx really. :P

cheryl:i thank God u met god. hope 2 hear from ya and from every1 abt the response to God. i thank God for ur sms

dewen: ur thought is appreciated! i guess u truly can understand somehow how im going thru.thx for ur sms as well!

Justin: ur a key person here.thx for giving me tips and guiding me as well as providing sum stuff i need.im in 1000million x infinity grateful for ya.thx for accompanying early in the morning to the place itself! i think i would have been sad and lonely.also thx for the prayer!

keep the prayers,smses and calling coming! will be waiting! :P
BB! g2g!

2008-12-08T23:17:00.002+08:00

going to NS

ARGH! I DUN HAVE TIME TO BLOG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! when i do ill continue :( bb. see u guys on janurary :P

2008-11-24T00:49:00.012+08:00

Thoughts,Spirituality

The more I share, the more im adding weight to what I said.

I thank God that my shepherd,Justin,talked to me during the West A's meet( im not thanking God that I missed it.Sad that I missed it though).Was letting go of unwanted emotions due 2 my sensitivity with people.The funny thing about me is,I know what I need to do or have to do,but I cant push myself to do it.I guess most/all of us knows it as we grow older.As we grow up,we are setting foundations in our life towards certain things and questions in life.Thats why,during our youth,we need 2 gain/habitual many good habits if not it only gets harder and harder.Anyways,I feel safer around Justin.There were some blind spots in my life and things that I may have done wrong/unwisely.And as Justin corrects me or point out blind spots in my life, I really feel guilty and not proud of myself though it was not intentionally.I was blaming myself and come on,Im a guy, just get over it and change :P . I find it funny at the same time encouraging as well.Dunno why, let me share to you our conversion

Sathya:Hey Justin,I want to say two things.One is sorry for PSing you that time.Was not intentional.Second is, Thanks :P
Justin:Oh.Its okay lar.Just allowing you to let go unwanted emotions and dont you to bottle your emotions.Anyways,I meet you coz God will hold me accountable if I dont meet u
Sathya:LOL.You scared Judgement day God will hold you accountable of my life coz u didnt take care of me arh? LOL
Justin:Yea.I scared.Thats why I meet you mah

Ok.It sounds cruel and not genuine but I sort of loved it.Because those words were cruel but my shepherd's heart is genuine. im weird! :P

Yes.I really think im weird .. .wait not weird.Unique!

Did you know that I hate drinking coke when Im outside but I love drinking Coke at home?

Did you know that I hate eating chicken when Im outside but like to eat it at home?

Theres alot of things I do that no1 can/will understand me.Only God can/will.*skip subject*

To me, my interest is understanding people.In terms of knowing why certain guys and girls react to certain situation.Though those who have felt the effect of my real self knows I have very good inter-personal skills,I just want to be faster to know it without taking too much time getting the answer(though I always get it)

I remembered a few years ago, after watching movie with some of my brothers and sisters.I sat alone and started to 'emo'.Then one of the brother noticed me thinking deeply. Thats what I always do when Im alone.Thats when Im task-oriented.And ill share to u our conversion :P

Brother:Hey,Why you suddenly so emo?
Sathya:Im thinking
Brother:Think about what?
Sathya:God.self evaluation.
Brother:Evaluate what thing?
Sathya:Evaluate what I have done for the day and how can I improve/change/add/remove in certain things.
Brother:Ask you arh,actually inwardly your quite spiritual,but outside u always very joke joke like that.Why u dont show ur spirituality one?
Sathya:I can only define Spirituality in one phrase.Spirituality=closeness with God.And You cant determine a person closeness with God just by seeing.Yes,indeed some are evidently close to God in the way they live their life.But overall,Spirituality with God cant be judge in this way.Even a member of a Church can be more spiritual den a pastor.

At the same time,i dunno how 2 be proud,I can only act proud.Neither can I show my humbleness because I behaved as if Im not humble at all.Overall I dun care LOL :P.But please dun deemed me as 'good or spiritual' .When I compare myself to God, I feel very not worthy.There is no Good except God.Everything good that is within me is from God and every evil that is in me is from Satan. God is spiritual and good amen? :P

I wanna thank God for my beloved West Family. The very act at the kfc moved me big time and im very thankful and grateful to God for you guys.Thanks jiaen for the Zinger meal :P

Jiaen is fasting from com and Im fasting from ALL video gaming. I wanna use my time for God :P God, please entrust me a good seed :P

Sum1 asked me whether can sabo me do quiz.At first i knew what it was and didnt felt like doing it.It was seriously lame.But being a nice person, i decided to do the quiz.Ill try not to be too biblical with my answers.Though I feel like giving teachings for each question 0.0

QUIZ

1. Do you have secrets?

Ans: -.-''.No one has a 'open book' life

2. Would you fall in love with a boy/girl younger than you

Ans:love is commitment not age

3. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love

Ans: For God's timing if He wants me to be single or attached

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?

Ans: You give me than i show you -.-''

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?

Ans:Jesus is my best friend so im already fallin in love with Him :P

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?

Ans:being loved by someone.Thats why God love us and we r the blessed one :P

7. Give one reason why you love your significant other

Ans:If Its Jesus,because He loved me first so I want to love Him back.If it means future spouse,( what kind of english is 'significant other'? ), the only reason is committed to help each in other grow in God. :P

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?

Ans:This question is very lame.I would do nothing.Its the person's loss anyways :P

9. What is the first thing you want to do when you're legal?

Ans:Vote for Obama! :P ( i find this question lame so im answering it lamely back)

10. What would you do if your significant other cheats on you?

Ans: Talk things out

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?

Ans: More handsome (LOL)

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?

Ans: Only God, I dun trust any1 my all yet

13. How many times your heart has been broken?

Ans:1 ... 2 ... 3 ...4 ...lost count

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?

Ans: Up to God's.Preferred being married but poor :P

15. What is your favourite colour?

Ans: pink

16. If you're attached but you feel as if you like someone else, what would you do?

Ans: Love is commitment not feeling.Ill stick to my commitment always :P

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?

Ans: Yes.God has forgiven the horrible things I did to Him so I will also forgive :P

18. What do you want to tell the someone you like?

Ans: liking someone is just infactuation.Don't need to care or say anything :P

19. If there is a choice between lover and friends, which will you choose?

Ans:lame question.To me,My Lover=My buddy.Lover and friends is the same.Just intimacy level.

20. What are you thinking about now?

Ans:Alot of things.Especially why are you reading all of this :P

My one desire,I dont care If im insulted,make fun of,look down at,stepped on,bullied,flogged,crucified,crushed,struck down,persecuted or whatever shit Im in.As long as I can put a smile on your face,Im willing to give anything to achieve that :P

2008-11-16T23:21:00.005+08:00

Sathya's Past

This gonna be long and unrevealed to anyone.I never shared this to any1.And this is like my darkest past.Im not very proud 2 share it.But im sharing so that you guys maybe encouraged by my past.I feel that sharing about my life is kinda AA but since Im going to NS.It wouldnt hurt anyways :p so my past Ill leave it at the last

Anyways today we had our WA training class! Sad thing is, Kelver and Perry couldnt make it :( . Alexis taught well! lets give her a clap! *clap*

After we had our training class,we headed over to BP to have our lunch .... SUBWAY!

mine was $8.40! EXPENSIVE! haha

After that,went wif zheng yang,zheng kai and jiaen to play basketball den headed home :P

I was reading my old Caregroup blog during my CL days.And, I was really amazed at myself.The spirit and hunger and desire I had for God that time was tremendously way more than now.I teared while reading my old posts in my CG blog.How I desire to grow the group,bringing the group to further heights.My oh my.It was the most joyous thing for me and I would never trade it anything for it.I was full of faith,full of courage,full of love for people,full of joy.After FNW split, things for me was harder.Ok shall not elaborate about it.Let me share abt my past be4 i change my mind or have no more emotional strength :P

*Due to the outcome I got from sharing, I guess it wasnt the best to carry on or to leave it there, if u did managed to read, thank God for you.If not, den can ask me about it :P*

2008-11-12T02:16:00.007+08:00

Initiative

its 2am! Im suppose 2 be resting but couldnt sleep.My head is filled worries,stress and my heart is full of pain,hurt but my spirit is in Joy and peace.Mixed feelings LOL.

Today was rather fun.Had DMM at bryan's house.Played squash for the first time in my life.Though I was at my 20%, I still played rather well at it yea? :P

Bryan's mum was nice and we were blessed.She bought for us Old Chang Kee.I greedily went for the curry Os.After that subway-ed with Donkey,kelver,MKB,TDS and parrot.Ops,Kelver lacks a nick name! Ill come out one for you :P . Subway rocks haha.If I can, I would eat it everyday :P

After that, went to home-visit Gervan.At first, I was going through excruciating pain due to my ankle injury.Was planning to head back home and take my painkillers.I havent taken it for two days and I cannot bear the pain anymore.But, my heart was full of complaints and excuses at first,but my spirit was settled to meet Gervan.In the end,due to 'pressure',decided to visit him.And I gotta tell you.IT WAS HELL! I could almost faint or cry in pain anytime.I allowed the Spirit to take control over me cause I know full well I could not do this on my own.But still,rather I was in extreme pain. As I was almost reaching the destination,I was still reluctant to visit him.But,something in me kept me to visit Gervan.In the end,after meeting Gervan,I realised that,God loved Gervan too much as well that He 'pressured' me spiritually to meet him.I was guilty at the end of the meeting as I shouldnt have such a mindset at the first place.I had to say, "God, ty for using me and believing in me". At the end of the day, I know what I should do but rather God, I want to have a healthy mindset.I shouldnt dwell in emotions for too long cause emotions only spirals down.

Im hurt by people's small little action.Being an IS and a high people-oriented,its hard to ignore people's heck careness.I guess IS people will understand the pain of the slightest word or action that will make us think too deeply about them till it hurts us only and not them. When it comes to people, WE R WAY TOO SENSITIVE about it

Two conclusions:
1)I should not blame on my personality
2)Im just sharing :P

I like people who initiates to befriend with me :P
And, Im sorry if im not returning the same amount of energy that you put in the friendship I have with you equally back to you.Not purposely and can let me know about it if I can be a better friend to ya :P

And and, despite me most of the times hurting my mum, without my mum's indirectly shown love,care and concern to me,Sathya wouldnt have survive this emotional ride. Ty God :P

2008-11-10T00:37:00.005+08:00

G.R.O.W.T.H

Im wanted to share to you guys the 'power of influence'.But Im kinda tired and lack of time today.So thought of updating when I can find the time but decided to 'let you guys chew on spiritual food'.I planned to share to my group guys during DMM the teaching God taught me *GROWTH* but we lack the time to do so.So here it is :P

G-Getting to know God by reading the Word
2 Timothy 3:12-14

R-Responding to God in prayer
Prayer is simply talkin to God
Philip 4:6

O-Obeying God on a daily basis
Luke 6:46-49

W-Walking with God in the Holy Spirit
Gala 5:16 , Eph 3:14-21 , Eph 5:18

T-Telling others about your testimony
Basically how God has changed your life.
John 19:35

H-Having fellowship with Christians by attending church/Caregroups
Hebrews 10:25

If you desire to grow, apply! free feel to steal or teach or share :P
*credited to God*

2008-11-05T00:42:00.002+08:00

Pain

Yea. I know. Im lazy to blog. I just dont like typing out my feelings. Like I said, I prefer sharing person to person but oh well. Ill blog k ? :P

anyways, currently spranked my angle(ankle). I barely can move around. I have to hop around to get around the houes. So darn painful! I dunno what's the reason for this plan but will be soon revealed.I thank Jiaen for piggy-backing me to LRT and following me to my house.I thank Zk to follow me all the way to my house.I thank Zheng yang for carrying my bag.I thank Waihan for not allowing me to play basketball (lol).Overall,I thank God.I dunno why but I just wanna give thanks to God.I know tonight I will whine in pain and cant sleep.Even my bro or mother already predicted that but God,tonight I shall seek strength in You.For You are my refuge.Argh.Im in extreme pain.Oh well..God, I still wanna say I really love You ! :P

For this week, this ppl encouraged in someway or another.I wanna thank most of my caregroup members and especially ZK,Jess,Waihan and Eva and for last week FEYH . :P thx!

Ill be paralysed for dunno how long. Hope Im able to go for service :P

I can do everything with the help of Christ who gives me the strength I need. (philip 4:13 NLT)

I will love You, O Lord, my strength. The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer; My God, my strength, in whom I will trust; My shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. (Ps 18.1-2)

God said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. (2 Cor 12.9-10)

2008-10-23T00:29:00.005+08:00

Discontented

Im seriously discouraged,discontented and dissatisfied about how things are.God,I dun understand.You never seem to make my boat sail smoothly.And neither do I want that.Life's too boring without adventure :P . Crazy? Nah! Fulfilling. I simply need to take ownership.I must make this count.

short and sweet. People ... Your personality might affect your decision but Your character makes that decision.We gotta have character.Stop complaining.Do it out of joy.If God wants you to do something that involves His Kingdom,does it not shows that God is telling you that ur the best candidate not because you are Good but because God simply chose you? Yet, Obligation shouldnt come into the picture.

Just bought a ring.It has 'Love' on it. Wasnt planning to wear it but give it to someone to wear.I wonder who should I give? For now Ill be wearing it :P

2008-10-19T16:28:00.012+08:00

Time is running up

okaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!sathya has finally found the time to post! okay , two reason why Im still blogging,one, to share to you guys what God is doing in my life and learn from my spirit.Not my spirit but Holy Spirit.Second, is entertain you guys.Haha! Sure you wont usually see the things I say in real-life :P so your currently privileged to read this :P okay fine! take it as whatever you want it as to be :P So ill go thru the events that happened,voicing out den updates! :P so stick back and read! :P

Last week's saturday,We had our UDMM outing! We went to East Coast Park! Was REAAALLY FUN!
Especially with those who ride the twin bicycle with me :P
I dun remember much , but if you wanna know more, can ask me ( which usually no1 would ask so nvm :P) Some people didnt make it for some reason, oh well .

Yesterday after service, We went to have our M.S.N ( man spiritual night) or also quite known as Muai thai sathya now -.-'' . Acutally, M.S.N was thought by me that time during my CL days.You could ask me for the origin.Basically the MSN wasnt what I expected yet but hope the nxt one would be more spiritual.This msn is all sports all the way. :P.After M.S.N,Zheng Kai and Jia En thoned at my house! yay! I love ppl coming to my house :P Enjoyed the talks always at nights :P Whatever we spoke of shall be kept secret :D

Oh dear,I basically forgotten what I did , sorryz! But after service, I received a strong sense of assurance,power,anointing,presence and a rhema Word from God.I was convicted once again of something.Shall not elaborate more, Im just prefer this kind of things to be spoken voice to voice :P

This month has been a really wild month for me.So many things are happening,and I simply dun wanna chew it. Nxt sunday is the day. So what will happen? I dunno. As time flies by, the Fate that has been sealed for me will soon come to past. December 9th. Something which I'm mentally not ready for but will accept it.I really thank God for something that person who sat beside during the church prayermeet last friday.Ty :P

I really wanna thank God for WENDY a.k.a Perfect Women. I was seriously stubborn to listen to everyone. Yet, loving, brought my senses together. I dunno why I shared to her that time those things, but her answers are true. I didnt know Wendy was so wise in handling me. Ty for being practical with me with the help you gave me and the encouragement card. TY sister!

Currently planning for my week and ESS plan to hit Goal.And also Christmas is coming ... preparing right now to who shall I give :P coz once the date December 9 strikes, Time is what I have the least in my hands. :P

My passion for guitar started to increase tremendously.I just love singing and playing to God.I pray that If God wants me to be with my other half, she must love singing to God :P yay! LOL

Anyways, kinda sad but I suddenly asked my dad what was my age,birthday and how to spell my name. You know What? He doesnt know how old am I,neither does he know when I was born or spell my name. But im okay with it.Coz I know Who loves me the most. Jesus! ty Daddy! :P The bible has so much revelance for

Psalm 23:4

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil, for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

Psalms 139:13-14

For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother's womb. I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; marvelous are Your works, and that my soul knows very well. My frame was not hidden from You, when I was made in secret, and skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed. And in Your book they all were written, the days fashioned for me, when as yet there were none of them.

Im sorry.Im as just as skeptical as you are.I treasure ya. Really.Though we are kinda opposites and dun clique, still wanna thank God for blessing me with a friend to run this race with me. yay! ty :P Jiayou!

2008-09-29T23:55:00.011+08:00

God will may a way

I was still thinking twice whether I should update coz I was seriously reluctant.But I kinda promised Bryan(my cg member) tat ill update today.And He was saying He will be visiting my blog daily.Oh dear ! means maybe ill be blogging more cause of him .Simply because I love my caregroup members:P

Anyways, My life is still as messy as it is.And it never seems to get better.And there are like, so many problems.In the area of my family life.I prefer telling it to my closies.I think I did tell to some of them but I dun mind sharing to guys.

about a month ago, my parents were arguing over a issue.In the end my dad told my mum, "I want u and your two youngest son,to leave my house by end of deepavali" I was laughing awhile because of the event deepavali.But wasnt really funny when he said it. Actually, though we may live in the same house, my family r not really a family.They seemed to hate every1 and their love seems 2 be selfish love.I really hate staying at home.I wished, if I had a secured job , I would prefer staying at some brother house and dun mind paying him rental fees .Anyways, My dad asked me to leave HIS house when I come of the age of 21.And My dad always cursed me regularly to go and jump down from building and die so that he could save money feeding me.And also keep repeating that " I made two biggest mistakes in my life.One,I regretted marrying your mum.Second, is to bring you guys into this world" Seriously.As if he gave us a good life -.-'' I rather not be born lor.And this is only one small thing that happen recently.I've been enduring this sort of rubbish regularly in my family for so many years..My mum sort of 'gossiping' abt me right infront of my face.She was telling to her friend on the phone while i was sitting beside her, " I hate staying at home.Every1 at home always give me problems and heart pain.How I wish I one day just died.Cant they understand Im working for them?See the oldest son(my older brother).He small small thing will get angry.So hot tempered person.Even want to beat his own father and me.You see the 2nd son(me). laziest person in the world.So lazy that no1 can depend on him.the other two sons? the r the WORST! small little devils.Smoke here and promise me wont smoke anymore still smoke.den got what? still got lover so more.DEVILS!"

I forgetten the rest. I couldnt go on listening so I went to my com and started to depend on God. I was thinking what song can cheer me up.And it is currently the first track been played.I wasnt going to allow my emotions to take over me.I seriously feel like defending myself and shouting at her because simply because SATHYA HATES TO BE ACCUSED but she was a female afterall.Could tell that she was overstressed from my brothers's lifes on her and just wanted 2 release burden and seek 'attention' from her friend.She maybe wanted to look innocent in her friend's sight and also include me in. -.-'' .Just by looking at her I could understand her.But I guess its okay den.No1 really understands me except Jesus.Thats why I depend on God alot.I hear him so real and closely to my heart everyday. And when she said I was lazy, just like 5 minutes ago be4 she talked to her friend, I came back from shop buying her the stuff she asked me to buy.Its like ... so stupid right? But brothers and sisters, Im not emoing. Im not really. And neither do I post for you 2 pity me or feel sad for me.I really really REALLY thank God he gave me soooooooooooooo mannnnnnnnnnnnnny problems in my life.Coz i've been praying for more than a year daily that "God! please give me soooooooooo many problems in my life that I should depend on You more and more" Crazy? yes Sathya is crazy for God.Sathya wants to love God more and more each day.If u feel like you want to do something for me,pray over me a sincere prayer will do. The only thing I ask is pray for me daily and tell me once u prayed for me that God be greater and I be lesser in my life.

Maybe your problems could be smaller or bigger.Could be relationship problem such as family or friends.Or could be a issue at school which is beyond ur control.But regardless of the size,always ALWAYS trust God.God allow problems 2 come into ur life so that you can witness miracles in your life so that you will be able 2 love God more and trust Him.Tell me,Who would need God when their life is so smooth sailing?How will God be seen real if God removed the problems in our life?Can we pray for healing when theres no sickness?Can we ask God to answer our prayers when theres nothing we lack in?How can God show u miracles in things beyond your control if everything is always in your control?I believe that some of what i spoken of is last week teaching but I knew this like 1-2 years ago.But I thank God , God encouraged me with last week sermon once again :P

Right now, I really need alot of perservering spirit.And the only role model I have in this area is Jessilia.She like never once read my blog but I watched her how she received Christ for the first time till now.When She was a newbeliever,She always seems 2 share that she perservered this and that.And when She and I were CLs about two years ago, she always tell ppl,such as me 2 perservere on.I thank God for her for her life testimony.It makes me wanna perservere on as well.And she still encourages me. Thx alot! :P

So for the more intimate part of me,I leave that to God only :P coz theres sumthings i still putting locks on.*Sorry!*I thank God that He gave me Spiritual Gifts.Such as Gift of Discernment. This Gift Rocks! but is scary sometimes to know ppl's secrets,struggles,issues or problems in life.LOL !

Sherry was sharing to me that She want to be a pastor.Den suddenly I was dreaming abt her ( not in that kind of way). But as a pastor. God envisioned me 2 share somethings to her.I did.And if you want know abt it go read Sherry's blog! She promised she wont give up! so sherry , Its a promise k? :P

And I really thank God for today.God has brought back my 'first love' thru today's even due to Zk's leadership.No words can ever express how thankful I am but overall, ty :P

A few encouraging verses from u guys 2 chew on :P

("Man does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God. "Matthew 4:4)

"If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him." James 1:5

"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it." 1 Corinthians 10:13

“I will never fail you.I will never abandon you.” Hebrews 13:5c (New Living Translation)

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:6-7

"And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. "Romans 8:28

"I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you. "Matthew 17:20

"For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline." 2 Timothy 1:7

"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. "Psalm 23:4

"Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD. "Psalm 27:14

"And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work." 2 Corinthians 9:8

"I can do everything through him who gives me strength. "Philippians 4:13

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take. "Proverbs 3:5-6

"...but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. "Isaiah 40:31

"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. " 2 Corinthians 12:9

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light. "Matthew 11:28-30

"God will make a way alright? Sathya ... JIAYOU!"

2008-09-22T23:43:00.006+08:00

Leaders

Lazy 2 update abt life ... wait ... like i said ... i prefer giving live updates :P
anyways this thing poped into my head and i feel like sharing it

When no one lead, who led?
When no one take charge, who took charge?
When no one plan, who planned?
When no one bother, who bothered?
When no one care, who cared?
When no one mentor, who mentored?
When no one initiate, who initiated?
When no one make change, who made change?
When no one step out of comfort zone, who stepped out?
When no one humble, who humbled?
When no one give directions, who gave directions?
When no one contributes, who contributed?
When no one understands, who understood?
When no one advises, who advised?
When everyone enjoys, who was the one who is still thinking, working and doing?

this was so called stolen but used in my way.
The fact is that , the second 'who' i refering is our leaders and our shepherds.
I think I need not say much.Lets love our leaders and shepherds amen? its not easy being a leader trust me.I mean I used to be a CL but tts not impt ... lets honour,love and encourage them today :P

So i wanna say is ... TY ZhengKai,Justin and Dewen for growing the inside of me.I wouldnt be the full me if not for You guys ... and overall I wanna thank Jesus for placing such wonderful ppl in my life! Appreciate them to the max! love ya guys :P

I still appreciate those who supported me behind my back :)

Jesus whispered to me " Sathya, ur really important to me"

2008-09-13T00:15:00.003+08:00

I missed ya ... friend

Ooo ... i suddenly felt all emo-e . Suddenly, felt the urge to let go at my blog. Im okay with sharing and dun really care whose listening.I rather let it go den bottle it up coz this something I treasure alot.

For a REALLY long time, I finally had dinner with a dear friend of mine.. If you dunno him,He's actually the one who brought me to church and took care of me with love as his sheep.Now,he currently is leading his own life without God. And seeing how's hes leading his life, Im really very sad. I have to say , He's someone close to my heart. Though we dun really know each close but I know him for about 5-6 years odd. And hes really a person can crap all kind of crap. Hes the only one that can make me ROFL anytime.I really wish that he would slide back to God because theres nth worth living for living God. I pray that Satan will leave Him alone and God will talk to him in some way. ARGH! my heart is seriously heart-brokened and crushed. But i gotta move on. No turning back , definitely no turning back. But I thank God I still have friends by my side. ( its for me to decide and for you to allow ). TY FRIENDS! This journey would have been tougher without you guys :P

*i've been framed, not for my kindness but for my unwiseness*

2008-09-12T01:16:00.008+08:00

mission trip!

Actually got two reasons why i didnt update, first, is i prefer give live updates den blogging abt it. Thats a preference thing.Second, Tiffany and Daniel( the mission team people) cheat my feelings by not sending me the pictures. So I dun think they will be giving to me quite awhile so I cant neglect you guys( my adoring fans LOL ) to be bored. So wanna thank Xanthe ( one of the mission trip team) for faithfully sending me the pictures.THANKS!

Hope Kuching youth CG

Lead praise and worship wif Tiffany :P

The official opening of Youth Service ( we were privileged to witness it :P)

Its actually a huge block of ice and inside it, they contain it wif a scroll abt a verse.( ask me for it :P)

Hope Kuching Youths :P

Hope Kuching International Group

From the right, the guy name is Prince Divine.He's from a royal blood from Nigeria

At the middle, the guy name is Michael King.HES THE BEST SINGER I EVER HEARD!

REALLY! His voice is as high as Mariah carey.REALLY! VERY HIGH!

From the left, the guy name is Samuel. Hes quite tall :P

Johnson and the misson team.Hes a friend i met two years ago at our church camp :P

Indonesian Leaders.I think the way I pose was quite unglam.Oh well. :P

Behind the poster it says "Chosen" :P

To have this kind of name is super cool!

For those who can only swim downstairs, please use a life jacket :P( i dun get it why they so proud of it LOL )

took a picture off a cliff.Its HIGH mind you :P

The head of Hope Sri Aman welcoming us wif a dance.This dance is only done once a year to welcome chosen warriors (yes im a warrior! )

Hope Sri Aman is a kampong housing

The team that went to Hope Sri Aman.It was a farewell pic :(

Hope Sri Aman Church( Prince Divine was sitting beside me :P )

The person to the left is Xanthe :P

And the person to the right is Pauline Peter a.k.a PP

Anyways, actually got ALOT more pictures.Just that they havent sent me.And I went thru the pics that I feel like posting up. So this is a rough sketch of the mission trip only.Im waiting to share to my really good friend and my really good buddy( my goodfriend is quite obvious to that person.And my buddy is very obvious to that person asl well and coz they initiate to ask me as well) once they are free :P

Overall, for now I want to congratz Shazalind for being the most faithful tagger.

And I seriously wanna thank PP for being a very very great host to us during the mission trip.I think its suppppppppppppper fun with Changting and PP together.I had a great time with them.Will really miss them LOTS!!!!!!!!!

okay im tired.

ciaos darlings! :P

2008-08-28T14:05:00.004+08:00

OFF TO MISSION TRIP I GO

will be meeting the team later at 11pm bishan :P
will be back at tuesday afternoon :P
no time for shopping so dun expect me 2 buy anything back hahaz :P
very excited! yay yay!

ill be leading Praise and worship wif tiffany ... SCARY!!!!! hope dun screw up :P
i really lazy 2 update LOL
if u want update ask me. ill give ya live update :P
till den see yaz!
*dun miss me tis sat ppl :P*

2008-08-24T23:59:00.006+08:00

Knowing Sathya more deeper :P

I did the DISC and SPIRITUAL GIFTS test.Those I open up be4 or know me very well will agree with this test about me.I thought of posting this in my livejournal but oh well.I basically type one every single letter!Though this test tells me how I will react and feel, doesnt mean that I will do it.It just tells what I feel like doing or am.You can ask your CLs/ULs for this test :P

Top 3 Spiritual Gifts

1.Creative Communcation (attained recently)
The Gift of Creative Communication is obvious in those who enjoy performing or directiong drama presentations.They love to express themselves and teach lesson through role playing and skits. They tend to be very creative and able to act out specific feelings to communicate biblical truths. Those with the Gift of Communication must guard againist seeking the spotlight.They can make great reflections of THE Light of the World. They can add so much to worship and preaching by creating dramas that illustrate the lessons of the sermons.

In a word:Actors or Actresses
Overuse:Dramatic expression that leads to self glory
Goal: Teach lessons, rather than focus on talent
Scripture: Psalms 150: 3-5; 2 Sam 6:14-15;Mark 4:2,33

2.Mercy (born with this gift)
Christians with the Gift of Showing Mercy demonstrates genuine sensitivity to suffering. They are compelled to help people reduce pain. They are concerned more with the person, than the reason for the suffering. Focusing on the feelings of those who hurt, Show-ers of Mercy desire to minister by "being there" when people really need them. Sympathizing and/or empathizing are their specialities. While others may care more about why, what, when or how, those wif the Show-ing Mercy are interested in "who" needs tender loving care.

In a word: Caring
Overuse: too sensitive
Goal: Wise insights, not foolish responses.
Scripture: Rom 12:6,8d; Matt 5:7

3.Hospitality (not really strong)
The Gift of Hospilitality is that special interest in opening one's home for food and fellowship, or to just provide a place to stay for someone in need. Those with the Gift of Hospitality seem to always be ready and willing to invite guests over or offer their home for a place to meet for any ocaasion. They love to provide refreshments or prepare meals for individuals or groups. They seldomn show irritaion over last minute requests to have someone over or to host a group. They tirelessly serve to make people comfortable and encouraged.

In a word: Sociable
Overuse: take on too much/Get worn out
Goal: Provide fellowship without sacrificing family time.
Scripture: 1 Peter 4:9-10; Acts 16:13-15; Luke 14:12-14

Next is DISC :P

"I" BEHAVIOUR / Bibical Examples: Peter and Ruth
(active/People-oriented) Known as "Sanguine" or "Otter"
Descriptions:Inspiring, Influencing, Impressing, Inducing
Basic Motivation: Recognition and Approval
Desires: Prestige.Friendly relationships.Freedom from details.Opportunities to help others.Opportunities to motivate others.Chance to verbalize ideas.
Responds Best To Leader Who: Is fair and also a friend.Provide social involvement.Provides recognition of abilities.Offers rewards or risk-taking
Needs To Learn: Time must be managed. Deadlines are important. Too much optismism can be dangerous. Being responsible is more important than being popular. Listening better will improve one influence.
Bibical Advice: BE HUMBLE/AVOID PRIDE- Humble yourself in the SIGHT of God,James 3:17.CONTROL YOUR SPEECH-Be quick to hear,slow to speak, James 1:19.BE MORE ORGANIZED- Do all things decently and in orderm 1 Cor 14:40.BE PATIENT,Gal 5:23

I: INSPIRIRATIONAL INFLUENCERS
"I"s are impressive people. They are extremely active and excited indivuduals. Approval is important to them. They can have lots of friends if they do not overdo their need for attention. They can be sensitive and emotional.They need to be more interested in other and willing to listen. They do not like research unless it makes them look good. They often do things to please the crowd. They are entertainers. They need to control their feelings and think more logically. They often outshine others and are motivated by recognition(acceptance)

"I" Type Personalities with Gift of Creative Communcation
They are perfect combinaton of personality and spiritual gift for creative commincation. The "I" personality is so inspiring and influencing, while the Gift of Creative Communication is so imaginative and expressive. They have high egos and can be easily hurt if not approved or recognized for their talent. Those with "I' personalities and the Gift of Creative Communication must always remember God made them to shine for His glory,not their's. They should always be willing and ready to praise others, rather than seek praise for themselves. They are most suitable for drama presentations, but must discipline their time to prepare more.

"I" Type Personalities wtih Gift of Showing Mercy
Inspiring type Christians with the Gift of Showing Mercy influence others to care more. They use verbal skills to generate excitement for the cause of demonstrating love. Interested in people, they induce strong feelings of concern. They an be too emotional. "I"- Showing Mercy types can over-do their influence. Some people may think their concern is all show. They like to impress others with their kindness. They need to calm down and be more humble. When it comes to evident sensitivity, "I" - Showing mercy types are tops.

"I" Type Personalities with Gift of Hospitality
Enthusiastic and excited Christians who love to invite others to their homes often have the Gift of Hospiltality. They are "social butterflies." They love to entertain and welcome people in their homes. "I" type personalities with the Gift of Hospitality openly and often express their interest in having groups or individuals over any time or for any reason. They need to be more organized and plan better. This combination can be very difficult on other family members. But their gracious hospitality is always encouraging to those who visit with them.

CREATIVE COMMUNICATION
Abilities: Unique ability to communicate truth through drama.
Opportunities: Drama, Choir, Evangelism, Media, Missions.
Warning: Don't seek the spot light or attention.
Reward: See God shine through you to help others understand His messages.
Prayer: "Dear God, Keep my eyes on you and not the crowd, so that I always do what I do for your glory and not mine."

MERCY
Abilities: Giving sympathy and/or empathy to the hurting.
Opportunites:Hospital, Benevolence, Counseling,
Warning: Dont be a sucker to everyone
Reward:Knowing you helped those who no one else would help.
Prayer: "Dear God, use me to not only help people by showing care, but also sharing truth and TOUGH LOVE when necessary. "

"I" BEHAVIOUR (Active/People-oriented)

Abilities: Communicate, inspire, influence, make friends, optismism, enthusiasm
Opportunities: Give public testimony, drama, social committee, greeter, encourager, lead discussion group and visitation.
Warning: You naturally outshine others. Don't serve purely through your "personality." Also, pride and sinful lusts will destroy your testimony.
Reward: God designed you to shine for Him. When you allow Him to shine through you, He will use you in greater ways than you ever imagined.
Prayer: "Dear God, keep me humble to do your will, not mine. Help me give you and those who praise me the credit for all You have done. "

2008-08-12T09:19:00.008+08:00

family!

I got a craving for marshmellows :P

i dunno how to start, maybe i should start by using alien language.bla la bli li bli si di bu ki li ee c. :P

I had gastric ytd.How come arh.was extremely in pain.Breakfast i didnt eat.Lunch i ate.Dinner i didnt eat,Enuff mah i thought.Wait... oh one meal a day? no wonder -.-''

another act of retardedness,anyways one week never update,i can only remember since thursday with pics! yay!

THURSDAY

ZhengKai,Ming Yee,Gina and I went to sheng siong to buy food and the materials for the game for B.B.Q on Friday.Since My mum would ask me to get the grocies,I already installed the knowledge in my mind on what products are exactly placed.Pro man.Anyways Gina had a addiction for 'cigarettes' so she decided to get bobdog(sweet) and started 2 'find trouble' see the pic and you might know what i mean :P

'Gangsters'

FRIDAY

the pics arent wif me yet so ill update this nxt time ASAP ... hahaz

SATURDAY

yay again! Got to meet God. Jia en on his own accord asked for paper and pen to write down sermon.And He remembered the title and all the points.Really wanna affirm him for the spirit of hungerness for God.Lets learn from him :P.Then went to eat !@#$%^&*()_ its beancurd in english i guess.Dewen went off without taking the same bus with us.Two reasons,the bus was full,and that bus wont bring him to Jurong east.But We gonna him as Dewen because hes a ppl-oriented person and he loves to be around ppl.So making that decision,only I know how secure you must be after its done. yay dewen! setting a example !

Let me recall who was in the bus.Zhengkai,Shaun,Peiying,Waihan,Jess,Ming yee,Sherry,Shazalind,Vanessa,WeiXian,Gina and Me.Yups

SUNDAY

Went to fajar with JiaEn to fetch bryan,Ming Lun and 'girl'. MingLun and 'girl' left.Played basketball.Was fun and rough but overall okay :P To me playing basketball r meant to play a GG and play wif ur friends :P.Im not bothered with losing. :P

actually i did more for each day.Quite lazy 2 type actually.But the pictures I took will make me remember :P

Actually during sunday,while we were all slacking,one of my school seniors came out to me and asked me what am I doing now.I told him im aheading for my NS first because the course that I wanted to take has no more vacancy for me and asked me to come nxt year.I dont want to waste time so decided to finish my NS first den pursue my studies later.Hearing on this,shazalind and sherry started to 'console' me.Shall not elaborate but I really have to admit, its kinda a very sad thing.Funny thing is I dont wanna think about it,nor a hint come my mind.Coz im already sad that we will 'depart' temperory and you guys kept reminding me of it.Makes me 100000000millions more sad.But den again Im really happy.I didnt do anything to deserve the care and concern.All I wish for is for my brothers and sisters to continue to please God and be joyful always :P Coz i dun want to go heaven seeing any1 missing ( dun k! )

If it happens,it happens.Yea,i agree.NS gonna be like the biggest test of my life.I know Im gonna go thru ALOT of problems,struggles and issue alone.But I know im never alone.God is with me.I believe thru NS ill grow way much closer to God.Theres nth more that i desire than this :P

Anyways,those who arent close with me wouldnt noe this.I think the person who knows me the most also not really know me that much.If those who know me abit closer would know that im extremely sensitive and emotional.But doesnt mean im petty or emo-kia -.-''.Im a guy I know how to control it(sometimes).Understanding emotions itself is a very complicated thing.Emotions tells u what feels right.Emotions tell you what you get and see only now.Emotions makes you look ugly and bad.Emotions lies to you and hide things from you.Emotions comes and goes doesnt stays.Emotions depends on fantasy circumstances.Emotions spirals you down or up,it never stays constant.Emotions will influence your decision-making.Emotions come only when they feel like emo-ing to you.Emotions,emotions,emotions.One thing I know,is Im not serving God with emotions.When I feel sad,distressed or lonely I go to God.When I am feeling okay,ill chunk God aside and go chase other things till I have nth but God.If We do this,we are only having a Crush on God.Because Love is a decision to commit to one another no matter what happens.And I have made myself committed to God,my spiritual family.( and the person i dunno who is it yet :P).So how do u know when you really love the person?When emotions is not accompanying you and u dont feel like loving anymore but you still choose to love that person regardless of any emotions or circumstances.But I know no human beings can love that much to a fellow human being but lets aim to have a unconditional love for God ^^

phew,tats our of my hair.I just wanna say to that person for caring me so much on msn.You know who r u.I dont think i deserve it but ty really.

if u need 2 be more precise, u asked me for the 'ticket' :P

This picture will be with me forever :P ty u all from the btm of my <3

*not easy not easy.But sathya you must jiayou! ok? ^^ *

2008-07-28T22:34:00.005+08:00

hello world!

got miss me? if not nvm.COZ I MISSED YOU! (not really)

this post would be rather long coz ill be adding sharing sum history about it. so yup !

firstly ill let you share that WA1 hit 26 for ESS(part 2) !!! our original goal was 20 but we broke beyond it! congrats to all the ppl in WA1 to make this 26 possible! yay yay! u guys worked really hard! and also all those who are chionging for ESS and cg08! give urself a pat man.You guys seriously deserve it :D

so wats the big fuss abt we hitting our 26? let me share to you abt WA itself. It was about two years ago that North and west broke up (boo hoo) so WA consisted of around 15 ppl around tere? and our usual stats we will hit 12 10 15 13 and very rarely did we hit the 20 mark.
There wasnt even a time where WA1 hit 2 . pathetic rite? indeed it was.So after camp we received the SPARK from God.After camp we continued to fuel this spark within us and it sparkle.So why is this 26 a big deal? because first of all we only touched the mark 20 rarely.And the 2nd thing is WA1 DID it alone without including WA2! thats like ... wowwi.And we have CG size visitors from our ALL pioneering school! Im really privilleged to be part of this caregroup.This number that we hit was really God working in this group.And we broke our september goal already lol! but this is only the beginning amen? God,continue to work in our group ! *WEEEE*

So today we went to celebrate our 26! Went to Swensen to eat eat eat :P

I enjoyed my 49ers chicken.Tasted like subway.After eating Swensen went to buy Milkshake.

Along the way,met Waihan,Peiying and a hyper active sister.She came up to me and wave vigorously.How could i not wave back?And that girl name was Shazalind.I think she has a unique and nice name.Haha thank God for you :D She was saying that I was her Kor.Anyways we are spiritually family so i guess she could said that.That means I must call u mei arh? hahahaz :P.Oh and thx for sharing me Waihan fries? LOL. and btw,comparing between west spring and zhenghua uniform,Zhenghua is more fitted for girls and West spring for guys :D. I wanted to update August one but mei ask me update. Im a ppl-oriented,how could i say no? :D

Fish and chips! (shared by 3 person)

Chicken curry rice (Dylan)

Mines! :D

ice cream! (regular earthquake)

my milkshit(milkshake -.-'')

tt is all! im quite excited about my new webcam and speaker! Now im able to msn just by talking.So slack liao hahahaz! :D ok im off 2 msning ppl,Ciaos darlings ! ^^

2008-07-02T15:24:00.003+08:00

Fasting

I really want to grow man!
Fasting from blogging and msn till end july!

seeyaz!Q

2008-06-30T00:13:00.023+08:00

convicted!

Im thinking of moving my blog because I have too many non brothers or sister reading my blog especially my schoolmates and teachers ! shocking huh? my english teacher used to read my blog and called me 'my little preacher' and the whole class was againist me hahahhaa! plus i got other friends who comes to my blog as well .... * i dunno how they know* i think blog surf or sumthing ..... i sumtimes feel like posting bibical stuff but im quite restricted hahaha! maybe ill move after i hit 350 post :D

Today went to meet Dylan to plan for ECG. I was very very excited when we came out wif the ideas,suggestions and plans that was by God's guidance through our limited minds ( ty God ! U deserve all glory ! ) Im so hyped up about the events that we planned ! feeling high high high! :D

After planning for ECG and heading home, suddenly ZhengKai and Kaien came to my house wif food in their hands ( they bought food for me because I had no $ . Man! im touched like crazy till i got nth 2 say :D ty guys! love u guys ... really! )

I really love the time i spent wif them ... we can really talk anything under the moon ( it was night when they arrived at my house) no limitations or restrictions of what we can talk about :P Kaien was asking us "What is God to You?" If I hear any1 asking any1 i know this question,i think this person is really silly.'My Everything LAR!' but when i think about tis ... 'What is God to You?' to me ... God is mostly my friend.But when problems comes God is my coach.When I sin God is my father that disciplines me.When I am discouraged God is my cheerleader.When I am weak God is my spiritual energy drink.When I am depressed God is my counsellor. But I wonder how many times when we really joyful or happy do we thank God for it or tell God about it. A question to ponder about for every1 "Who is God really to you in your life in every circumstances?"

we took a picture on a tree house ( mind you is 3 storey high! zk was afraid LOL)

Im not done yet! please bear with me and still got more to say.Thx peeps :D

The whole day,the only thing that was on my mind was thinking how to grow the guys in WA1 ..... after Zk and I sharing our greatest burdened and conviction that we really really want to see the guys grow.
we really want 2 set the standard for people to follow.we r so dead serious man! talking it wif God makes me so excited ! it convicts me so much because i see great value of being part of this great commission ... i want to be a finisher not a participator ! yea yea! this was what Zk and I were sharing

Three weeks ago:
Sathya:Guys,if we continue to love people,obey God commands, be united,pray more and if God dun bless our group after end july ..... den ill cut my relationship wif God . If God promises to give every land that we stepped on den lets claim it by faith amen?

two weeks ago:
Zheng Kai:I've never been so convicted and assured be4 in my life to see 20 come to past by end july.Im fasting,praying to God for it and im not touching my com for 1month after end july.

one week ago:
Zheng Kai:I really want to see 20 come to past.If we dun hit our goal 20 by end july,I told God Ill never use my com ever again.

see how convicted we r? Pastor Jeff used to said hes putting his head=life on the line for CG08 ..... and I told God that if cutting my head right now will complete CG08, im willing to do it without thinking .... and Zheng Kai and I REALLY REALLY MEAN IT! We dun NATO= no action talk only ..... but we walked the talk .... talking is free ... any1 can talk ... talk is indeed cheap ... mean what u say and say what u mean man ! im sick of tired ppl responding during camp and after camp do nth abt it or go back to their lifestyle ... tts so ... ugh! u catch my spirit?
We dun need ppl who respond during camp but we NEED ppl who respond AFTER camp wif their conviction! this generation is really a emo generation ..... Either we give our ALL or NTH !

Currently im listening the song 'Above all'

When I read Mark 14:35-36 it says

'Going a little farther, he fell to the ground and prayed that if possible the hour might pass from him. 'Abba, Father,' he said, 'everything is possible for you. Take this cup from me. Yet not what I will, but what you will'

This 'cup' that god mentioned was going up to the cross.It made me think deeply... 'Jesus my lord ... You didnt wanted to take our cross for us because of the extreme pain which is physically (crucification),emotional (rejected by ppl and denied by his disciples)and spiritual painful for you'( God had to turn his face from Jesus because of the Sin he was bearing on the cross for the world as it says in mat 27:46)

JESUS WENT THRU SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO MUCH PAIN! I had a small talk wif Jesus so I would like to share to u guys

Sathya:God ..... wasnt going on the cross very very painful for you?

Jesus: The only thing that came on My mind ............ was being with you forever *had a big smile on His face*

Above all the pain He went thru , the only thing He thought of was you

Jesus really loves u so much, How about you?

2008-06-24T21:03:00.005+08:00

adopted son and daughter

yea yea ... 2-3 weeks like huaiqian said ... didnt update ... sorriz arh ... busy and abit lazy... coz when I got time to blog ... its time for nappy nappy haha ... now got free time so can update hahahaz :D

*ill update from lastest to oldest bah*

My son is the black one,my daughter is the white one :P

officially i adopted them 24 june 2008 :D
i havent find the mummy yet but will take care of them
especially my daughter :D
oh yea ... my son name is blackie and my daughter name is whitety :P

After attending DMM, I went to zk house area to cut hair .... because the hair salon skills were pretty much professional .... quite satisfied but okay okay lar my fringed very short :( but better ... not a irritation anymore when the wind blows hehez :D
den after i had my haircut,i went to board a bus to reach home *obviously*
Den I was standing in the bus,suddenly a guy left and I quicky rushed to take the seat *kiasi* den I found a sim card on the seat ... so being sathya im a very honest person :P, i removed my sim card and inserted his into my phone .... den i went thru the message and i smsed unknown ppl asking them for the owner of this sim card and proclaiming that he lost it and can sms me back his house number .... I was quite dumb actually ... the next thing I thought is to look thru the contacts and I found one was named 'Mum' ... so i called his mum and this is our conversation

Sathya:hello are you the mother of ... owner of this person sim card?because your son seemed to have left his sim card in the bus and i happened to found it ... so can u tell me where u stay so i can return it back to you?

Mum:sorry i not understanding you speaking ....

Sathya:I found a sim card in the bus.And I went thru the contact list and I called you because u were stated Mum in his hp.What I mean is I found your son's sim card in the bus and I would like to return it to you.

Mum:sorry arh i not understanding english u wait arh ... *shouts at the background* DINESH!

Sathya: *hangs up the phone* wrong mother ... tat was my mother -.-'' x 100000000000

funny right? so silly sia ..... got one of mine is mother and the guy one is mum ... i called my mother instead of his .... ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ ... MALU! den after everything i went home my mother didnt realised it was me -.-'' and the story goes on after i talked to the real mum but not funny lar but if u want to know ask me personally :P * sorri arh my english very poor hahahahahaZ*

pyjamas event

had amazing fun wif my group ( you know who are you :P ) I think they rocks my socks till they kept calling me 'chou chou' sian ... no mood leh :( shall not elaborate on tis day :P

picture taken be4 eating sakae sushi :P

eating sakae sushi wif two animals;Donkey and Bear :D

I think eating sakae sushi wasnt really worth it coz I didnt really enjoyed the food.But I really enjoyed my sheepmate and my shepherd presence's ALOT! We talked man's stuff and learned alot and we opened up alot as well ... love u guys man !

chocolate!!!!!!

im quite a chocolate fanatic ... sorri to all who r fasting :P

WA1(my new caregroup :P)

We went to Saran's house to celebrate his birthday .... his mum cooked the food indian style*duh shes indian* and it was nice! loved the prawns and the thick creamy gravy.... woooooo!

Saran's dog :P

If dewen sees this he will say that the dog is my brother .... CONFIRM !!!!

tts all folks !!! actually I just wanting 2 ask who is quite artistic? can decorate my files for me? make nice nice :P and also ... I want remember my brother's and sisters wif a gift .... up 2 u and its optional ... if u want ... buy me stuff toys ( the bigger the better) for me :D ... and also i want to decorate my room remember all the ppl in my life ... write me cards to paste on my wall! :D

tudalose!

Sathya:zhengkai 2:1

Sathya:fong yee 2:3

Sathya:Justin 0:2

*Wt lar .... justin score two pts in a day? WA LAO WAY! and fong yee winning me ! argh! stress stress!*

2008-06-16T02:09:00.003+08:00

Campie!!!

This is gina's cap ( tts what she told me )

the pig name is MOUNTAIN PIG . named by jess haha .... ( i know the picture abit ... u know lar ,dun need say leh mah haha)

Kenny:Would you like to buy a Happy Meal?

fong yee's guardian :P

zk acting handsome :P ( dun crucify me zk lol! )

yay yay! this r the photos taking during camp OASIS! woohoo! on fire man! more personal life stories and convictions will be in my journal ! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ! but for now more pics after camp ! :)

Kelver :P

Saren :P

Hope kuching fella :P

Zheng Kai :P

Alexis :P

David hoe :P

Vanessa :P

Jess :P

Regina :P ( regina thank God for ur hardwork ! )

Sandy :P

i didnt asked her for her name but shes from West! West = family! ... :( *sathya how could u!*

TingTing was standing up and I was on my knees .... JK! :P ( tingting dun stone me please :P *peace*)

YiSi :P

FEYH! YongMei :P

Spiderman has been hiding Mas selamat binti kasturi (omg!)

SiHui :P

YuNian :P

Eva :P

Sharon :P

Jency :P

:)

Dewen<-> neweD :P

ppl made fun of me .... boohoo *sob sob*

sathya is saddened ! he didnt take pictures wif north ppl! and sathya dun have the pictures taken for WA and whole of west! argh! and sathya also didnt take picture with fong yee . must take wif P.s shirley and eelee nxt camp :P

2008-06-16T01:41:00.003+08:00

random!

Few things made me thought of what i thought ( get it?)
I actually re-read my posts . And I gotta tell you that my grammar has been getting rather poorer or more 'indianie' . Having conversions with my family members can really 'spoilt' my english ... haha :P . And another thing I came about is times of my life I wanted to jot it down but due to my lazyness ... i have forgotten what actually happened! . Wanna apologise those who have been bothering me 2 update haha :P ill update asap i promise this time :P unless if i want to not because of lazyness :P

candy shot!

its me nappy nappy ... argh! but i trust u guys 2 post tis unglam picture of myself :P

argh! kaien still can act cute! hahahahahahahahhahaha!~
*saddened that one person couldnt make it*

for this entry i wanna wish jolene a happy spiritual birthday from the bottom of sathya's heart and he really means it :P !!!

2008-06-06T00:05:00.003+08:00

WEEEEEEEEEE!

today we had West training DAY! i seriously wanna thank God for this day ..... its super divine for me but my expriences will be in my livejournal! i really think the ppl who teached today really did a excellent job *claps claps*... i love the skit alot! very very true and applicable and able 2 relate :P ill be uploading photos! but i wont upload fong yee's one coz she says very unglam *it really is!* so i wont for my sake ruin her! lol!

2008-05-23T23:39:00.001+08:00

Jolene and Kaien!
I WONT POST TILL U GIVE ME THE PICS!!! ROAR!!!
haha!

2008-05-20T11:09:00.006+08:00

whose line is it anyways?

ytd night i've been cheering myself up by watching funny funny videos!
You can try watching 'whose lines is it anyways' on youtube ... SO FUNNY! :P
Sandy also introduce me sum and two person told me i wasnt constructive -.-''!

i've been also practising my card tricks and florishes ... kool :P

i need a job

and im once again off 2 livejournal ! :P catch me tere!

For this week these ppl came into my mind and tis is what i wanna say to them :P

ZK:JIAYOU

XueYong:JIAYOU

Justin:JIAYOU

Bernard:JIAYOU

Joe:JIAYOU

Harvin:JIAYOU

Dewen:JIAYOU

Jency:JIAYOU

FongYee:JIAYOU

TingTing:JIAYOU

Alexis:JIAYOU

PeiYing:JIAYOU

Gina:JIAYOU

WaiHan:JIAYOU

WeiXian:JIAYOU

SiHui:JIAYOU

and lastly Sathya:JIAYOU

2008-05-14T16:58:00.002+08:00

You cant please every1

my livejournal would be more personal .... like i said its opened to all bros and sister :P ... ask me for it ... dun link hor! its private favourite me instead and dun spread! its between me and u guys only hehez :D

a really short post .... u cant please every1 .... why i said this is because of one event in my life that made me abit irritated by ppl's comment .. its like different ppl got different things 2 say .... like me get to the pt what i wanna say

when i just got my new hp ... i didnt had any nice DP so i just take of myself lor .... den ppl see say i Zilian ( -.-'') ok lor den i take of my brothers or sum1 ... den they say i gay ( -.-'' ) den i put sum celebrity girl's face ... quite chio but hor i only like her songs no big deal den say i got wrong motive ( -.-'') den i change i put a mascot of pikachu ppl say i childish ( -.-'') never ending sia so i just put a smiley on my hp currently ... what comments await me? weird? hahahaha! im okay wif comments lar but thinking abt tis made me understand i can never please everyone ... haha ..

discouraged man! off to livejournal!

2008-05-12T16:07:00.004+08:00

GDOP

Kallang stadium(blurry)
GDOP is global day of prayer ..... went to kallang indoor stadium with matthew,liyan and viven ..... we were really early ... i heard that last year GDOP had 33k ppl in a open field ... but kallang can only hold 11k ppl and u noe what ... it wasnt even FILLED UP! or pakced at all!!! im super disappointed man! ...... oh well ... ill talk abt GDOP in my livejournal ..... only brothers and sisters r invited to my private life ... my blog will be free for all and no/less spiritual stuff will be written here ... rather in my private journal :D so if u wanna noe wats my URL , msn or email me den ill hit back ... STRICTLY only for brothers and sisters (and also must depend who) hehez :D

today main entry is SI HUI!!! si hui ! better read hor!!! BOO!

Si hui presented to me a apology offering .... shall not share into detail because i wanna keep it private haha! tts why i make the picture very small if too big everyone can read LOL!!! basically thru tis gift i really see humility and true repentence ..... it was really nice and effort was put in alot! i can see it haha! ... anyways Si Hui ... i dun care if u call me names ... i not so petty one haha! its okay 2 laugh at each other once in the awhile but what i really want and desire for everyone especially you is to grow closer to God ... and indeed u did ... i have to say .... im really really proud of ya! keep on growing!!! :D

2008-05-08T22:20:00.003+08:00

Being a CL possible before camp?

usually my serious posts will be the end :D so share what happen as normal den get to the pt lor?why... want beat me arh? <--- lame

today woke up 8:30 due to my brother entering the room and was woke up by it.I actually very very sensitive to environment i think.Because no matter how tired i am im easily woken up by even the softest hello.Try me when i sleep,just say 'hello' and i cant sleep for another two hrs ... yea yea... i cant sleep after lying on the bed straight ... gotta lie down like hrs be4 i fully submerged myself into deep sleep. But during my sleep also i still think but think slowly.I dunno when i truly sleep without not thinking.

anyways woke up and went 2 find weixian 2 share Christ together.And i saw massive amount of students and TEACHERS! Oh man ... couldnt do peanuts ... so i told weixian i decided to go cck and share Christ though i dunno the chances i'm able 2 share because Weixian said she try evaxing be4 and no ppl.And because of that my faith decreased abit but den i like this kind of doubt in my heart.This will make God more real in my life and God can work thru my doubts.So i went cck and wanted 2 share to fajar ppl.But i didnt find many.And i saw two Chestnut student of them walking around.So by faith i just went to share.You know what? They received Jesus into the life man! weet weet! den after that i shared to another two chestnut.But they reject.Share to another 3 bpgh students ... rejected ... my spiritual energy completely drain ... i felt like going home that i ask God 'should i go home?" den God told me "go home also dota or slack rite? might as well stay" ... den all of a suddeny i let two person by-pass me ... i lost all my spiritual energy sharing! so i went to a corner and prayed again and tapped upon God's power ... den i saw one chestnut student after 30minutes den i shared to him ... he also received Christ! amen amen! and all the 3 chestnut converts knew each other! retention level = ^^^ ! higher! weeeeeeeeee ! evaluationg ... 3chestnut,3fajar,2west spring plus me = 9 plus shawn = 10 ! but i hope 2 retain them! i wanna rise up again man! im dreaming big and planned in advanced for many activities 2 do during CG! im so excited! i scared 2 say tis in public because if i dun keep my word or not managed 2 achieved it ... very malu like tat but who cares? Once a guy says,he usually wont backdown now so if saying it increases my commitment so why not? i wanna rise up to be a UL by end CG08! if possible be4 that ... i noe its not gonna be easy... i noe i gotta sacrifice alot of things but i have put my life into God's work.But even if i dun become whatever L ... i will still want 2 work for God 2 get my rewards! yay me!

i was watching indian movie.And the hero in the movie became very sucessful and he said "ppl used to say every man's sucess,theres a women behind for it" den i thinking my so called sucess today thru God was thru a women as well ... FONG YEE!!! LOL!!! im kidding ya? im being naughty and random , but hor her encouragement ytd really spurred me 2 leave my house, coz i dun wanna hurt God,dun wanna let my leaders down,and now dun wanna let her down also, im too ppl-oriented liao hahahahaz! ... rejection and words really affect me alot ... hehez! but wanna say ty again fong yee! u came into my life, we talk,we fellowship,u encourage,den u empower me thru Holy spirit,now ur a blessing man! teeheez!

i was very puzzeled why encouragement really had so much power,so did prayers ... i felt the full effect or maybe the most today.And i read John C Maxwell a few hrs ago(be4 i went into nappy) den encouragement brings the best out of ppl ... i guess it did work on me as well ...and as i shared i feared nth,no nervousness,no shy no nth!I begged holy spirit 2 just work thru me ..... im really useless alone. Whatever i have done or doing,its all Holy spirit working not me.I cant do NTH! i was useless and unworthy but thru jesus i gain every kinds of wealth.I was encouraged by verses presented to me Gala 6:9 mat 5:11-12 and i just read Col chapter and Col 3:2,Col 3:23 col 3:17 philip 3:13-14 and most impactful was Col 3:23 and ALOT more lar .... God suddenly threw all the promising and encouraging verses to me.I thank God,My lord,the creator of heavens and everything on earth 2 use nothing such as me to do something tat im not worthy for me 2 even talk abt.I ty Jesus for tis wonderful privillaged to work for U.its definitely my pleasure and honor 2 be ur servant,ur labourer,ur ambassador and especially ... being ur child :D TY!

i really wanna grow grow grow!(growing spiritually) now i wanna also grow grow grow(both quality and quanity). for sum reason i just wanna say jiayou WA and everyone! especially my sheep bernard! jiayou jiayou! everyone JIAYOU JIAYOU! DUN GIVE UP ANYTHING GOD HAS PLACED IN UR HEART TO DO!!!

*to be continued*

2008-05-06T20:14:00.006+08:00

Sathya thx every1 who have been a blessing in his life ! :D

i was 'walking' around my house when suddenly i saw some of my christmas cards on the floor ... i quickly pick it up and went to my 'gifts' drawer ..... i took the whole drawer out and placed it on my chair ... den slowly i started to recall all those things that i received from my brothers and sisters ... my heart melt when i read those affirming and encouraging words from them ..... so i wanna thank God for those ppl that has given me something in my life ..... ill state each person all the way to the last post :D

today i woke up and got my things ready to start my day fruitfully ... but i realised when i checked my plan ... i forgotten to pray for my ppl's exam ( oh dear) i hope when i was praying in tongues holy spirit helped me interceded for them ytd .... anyways i realised another thing .... exams period means go home earlier ... -.-'' i realised i was too late! i wasnt able to share Christ at the rush of students coming out ... man i missed the chance ! but today was still fruitful because im preparing my LTTF to be more interesting,exciting and more eager to hear more as I read in P.s. shirley blog that making the WOG a boredom is a Sin .... i knew it was a Sin to do that but was reminded by P.s shirley blog ... i also learned a few worship songs and played complicated chords .... but wasnt able 2 do it fluently coz my hand blue-black ... pain pain lor when i needed 2 stretch and play barre Chords

i was struggling with my emotions alot ..... abt myself is im really really really expressive ... but due to my family background and my whole life ..... i dun got any1 2 share with .... when im happy or sad(mostly sad) i always talk to myself .... always pited myself that i led a sad life .... also wanna thank God that no1 went thru my life ... too much pain man! ... but i really thank God that Jesus is my bestest friend( yay me! ) if not i think i would have commited suicide or sumthing haha! ..... almost everyday is a suckish day ..... my dad will smoke which i HATE! ... coz my nose is really sensitive and i will start to bleed profusely :( ..... all this things affects me inwardly but i aint pay much attention though Satan ALWAYS use tis 2 attack my soft spots(weaknessess) ..... all i could do is go thru it and focus on what God wants me to do ..... though i teached my ppl that first physical need,emotional den spiritual need .... usually i dun get the first two daily enuff but i always try spiritual need ... though i dun get all three needs sumtimes i still desire to please God ... coz Holy spirit is real and without not effects ... working and strengthening me all this periods of my life .. ty :D

what made me want to shared above links to what im about to share ..... i read the book of romans and was convicted by Paul's work ..... which is Evangelising places where ppl have not heard about Christ and singlehood ....... i've been evanglising almost everyday and it isnt easy at all but i know God's Hand is upon me .... even if i dun got fruits,the thing is i worked rite? i made God happy right? tts all it matters .... and why singlehood? because Paul mentioned that He could do more by being single ..... im praying and hoping to achieving that but its up to God whether He wants me 2 get married ..... most proberbly is the other way round, meaning a sister will chase after me hahaz! .... anyways i shared to my shepherd,Justin many weeks ago that my emotions keep eating me up inside and i always follow my emotions ..... and Justin initiated to pray for me and asked me what i need to be prayed for .... i ask him 3 things .... 1) my convictions overtakes my emotions 2)protection from worldly attacks(tis is rather personally but ask me if u want :D) 3)For God to work through me ......... Den Justin started to pray for the 3 things i asked for .... den suddenly during his prayer he said praying tis "God, i pray also for sathya that you protect him from divine authorities" ..... i was abit puzzeled because i didnt ask him to pray for me that ..... i went home and thought hard ... why why why? .... Holy spirit said "It was I who interceded for You through him?" I ask Holy spirit "why u ask him pray for that?" Holy spirit replied "Paul was constantly persecuted by divine authorities" ... i was like "yea hor"

den i woke up and i felt super lazy and my emotions ate me up .... but remembering what Holy spirit spoke to me made me get up and work .... the first day i went to evax and wasnt sucessful ... so i thought and discussed with myself "Paul shared Christ rite? he didnt do surveys rite?" So the nxt day i decided to share Christ thru bridge diagram .... i was really scared and reluctant to approach them when i was outside the school which i was pioneering ..... and i saw two students walking pass by me and they looked like lower sec and Holy spirit suddenly said "Go!" I told Holy spirit "But they two person.Harder because later they both pressured den say no or dun wanna hear ur word God" but Holy spirit just said " GO!" I complained saying "i dun dare.i scared.i cant believe after being so good at tis i still dun dare 2 do.Please Holy spirit,spare me and i think one person easier 2 share" Holy spirit felt holy anger towards my disobedience and said "You have heard of ur brothers and sisters testimonies that when i said 'GO' they went and was blessed. Just like how Gideon brought isaac(our church gideon not bible one)" I told Holy spirit "OK! say the word and ill obey" Holy spirit said once again "GO!" i went and shared Christ . Oh boy .... i was super nervous and one of them keep receiving calls and i spoke so fast! .... after sharing i asked both of them "so do u want 2 receive Jesus into your life?" the two answers i got was "i dun mind" "yes" WOO HOO!!!! i jumped for joy man after praying the sinners prayer with them! will update abt them soon

actually the story got more but ill continue asap k? because sum ppl complained that my post soooo long den dun bother to read ... dun bother to read dun bother to be blessed lor haha ... coz what i write is not from me but inspired by Holy spirit thru me ... tis is Holy spirit working thru me !

For now its really really not easy sharing Christ publically .... did you noe that the Fajar school OM chased me out of the school zone? i was questioned twiced.And i was told not 2 be seen in the school zone.So i pray that sumhow ill still be able to share.Because many fajar students saw me sharing and they were familiar wif me and they avoid me if they saw me sharing to their schoolmates. So what? Let it be I obey God and nothing else matters.I share share share share.People want to receive Christ is up to God. :D

the last thing i wanna ask is .... please .... please take 1minute just to pray for me this few things.I dun mind u rush thru a quick prayer or spend more time praying.I appreciate the prayers but the thing is when u pray for me ... please have FAITH! if u pray without faith den it will be of not much helped to me .... so pray for me the below stated things .Thx and love ya!

1)that ill be able to share and preach boldly the gospel in the name of Jesus
2)my emotions to leave me and my convictions to fill me
3)protection from divine authorities
4)Strength do perservere thru the circumstances
5)CG size in fajar ASAP in God's perfect timing

just wanna say i really really need prayers,daily prayers,if i can buy from every1 $1 a prayer i would sell everything i have just for that,but prayers r free and all it cost is ur precious time ...i cant buy time from u so plz spare me tis precious time of urs to pray for me yea? and if u did pray for me .... plz tag that u did prayed for me so that i can be encouraged as well(optional)

AFFIRM

i wanna thank Jiawann for the Christmas Card.I was really blessed thru ur blog those times and ur labour in God's kingdom spurred me ... ty!

ty alvin my ex-sheepmate's sheep! though ur christmas Card is very lame and not filled with perfect words but the thought of giving me a card really made me felt happy :D ty ALVIN!

I wanna thank Eugene(african) for the mousepad with Christan's words ... i really thank God that my work in you wasnt in vain .... u had alot of issues and struggles but i thank God it was all worth it.Seeing how WC is benefitting from ur evangelism, i really thank God that what i also laboured in the KOG did show results.ty eugene!

ty jingting for the 2008 birthday card! though im not close wif u.You were the 2nd person and the last to give me birthday card.Ur card really made my day.TY!

JOGINA! the only girl in church i noe so fun to be around wif because i noe u quite long haha.ty for the Christmas card though under compulsion and sum sort of making u guilty(hey but i kept my word u didnt haha). Ur sum1 that treats me as if i were ur own real brother.tats i feel lar haha!love talking 2 ya always and hanging out :D so much 2 say lar coz i still can remember the first time i saw ya in camp but really ty :D!

Jolene!!!!! i really want to thank ya for everything! ur a sister that seriously blessed me wif material needs such as money.You never fail to bless me when im in need.Went thru alot wif ya.now in ur tertiary continue to grow ya?also got long story abt ya but hor lag of time haha! but seriously ty !

Wendy! my PW=perfect women! ur really very interesting,unique,sumtimes funny,encouraging,helpful and now more chio since u rebonded ur hair recently rite? ty for the card! scary mooooooooooooooooovie! hahahahaz! thx thx!

celina!(celine) ur sum1 very bubbly and nice to have around.ur smiles always encourage me i dunno why coz its so genuine.and ur card really really encouraged me ALOT! seriously ALOT! i felt empowered,enlightened,encouraged when i read ur card.because what ur wrote in the card made me felt u believed in me! tats what i needed!i always love to read ur card because it never fails 2 lift me up :D ty ty ty!

Sandy!Mandy Candy Brandy!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! if i sumhow discouraged u sorri ya? i was kidding only hahaha! but really wanna thank u for putting ur time 2 hand-make the card for me and buying me those sweets ... i really love sweets! and those card i also loved alot! i appreciated what u've done for me ... always remember u as a friend and sister! thx ya! :P

Fong yee! feng shui! hahahaha! hey! i got a secret to tell you ... ur valentine gift ... u noe the one wif cookies wrapped in red plastic wrapping ? u noe? u gave it alot of ppl including me ... i will never forget that for the rest of my life! i didnt noe u well( i think right now i also dunno u that well) but that gift really made me felt special! haha! a big TY for everything u done in my life including tagging hahaz! jiayou for ur passion!

Dewen! turbanator! i really thank God for u in my life.ur sum1 that cared for me and didnt make me feel leftout .... ur sum1 that sumhow relate sumthing like me but we r totally different k? HAHAHA! i really thank God for you and ur leadership and ur understanding in my life.You never failed 2 believe in me and i thank God u do believed in me even when not many ppl did because u knew the real me ...thx thx and thx! :D

David HOLE! HAHA! i always laugh calling u that .... but i can still remember ... u came all the way down to my house,just 2 buy for me my favourite bubble tea and chocolate... u took time just 2 talk 2 me 15 minutes .... u indeed modeled out 'pour a bucket of blood to inspire a drop' ty so much because i was seriously moulded hard by ya! and ur WON made me closer to God thru rebukes after rebukes and unfaithfulness after unfaithfulness (lol) thx for putting ur time 2 disciple and also spending time wif me :D thx for the cards and exam kits :D and ty for being a spiritual father hehez! david u rock lar .

bernarda!thx for ur birthday gift! it was really a need and i thank God for it! i seriously have grown alot and ur sum1 that really spur me on in the KOG .... i got so much 2 say but little time and space ... but wanna say sheep! ur the best haha! :D

justin timberland!( its too late to apologise ... its tooooo lateeeeeeeeeeeeeee! ) HAHAHA ! ur sum1 i can click real well wif .... i really treasure all the shepherdings we had ( though we dun meet often and though we meet we end up most of the time no teaching :( :( :( ) but ur sum1 really really very very superly superly extraordinaryly patient and nice wif me ... though sumtimes i know im wrong and i know and i know yet u didnt rubbed it in ..... u always encourage me even if what i did wasnt right or pleasing or helpful ! another story but lack time bah! ty the very much!

ZIYING! mok mok! ZINC! i dun think she will read my blog but did u noe that she also encouraged me alot? when she was my SDL she wrote the most cards than any1 did though we dun make much direct contact,im not close wif her but shes spurred me alot! she also like my spiritual mum! i really wanna learn her example man! ty ziying!!!!!

Eelee Tan!(in chinese one egg) she was FNW DL ... and i made a promise 2 her during her CLM that i will never trade Jesus for anything even if the whole earth gave me everything they ever had.im still clinging on to that promise.she always supports me,believed in me,empower me basically EVERYTHING 2 me(except jesus lar) when she was leading FNW ..... she always talk and says thing that relates and is deep to my heart .. i really missed her smile her voice and her eyes( no wrong motive man! i told u shes my spiritual mum!) i really love her enthusiasm for God! it made me enthu also! many many and a billion thx! ^^

if i can choose between a handmade gift and bought one ... i prefer handmade gift anything! im very sentimental and everything i received i kept it close to my heart ... even the sweets that i ate from the exam kit i still kept it.Dun believe come my house and see the wrappers i see keeping in the exam kit.When u u open it u can smell the sweet fragrance man!.Even the spoon that i used to eat ben and jerry because we hit our goal i still kept it.

I layed the gifts before my bed :D

sumthing i noticed, if u noticed sum ppl that r closer to me didnt get me anything! ARGH! but i got them atleast sumthing lor! wa LAO! ZZZZ u noe who u r lor!!! ZZZZZZZ ! nxt time dun buy or make things sia like tat ... haha nvm lar ill be a friend always... up to u lar

2008-05-05T01:40:00.003+08:00

Do it once, Do it well

i read this article sumhow and decided to share to everyone on evangelism :D

Communique: When you first learned that evangelism was part of the Christian life, how did you feel?

Vonette: I was so excited about what I had just learned – what had just happened in my life - that I was eager to share. The Christians that I was around were positive, attractive, radiant people talking about Christ, and that changed my attitude. I wanted to be like that also.

C: Are you ever afraid to share your faith?

Vonette: I am always afraid. Sometimes it’s so natural – it just fits into a conversation easily. But to take the initiative is always a risk. I always have to push through faith barriers and remind myself that the definition of successful witnessing is taking the initiative to share Christ, in the power of the Holy Spirit, leaving the results to God.

C: What are you afraid of?

Vonette: Offending, rejection, giving a wrong impression or misrepresenting Christ. There are so many issues today, and I want to honour Christ in the way I respond to a person. I have learned that arguing gains nothing, and you can learn so much more by talking–having a good conversation. When I think of it like that – having a conversation with someone– it helps me not be afraid.

C: What do you think that most peopl misunderstand about evangelism?

Vonette: The word. Unfortunately “evangelism” has a negative connotation of pressing and forcing as issue. Really though, sharing our faith is us taking the initiative, and if there is no response, be sensitive. Don’t press. Pray and pursue further if there is an opening. You don’t have to offend. The cross of Christ should be the only thing that is offensive. I also think that many people feel that evangelism is someone else’s job. They think it is for the “gifted.” But the Bible says that we are all His ambassadors and the Great Commission in Matthew 28:18-20 was given to us all.

C: Do you see many changes in the way people respond to Christ now compared to 40 years ago?

Vonette: I think more people know how to receive Christ today. There are programs and churches on television every day. I think many people have prayed to receive Christ – but there is no evidence of a changed life. Therefore, when I meet people who say they are Christians, I ask them, “Are you a professing or practising Christian?” Many times they don’t understand what it means to have a vital relationship with Christ. Then I am able to share that with them.

2008-05-04T13:17:00.007+08:00

sathya's not GAY!

i was reading sum1's blog by surfing ... basically this ppl were around me and i didnt noe them well ...... and they said i was gay and i suan them all this and ask me be a man can? tis is the worst thing a girl can say to a guy that hes gay ...... zzzzz ... ok ok ... in tat case sure sure ... ill be a real man den .... if being nice,sensitive,funny,crappy,gentleman,caring all tis isnt manly for me den sure .. for ur sake i will not ... den hor dun expect me 2 entertain u guys or either seeing me smile .... ill be dead serious like a guy ... a worldy guy only to tis certain group ..... rarely guys r really friendly .... if tats a sin to u guys den FINE lor ..... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz ......

above post ... dun worri lar im seriously pissed off! such judgemental statement ... oh well God ... i only ask only that u forgive them and healed my heart ..... they r still young and dunno me tat well and seeing ppl like me gives them different impression i guess .... im not insecure lar no worries :D .... and my below post is between me and God plz ignore it ... and one more thing .. I DUN AA or im not so INSECURE! if u wanna noe u ask me urself ... dun jump to conclusion ... zZzZzZzZ

argh! God! im simply jealous! not even a Hi.But but :( ... am i being to possessive?abit bah ... i cant stand what isnt not mine completely.but that person very innocent ... i jump 2 conclusion haha! but hor God ... hurted alot lar... u noe me mah ... i really desire relationship wif ppl ... deep relationship ... NOT BGR lar but close friendship wif those ppl that i can talk spiritual stuff openly ....... sumtimes.... nope many times i aint able 2 attain that ...... I remembered Dewen taking the personality test wif the brothers during last time brother's night(i missed that). and mine was i have alot of surface relationship but rarely deep ones .... so TRUE! God u noe i desire deep relationship man! i dun want BGR ... if marriage is 1+1=more than 2 .... den my brothers and sisters can help me rite? i declared be4 Justin's DMM that i want follow Paul's example ... Evangelise places where ppl have not hear the Gospel and Singlehood ........ :D gift of celebacy man! hahahz but though tis desire is in me ... i noe i can live it thru u... i only wanna make U my everything but how come if i share to you God ... sumtimes/most times i dun feel comforted? arent u my everything? but why i share to my brothers and sisters i feel better? why why? i just wish 2 stay in a room and do QT till i die .... i cant stand what isnt mine hahaha! .... over-possessive abt relationship wif ppl i guess..... eek! plus God u put my spirit in a indian body! waHA! tat sounds so lame! but hor true mah ... because of tis i have already have a barrier of friendship already ......... saddening ... God what u want me 2 do?????????????????????????? dun tell me tat tis is ur hurt again ... rubbish! tis is how u created me ... if i cant .... i .........oh well ...... up to lar! ill say once den .... haiz ......... up to u lar GOD!

haha! service is always GREAT! i love praising and WORSHIPPING God! ......*skipskipskip*
went to Mac to play tai-di while sum ppl studied ... *zk u left without saying BYE! EWWW* play tai-di like 4hrs ++ sia wt lar ... got headache from all those laughing and thinking of what combo 2 play .... but den i dunno what happen sia! i lose two match so jialat! i didnt even throw one card AT ALL! WA LAO! one card also cannot arh?! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz LOL! how can lar ! im tai-di king leh :D den later going home i ps keith,jogina and gina .... really sorri guys! my spirit was down and accused! i had 2 cool off walking wif kaien they all... :( ... den after that they say they were playing pool ... i got 2 noe 3 new ppl :D .... anyways walk walk den sherry(if im not wrong) told me "u feel cheated that we not going to play pool?" i was like "what? den where we going now?" she said " we just walk walk den take NR further away only" i was like " WA LAO my leg pain liao stand and walk so long now also walk ..." anyways walked another 1hr!(wif 2 minutes break because we were arguing abt the womens in the VAIO advertisement whether they were all the same person) drank Ribena wif lemon .. but tasted like polka ice lemon tee .... den i took the bus alone ... and i felt super secured and good .. i realised i loved all fellowship ... good or bad as long as wif ppl around me ... but i always loved being alone ... tats when i got to think/spend/talk to God :D and i really loved his presence around me ..... coz i had to settle my Soul den my spirit( if u dunno the difference ask me ... teres a difference between soul and spirit) ... loved it!

let me mention sumthing ... while i was playing tai-di ... i was so called ears-dropping the conversion between the north leaders ... and their convictions make me soooooo good ... they were really talking deep spiritual stuff on how 2 grow all tis ... and i really desired that! i really long 2 share or talk deep deep deep spiritual stuff wif sum1 ..... i just wished that God will give me a friend ... a buddy 2 talk wif every day abt spiritaul life and our life :D i just pray that God gives me a buddy .... i aint care who is it!i aint care is brother/sister but u must accept anything from me :D and i noe u are secure and so am i! FRIENDSHIP WOO! (once again ... plz plz plz plz plz dun make judgemental thoughts nor ever think sathya's AA ... ill eat u alive! ^^ )

FORGET ABOUT MY ABOVE POST!! ARGH!!!!! fed -up :( Zzz bleah awww ....shot ... dead .......

God loves u really :D

off 2 basketball! CHILLS

2008-04-30T00:32:00.003+08:00

Exams!

well right now i dun think its good for me 2 post inspiring,learning at the point of exams period but i hope u do take time 2 just draft thru quickly of maybe What might God speak to You ... to non-christians... u can read my last sentence tat might help haha :D

in need of anything? These r the names/characters of God

God the Creator (Elohim)
God the Lord (Adonai)
God our Peace (Jehovah Shalom)
God our Provider (Jehovah Jireh)
God the Covenant Keeper (Yahweh)
God the Almighty (El Shaddai)
The God Who is There (Jehovah Shammah)
God the Healer (Jehvoah Rapha)
God of Power (Jehovah Sabaoth)
God is my Banner (Jehovah Nissi)

Just look thru the verse and i hope it encourages u :D

John 15:2: “…Every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be more fruitful.

Habakkuk 2:4: “Be strong, all you people of the land, declares the LORD, and work. For I am with you, declares the LORD Almighty.”

Isaiah 48:10: “See, I have refined you, though not as silver; I have tested you in the furnace of affliction.”

Hebrews 13:5: “Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.

Psalm 20:5: “We will shout for joy when you are victorious and will lift up our banners in the name of our God. May the LORD grant all your requests.”

Song of Songs 2:4: “He has taken me to the banquet hall, and his banner over me is love.

Matthew 28:20: “And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”

Romans 8:32 He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things?

i just wanna say jiayou! to every1 those who r mugging hard ! Remember to plan your week on what subjects to study and when.And please give me this privillage to pray for every1 ...tag ur name,weakest subject and also the exams that gonna start one day before-hand :D and if need any personal encouragement be4 exams or anytime ... do tag or email me or if u got my no sms me :D really wishing every1 all the best and jiayou! just work hard for tis exams and holidays r coming! work hard so that ur holidays will worth ur hardwork ... if too stress come find me ill give u sathyadol to relieve stress ... but may cause too much unnesscesary laughter ^^

Remember to Work Smart not Hard :D

2008-04-24T00:21:00.010+08:00

God's Glory

my title got nothing 2 do wif my post ... so bla bla bla! hahahaha!

um um um um um um um um ...................... seriously tired of blogging hahahahahaha ! so will share a few things lor!

i think many ppl that i encounter wif make many judgemental thoughts in their head abt their views of me of what i do or say when im around them .... yup .....right now sum of view will think and say "hey sathya ! ur already making judgemental remarks urself!" ... really sorry ..... but i've known how guys and girls react ... their thoughts and feelings , just by spending time wif sum1 a whole day i can tell what kind of character they r,what type of family background ..... am i God? nope! .... God has blessed me wif the gift of understanding ... im super detailed even the slightest facial expression or body gesture of what u feeling ... am i lying ? its up to u? am i showing off? what do i gain if i do that? i rather go play games or do sumthing fun den telling lies 2 impress you though after i die i gain nth from this ..... hehez .... well i just dun wanna elaborate coz i dun wanna cause conflict haha! all i can say is ..... if u wanna noe the real sathya .... talk 2 me in msn and he will share 2 u everything that u want 2 know .... that is if he trusts you and u trust him ... :D

i talk 2 a person ytd and i felt joyful sharing to tis person ....today i shared and talk and tis person and this person really shared his/her passion to me ... also his/her dream and enjoyed to tis person coz i felt God is within the conversation because if that person and i noticed ... its revolves around God and us doing for God! man ty ! i also was encouraged! thx for ur friendship and sharing me ur dream :D

i realised im opening myself 2 more ppl now ... i guess i need ppl 2 pace wif me every second if possible so that ill go faster ... assure me plz :D if u wanna noe the real me talk 2 me msn! im more glad to share 2 u everything ... but must depend lar ... no talking abt unbibical stuff or marriage ... just letting every1 noe tat i've made a decision to stay single for the rest of my life ... if its God's plan 2 marry is up 2 Him lor ... anyways i hope 2 hear all of u guys if u have dreams for God.... if possible ... ill blog abt u ! any1 ! hahahahah!

i predicted sumthing ... i was just waiting ... waiting .... but didnt expect it 2 be so soon ... my discerments and predictions of ppl's happening ...... most of time is 99% happens ... God ! i ty for tis wonderful gift that you show me the future of ppl actions and consequences ... but when i see ppl's future tat go bad ... saddens me ... and i noe it saddens me ... i ask You why! WHY! did U make me so sensitive! why did U plan a path for me tat involves me in those hurts and pains ? why must it be I! SATHYA! in sathya's heart multiple time table ... if ppl hurt is 1 ... den ill hurt 1X1000000xinfinite but at the same time if they r happy is 1 ... den ill be happy 1x1000000xinfinite ..... but in tis world i see more hurt than joy ..... tats why my public life ... God .. only u noe ... i always joke,always enlighten atmosphere ... always ... always wish 2 put smiles on ppl face ...i do tis only 2 remove any possible hurts they r going thru... I wanna make them feel happy being around me but its only temperory .. if only i can place the Joy that i have in You in them ... ill be rest assured .... but who r they 2 me ? that i must care? God ... all the good things that i do or am is because of YOU! ... all my sin,my mistakes,my motives ... is because of me ... im removing it bit by bit to change them of ur bits of bits ........ i ask u Why? yet u kept quiet ... i ask u why i have 2 hurt tis much? what is tis gift that u give me ? gift of mercy is my top ...... why oh God? Why? why are you keeping silent? i see u just standing tere.u just stand there listening as if i've judged u and you r standing guilty ... why .... u saw me crying ... u saw my heart break into a million pieces but yet u just stand tere .... as if im nagging at u ... i ask why? why Why WHY but but .... u just stood tere without any motion ... i cried and cried and cried ...... and i saw ur feet as i bowed down 2 cry bitterly ..... letting it all go ... as i cried i thought abt all those hurts and pains den i went thru ... i felt like as if im crying 2 the wall ...

'anyways thank God for listening' i told God... i wiped my tears and i saw God's feet walking towards me ... i looked up to God ... and i saw ... i saw God walking towards me ... opening up His arms and saying "come my child,let me embrace you in my arms" i didnt think for another second ... i ran my soul after God and hugged God and hold Him so tight ... i felt so loved by God ..... after hugging God for a really long time i felt comforted ... den God held my head close to His chest and said "my Son,i noe how u feel.I created You and i made You this way for a reason.I do not want 2 tell you yet because i want u 2 trust me.For I love you so much that i also want You to trust me.Thats why i had 2 place unpleasant events in ur life 2 mold u closer to me.You asked me Why.I can tell You Why.The reason is simply Love." i interrupted God and said "Love?You hurt me because You love me? by any chance is tis tough love?" i sneered at God. God laugh and smiled at me "Haha.My child,the reason why u feel hurt is not because i created You to be hurted but the hurt r my hurts." I looked at God and said "Huh? God i noe it rhymes but explain again ? " God smiled and bend over.He looked me in the eye and said "The pain you went through,isnt yours to begin wif.All of it was mine but a little portion of My heart for people of this world.People all around the world you especially those u encounter with." I looked at God wif perplexed thoughts "Reasons plz". He looked me in the eye and said "That was my HeartBeat for them.Its merely less than 0.0000000001% of what you are going through.Actually,its a rough quick estimation.Even if i take every paper in this world and write all the Zeros for eternity,it still cannot be compared to how i feel for them" I replied "God ..... you must have hurt alot too huh? let me hug u den!" God laughed and hugged me "Haha.My Child.You never fail to put a smile on my Face" I replied " God your so wonderful and nice.Your secure but just for my benefit you hugged me.TY ur so gentleman! MR nice guy!" God gave me a genuine smile and said "You noe me quite well hor?" I roll on the floor laughing " HAHA! God why suddenly u speak singlish sia!" God replied " cannot meh? what u do i make u do one leh.u forget what i said meh? 'God created man in His image' now u talking all u learn from the Master lar" I ROLLED ON THE FLOOR LAUGHING TERRIBLY. I said " WA LAO GOD! ur humor super good huh.not bad u got skills God" God replied " skills? i gave u ur skills u still dare say arh? want challenge arh?"I gave God the stare " lai lar! u start first" den we went on talking crap . MAN! God made me laughed and i couldnt make God laugh at all.I looked defeated den God replied " u noe why ur joke not funny?" i asked "Why?" God replied " ur jokes all i teach u one.Also i noe ur future leh.So telling me ur jokes is like hearing it for the 2nd time.u lose! now said it" I looked puzzeled and asked me " what u mean? what u want me 2 say? God relied by saying "say whose God tell me tell me whose God?" I laughed like mad "wa lao God u super lame!" God replied "tat one i try try only.While i creating Humans i was being lame wif the angels so i created sum of the Humans,especially you to be lame.I made sum as lame as me but im the master.But sum ppl too lame so i healed them.'God heals the blind and the lame' I need not say much " I LAUGHED LIKE MAD AGAIN! "OMG LAR!God i cannot stand You!!!!" God replied " Den sit down lor!" I replied "argh! my stomache hurts .... k k k k k God 2 much 2 much... dun say jokes liao later my organs start 2 come out" God replied "Kk". After i stopped laughing i looked at God and said "God...ty ... Your so funny.So amazing.So wonderful.So kind.So loving especially.So understanding.So sensitive to my needs.You noe my needs and u filled them.Ty so much God.I love you to the maxed!!!!!!!!! God gave me a Big smile

i enjoyed my time with God.This my daily conversion with God when im troubled.I thought about God's love.Some people dun really understand the full measure of God's love.Even me.How do i measure God's 0.000000000001 % love?.I thought abt it and i came to a explanation and conclusion that if God is really powerful like we all know,cant God just destroy all of us and created new Human beings? if those human beings that God created r sinful again cant God destroy them and created new ones? Isnt it possible that God could have done this? Thinking about it,if God could have did all of this .... den why did He wanted to die on the cross?Why did He have to pay for our crime? summurised to one word; Love.i cant possible say nomore.But just 2 tell to all of you,You might thinking ... "but first of all why God create us den destroy us?Why do i even need 2 be hear reading Sathya's blog about God's good side of love and know about his love when i myself wish i just didnt born at all .. i dun even need to feel joy or pain.Why must God created me first of all? I ask arh? if he didnt create me do i need 2 go thru all this and also hearing to your crap sathya?" Let me tell you this again ... WHO ARE WE TO QUESTION GOD! WE ARE JUST MERE CREATION! ... but my dear friends,brothers and sisters ... i noe sum of u r offended and have hearts tat r like "wa God.You so like tis arh.make me ur slave" God didnt.God wanted 2 give u life to the fullest and enjoy life! if u can eat ur favourite food or do ur favourite thing everyday ... would u even wish u were not born? but because u went thru pain tts why u said life sucks.Yup.Life sucks when we dun go according to God's plan.The plan of Love.

just wanna say that tis is how God relates to me.God jokes 2 relate to me.Remeber that Christanity is a relationship and not a religon.And God died to relate with you.If you love dancing,dance with God!Maybe You and God can do some tag team dancing.If you love singing,sing with God!.Maybe you and God can duet.If you love playing basketball.Play it with God!maybe You and God verse other ppl lor :D.If you love talking.Talk to God all day!.Maybe u can pass up ur summary homework to God.If you love anything! Do it with God! Coz God died so He can relate with you, and spend time with you .He created EVERY1 differently and only He noes u fully well! DUN MISS OUT HIS FELLOWSHIP!!! love u guys all!!! *not me but God wants me to tell You tot his ^^*

today went out wif kaien,gina,fong yee,keith,eugene ... i really love u guys if u reading! ( i also love WA my sheeps,my sheepmate,blackie a.k.a black kai a.k.a donkey and my shepherd,bear king a.k.a justin timberland and my DL,turban a.k.a solomon a.k.a betrayer! they r also the best!)

and to that person that i talked to today afternoon ... ty for sharing ur dream to me. jiayou in ur passion! ill give my best help you,encourage u,enlighten u and run the race wif ya! jiayou jiayou! and thx!!!!! for the smiley! i love it! :D

hmm hmm hmm hmm hmm hmm hmm hmm ........ i may shut down my blog for good but i c c lor ....... i blog coz i wanted grow and help ppl grow ... i dunno whether i achieved the 2nd purpose but if now i blog ... its only for the 2nd purpose :D will blog when sum1 ask me lor but im not insecure mind u .. and miley is very encouraging,inspiring and talented... CHILLS!

anyways the btm two link is west anniversary videos ... i heard that tingting did the whole video thingy. And even if she doesnt say or think,i think she really did a excellent job ! i noe roughly how 2 do what tingting but its not easy 2 do ... u gotta try which suits and what doesnt ... you gotta cut and paste and add and lots of stuff which is very stressful! and she really helped me and encouraged me alot too as well! i think WB is so privilliaged to have tingting as their UL! anyways tingting great job!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rzqL-aF8dOs&feature=related 1)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yp4o2g4CqqM&feature=related (Part 2)

God ... ty for ur huggies!i really looooooooooooooooooove yooooooooooou sooooooooooooooooooooo muuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuch!

2008-04-22T20:24:00.003+08:00

A Good Work Has Begun

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YA - HA!

was laughing abt sumthing but dun bother ... im basically really really tried ( though its only 8:30) i worked whole day wif shortage of food ( ask me why :D ) so basically ill share my conviction tomorrow on what i did today .... all i can say is i really really really need alot of encouragement and motivation 2 do what i've done today and continue 2 do the rest of my life ... most difficult task i ever taken and doing ... God may Your Light be shown of what i do ... amen

love God to bits!

2008-04-18T21:40:00.007+08:00

Back from KL

yoyo! back from KL man! ... i was expected two things when i arrived and Singapore but didnt happened ... oh well!

wow ... updating abt tis trip sure sucked my blood dry ... HAHA! it took my soooooooo long 2 upload the pics ... so appreciate my efforts yea? :D

oh yea ... i removed my hits counter ...... i feel i put tere feels kinda insecure whether ppl got visit or not ... i also not bothered by minor details ... i blog who come read thank God for u ... if not ... if not gg lar :D

Day 1

woke up 6am tis morning.on tis morning i just started 2 pack-up for the trip ... LOL! i was lazy ytd night ... den later went 2 meet kaixiang at cck ... we had our breakfast and took cab to BUDGET TERMINAL .... thats where we would be taking our flight to KL .... i was super excited man! my first time boarding an aeroplane! ... it was quite a new exprience .... but what i hate about my whole flying period is my ear was hurting VERY BADLY! .. its normal coz of the air pressure ..but i didnt get 2 sit at the window :( ... anyways we flew above the clouds ... So kool man! everything was so tinnnnnnnny! and the clouds were either like candy floss or sheeps ... hahahaha ... flying thru the clouds was simply amazing ..... and one cup noodle cost 6RM in the aeroplane ... SO X !

after landing in KL we took Cab to Radius International( tts our hotel) and it cost close to 100RM ... gosh ... but kaixiang was paying so ... hahahaha :P did minor shopping ... went to the Mac APPLE store ... and kaixiang shared and show me how it works ... man ITS SO KOOL man! how i wish i had a apple gadget in my hands ... was mesmerised by apple products!

Day 2

we went to sunway lagoon to play play play!!! and tere were many basically 3 rides den turn one whole 360! but den only one of them made me really enjoyed ... the other two turn 360 ... wasnt really scary ... but kai xiang prayed almost every ride in tongues! LOL ! i was beside him hearing him praying ... and i ask him "why u praying when u decided to take the ride ?" he replied "praying work wonders" ... LOL! oh well ... tats his faith hahahaha! ... den we went to look at animals!!! realllllly cute ones! interesting ones! weee! i love animals! ( but they musnt bite :P) .....

I saw this handsome guy so i asked him whether can take pic of him and he gladly accepted :D

this is where ill be taking my aeroplane to KL

basically a aeroplane

the aeroplane wing(was in the sky thru the clouds)

picture of my room mirror( and a amazing handsome looking guy)

our bed

T.V and our coffee supplies and my slurpee(though i hate coffee and tea)

hotel swimming pool

bathtub

he wanted 2 drive into the pool the shortcut way i guess ...

Day 2

nth much happened .... followed kai xiang everywhere .... den i got myself sushi ... i bought one den they told me buy1 get one free ... so i paid RM6 for it ... basically like $1.50 per packet ! cheap man!

later went 2 sum book store and two books caught my eyes ... and i caught "The Power Of Leadership" and "Developing The Leader Within You" very good books ... was well spent :D

Day 3
we went to sunway lagoon! it had extreme park,water park and animal park .. we went to extreme park 2 try out all those rides! man most of them turn 180 degrees,hanged tere awhile den continue to a 360 degrees! OMG! was so life defying man! ... (not for the faint-hearted) ... kaixiang was praying in tongues almost every ride! LOL!

the whole trip is a learning exprience ... but was the lousiest emotional state i ever was ... i was super super super super super hurt!!!!!!!!! but i thank God that He sent a angel just in time ... i was praying real hard ... God ! plz ask sum1,any1 ... 2 just allow me to throw all tis! ..... but i tried find listening ears but but .... they werent free ..... haha it was always like tis ... so ill just let it be as it be ... den i changed msn nick ... i told God "dunno how long more can i keep it inside .... my heart is really hardening up in bitterness and hurt ......." God ... i wanna trust u, i wanna love u more than ever , ill do what pleases u only ... ill ... try ... sumhow ... 2 ... tahan ... tis ... hurt ......" den sum1 noticed ... only 1 ... den the person asked "i saw ur nick changed ,how can i encourage u?" i said "just listen bah " after throwing all my emotions on that person , i felt burdened free ..... for the first time ... in my life ... i felt so so so so light ....... i didnt expect,never expected 2 share to sum1 ... LOL! sorri ppl ... the true is im really introvet ... but what i wear is the Joy of the Lord ... the sathya u see is not really sathya but the holy's spirit encouragement,transformation and empowermeant (if teres such word ) .... i do jokes ... ALOT! but really really sensitive wif almost/all things! ... words,actions,face expressions,thoughts .... hahahahahahhahaz! hahahhaha! oh well ill end tis! u havent seen the whole sathya yet! hehehEHEHEHE! .. anyways tis person really saved me big time .... and the person gave me a * .... the * is shown below the picture ... that person gave me 399 of the * for me! and it really really really encouraged me ALOT!!! and tat person is none other than ...... *BLANK* im not telling! LOL LOL! ask me personally ! and if that person is reading my blog ... i wanna say ... TY SO MUCH! i love ya as my brother/sister! like my blood family and best friend! HAHAHAHA TYTYTYTY!

its a smiley emo .. i really love tis!!!

i got tis two packet of susi for 6RM :D CHEAP!

bought two leadership books

see how small was kaixiang was

mummy light

awaken tiger ... roar!

the bridge was veryyyyyyyyyy

terrain of the bridge (was 10 metres+ height)

kaixiang was being helped! haha

Horsie!!!

kangeroo! *hop hop*

monkey

two duckies ... so romantic!

two flamingo ... so so romantic!

emo duck ... duckie! i completely understand how u feel! hahahahaz

sum sort of ostrich

goats! *maaaa maaaaaa *

eagle

hornbill

weasal( if im not wrong)

cute pony! (kaixiang acting cute -.-'')

turtle,tortise? turtle?

these r limestones ( but they dun really fancy me if they arent in real caves)

a limestone tat looked like a indian 'god'

buddha... hahahaha

playing arcade

sum ride that is quite boring ( ask me why)

red indian!( they r not same wif us :D )

this ride turned 180! and continued a 360!

curry laksa(the curry was WOW)

me being myself(cutie) wif candy floss

2008-04-11T02:07:00.010+08:00

Ever lost something precious?

yay! im back but im aint black ( <--- LAME ) ..... phew ... two weeks arh never update? actually everyday my life got sumthing interesting one but im SO LAZY! forgive me k? i got alot of mixed posts and i dunno where 2 start ... so my title is the last paragraph :D enjoy reading!

kk last two weeks we have ourFirst Ever West Anniversary ! man was i so amazed how God has really work thru West.Alot of ppl came alot of ppl left, but we wont be discouraged for as we continue to work,God is working as well :D

Happy birthday West! (cake)

at night i was playing dota, as usually i own ppl so badly that they cried ... lol! kidding lar ... they didnt cried ... while i was playing my mum came in the room and gave me 7 ferrero rocher! man! its been very long since i had one of these in my mouth ... the crunchyness ... the chewingness ... the bitingness ... the chocolateness ... WOW SPLENDID! :D

yum! :D

the nxt thing i could remember was ... ZK BIRTHDAY! Kaien and I went to his house 2 give him a surprise ... yup! he was surprised! HAHA .... we actually plan 2 buy KFC 2pic and cheese melts for him... but when we just reached the entrance of KFC ... they started 2 lock the door ... as they were locking the door we were staring inside the KFC ... den the uncle pointed at a notice board.'Closing time **** to 10pm' omg! i checked my hp and it was 9:59 ... i told kaien "but its 9:59 leh still got one minute can order rite? unfair leh" i wanted 2 show my hp 2 the uncle just for fun but when i looked at it again ... it was 10pm ... :( life's too sad! hahahahahahaha! ... so we decided to buy breadtalk for zk since he loves 2 eat bread .... and we bought around ... 10 bread and it was like EXP! i was complaining to kaien its x! but its zk birthday so ... nvm bah ... sacrifice abit .... :D

kaien advertising breadtalk :P

ZK's birthday 'cake(bread)

i remembered i did sumthing VERY stupid and silly .... i actually went to the fridge to grab my cereal box ... den after i got my plate and utensils ready,i poured the cereal into my plate. den i went back to the fridge 2 grab milk .... den i was thinking if i use chocolate milk,the milk gets more chocolatie...but if i used milk den the milk will be chocolatie and its milk contents r tere ... which was a healthier choice ... so i decided 2 use milk for my cereal .... after pouring my milk into my bowl ... i realised the milk smells not like milk ... den i ate my cereal and realised the milk i used was SOYA BEAN MILK! MY CEREAL TASTED AWFUL! ... now i have is chocolatie soya bean milk ... i forced myself 2 eat in pain coz i dun wanna waste food .... my dad was basically lol himself when he heard what i did ... dots ....

den i remembered another abit stupid and silly, but at first i quite smart! .... i bought ice milo from sweet talk and brought it home ... actually i love milo dinosaur but they put 2 little of the milo powder ... so i decided to use my home's milo powder ... i grab my spoon so tat i can open up my milo tin lid.i walk towards my milo tin den i used the spoon and open up my rice cooker ... WT LAR! why i did both stupid things coz i SERIOUSLY cant multi-task ... when i was doing those stuff.i was thinking abt sumthing else ... soz ! u can ask my sheeps ... i remembered my sheep was irritated tat i ignored him den he pinched me,den i heck care him den he forget abt 'gaining' my attention .... den after i thought abt the stuff i wanna think i went "ouch! oi sheep why u pinch me?" den my sheep was "when?" i said "just now" "... but the just now was like 5minutes ago ....." LOL rite? seriously I CANT MULTI-task TAT WELL OR AT ALL! even leading worship i forget what chord i should play or i hold wrongly .. ps :D

now is offically going 2 be 1am ... and i need 2 wake up 6am .... anyways im leaving monday to KL for 4days 3 nights! and my dad,mum gave me totally of 400 rm! im so blessed! because im not really rich so tis is ALOT to me already :D .... today monday 14 april 2008 is my first ever shopping spree! breakthru! hahaha! and im flying to KL on AIRPLANE! im so EXCITED EXCITED EXCITED! but i havent packed or got anything ready yet LOL im still lazy ...*sathya is siao*

im really tired and pissed so i just wanna draft thru what happen today ...

today i lost my $20 ... i was like sianzzzzzzzzzzzz ... wasted money .... i told God 'im kinda sad abt it' God was like 'i understand, i also feel super siaaaaaaaaaaaanz when my son jesus died on the cross and ppl were mocking Him" den God told me sumthing 2 remember for a lifetime so ill write it below

ever lost ur belongings?

ever lost your someone close to you?

ever lost something u valued alot?

ever lost your material goods?

ever lost your hope?

ever lost your encouragement?

ever lost your emotions?

ever lost ... ever lost sumthing/sumone that holds your world?

remember that God gave His Son for us ... and He completely understands the pain of losing sumthing tat affects u deeply ... God loves You so much

2008-03-28T03:37:00.005+08:00

Chocolate

hihihi all! :D

omg ... these days i've been eating chocolate ALOT! ... i keep eating chocolate cream wif bread like almost every hr that kind .... will i get weight? hmm ... let see ... 52kg ... wait one week see got a rise or not ... oh well ... sathya lets run 2 lose tat 2kg alright? that 2 very xtra:D anyways ill upload the pics i chosen :D

its pretty dark but tis was our first pic ...

it was a failure coz tere r actually 4 of us... jolene,jing mei and huiru

gotten it at a wrong angle ... lol!

we started taking alot of pics.... so yea :D

we wanted 2 give the 'shock' look but look at huiru,she very calm hor?

2nd attempted ... haha 'shock' photo sucess!

so we decided to try the 'tongue' look and look at huiru again,she seems like looking at something ... a flower? oh btw , huiru's nickname is huiru the flower :D

2nd attempt and the 'tongue' look was a sucess! :D

now we tired the 'sleepy' look ... and tis time huiru the flower nailed it ... congratz!

tis pic was pretty nice but tis one was a accident,lol i was holding the camera and i was missed out :( LOL

among all the photos we took ytd,tis was the best :D those smiles were priceless :D

im not really a photogenic(i not sure the spelling is tis) kind of person means i feel abit uncomfortable sumtimes taking photos but seeing them paints more than a thousands words :D

currently we r going on a nickname list .....

Huiru the flower

Jolene LJS(lame jolene stupid) <--- LOL

JingMei catgirl

Sathya Dragon boy <--- -.-''

and each of us got a signature move ... silly but exciting haha

maybe i should come out wif a nickbook list ... see lor haha

olate!

2008-03-26T02:30:00.007+08:00

Character :D

my title ill talk abt it all the way below ... so be4 tat r all random post

anyways Hi to every1 :D ..... i guess i decided to blog so that i wont bore u guys :D actually tis blog is for me but since u guys r here might as well enjoy it ... yea? .... hehe :D will go thru sum random photos bah ............

my new 'hair' :D

nono ... im not growing old .... its a wig and im not lying :P

i took a picture of tis on valentines day .... inside were almos cookies if im not wrong ..... it was given to me by fong yee,why i take tis picture because im simply was touched coz she made it herself ..... though its simple i prefer hand-made things rather than a million dollars ... really :D

i just took tis picture last sat .... if u notice they r holding hands ............................................

and since i came out from LRT they were like hugging den later switch 2 hold hands .... i even was considering whether 2 take picture ... after thinking for 10 seconds i took a photo, and after awhile they still hold hands ... LOL ... i was like i seen alot of blanglas do tis kind of acts one,i once told my friends 'why always they like 2 gay arh .... zzzz " my friend replied me "banglas come singapore 2 work mah,tts why no banglas women 2 jio out" .... LOL but true ... ROFL!!! but its not gay just tat,like brother that kind ..... maybe love language is Touch ... but 2 much liao haha ... oh well God i noe u love them so ... yup :D

dead body .... faster make a wild guess who who who ????

so know the answer already?

should noe the answer by now .....

if u guess it was me den ur right :D .... i did sum crazy stuff at kai en's house tat time ... basically i went into the sleeping bag,den kai en used a belt 2 tie my neck area ... like dog like tat ...zzz oh well :D

sunday morning somthing happen ................. morning interterms of 1am,2am tat kind ..... they actually pissed me off with their actions but it wasnt their fault .... was hurt after tat but choose 2 ignore it ... i played game 2 cool myself off .... den suddenly they come 2 my house,they come 2 my room and gave me tis(see the below picture) .... they wrapped chocolates wif a paper and wrote "sathya sorry :( " .......... den the person after giving me keep saying sorry ...... den i diam diam awhile coz i dun like 2 talk when im hurt ..... den later i like wipe my eyes coz i dunno why got tears suddenly,den he/she said "feel touched rite? crying rite?" i was like thinking to myself .... u made me angry den i touched for ? LOL ... but anyways touched indeed .... anyways i think i noe who initiated 2 make me that so called apology gift ... coz the other ppl i noe dun do tis one ... haha ty though :D

after tat keith,jogina,joshua and xue yong was at my house , keith and jogina went home ... coz keith slept for 3hrs in 3days and jogina is a girl and its 3am -.-'' so chun all 333 ... so i asked joshua and xue yong 2 thon at my house .... while keith and jogina wanted 2 leave,jogina keep delaying and do everything slow,keith was tensed and agitated ... ROFL LOL!!! should seen him walking very fast .... he walk so fast that he slipped on my door mat and felled ... LOL!@#$%^& ..... den he keep walking very very fast here and tere waiting for jogina 2 get ready her shoes and stuff.. ... LOL ...

den i woke up,i found myself asleep on my bed ... wt ... i was watching joshua or xue yong playing my com game den i felled asleep ... den i saw joshua and xue yong sleeping the same bed ...den i wake them up asking "why u guys never wake me up? u guys suppose 2 sleep where im sleeping and u guys sleep down" ... den very funny ... they share their bed exprience,tat xue yong keep pushing joshua out of the bed, and joshua keep pushing away xue yong 2 lie on the bed coz the floor very uncomfortable .. LOOL so funny ....... :D

monday went 2 kenny house 2 watch soccer wif zk and jolene ..... seriously im not into soccer but when i went tere, i was into the game,i could feel the Adrenalline(correct me if i spelled it wrong) rush in me when the teams were abt 2 make goals... watched menu VS liverpool ... i think liverpool played a bad game ... i dunno .... and wat was his name again ? he shouldnt have argued wif the referee to caused him 2 have a RED card ... can tell that the referee buay song him from the start,he still go argue,quite stupid ... even his teammate tried 2 stop him but he stubborn .... haiz .... den need so many ppl 2 control him .. haha but overall i enjoyed myself tere watching wif my buddies! :D and kenny commented tat his father was noisy ... LOL ... common lar, his father was like every second got comment one LOL ... but it make the atmosphere more intense ... haha :D

sometimes i wonder,why ppl judge me outwardly,if u noe me im sum1 tat crap and talk nonsense alot but doesnt mean im never serious nor do i mean what i said when i joke,watever i say abt anybody its plain for entertainment,but u can know when im serious im DEAD serious,and watever things i have done 2 hurt u and im serious abt it has a reason.my top gift is gift of mercy,so if ur hurt once,i hurt quad druple more.... just because i joke alot doesnt mean that im a person den will laugh at u when u tell me problems or watever and never can be serious wif anything,haha oh well , think and say all u want, if u trust me den i promise i try my best not 2 let u down :D

sumtimes i think letting go emotions in blog seem un-spiritual, hahahaha , oh well,tis arent emo post anyways,i dun give emo post but live updates :D

anyways character is something cant be bought,to be as long as u be urself and be nice,i would like the way u ar,looks arent everything,even if i cut your hands,u lose a hand but ur character stays,if i cut ur legs and hands,the only thing that still stays is character,even if ur acid is burn wif acid,ur character wont change abit,only if u change it urself,i dun need u 2 have a handsome or pretty face to be my friend,just be urself,be real,and me kind,nice and gentle 2 me,coz im really sensitive :D HEHE

well left less than 3hrs be4 i wake up .... oh well pray for my interview 2 be a sucess :D

i must run from sin man .... zzzzz

2008-03-20T02:14:00.002+08:00

10,000 BC

well since zk say it was like 300 ... so i decided to watch 10,000 ...

and boy ..... IT ISNT ANYTHING ALIKE LIKE 300!!!

i really think 300 is a very very nice show but 10,000 ... its abit kool but not exactly the same -.-''

the only similarity i see is,there are killing and it happened long time ago ... ZZZ

zk ... LOL ......................................

anyways i think step up 2 is very nice! ..... during the show my body actually like wanted 2 move

or is it because i was too cold? ...... could be both

it was raining ... sucks big time

couldnt evax ..........

so decided to play basketball

soz ..... i've been playing for less than a week in choa chu kang community center ... and many ppl who i never talked 2 be4 keep saying im pro .....

im not trying 2 show off or anything,but i missed ALOT of shots when i played tis few days

guess out of form or im getting old or sumthing ....

sad case ...... i realised i had talent in basketball,in terms of skills i almost/all won them...

i wonder why i couldnt pursue my talent ... maybe because of my secondary school coach ... which he was racist ....... 2 bad ... i couldnt believe west spring was so weak,basically owned the basketball team ... haiz ......

today i watched a match which was 5v5... it was kool ...

it was philipinos VS chinese ... the philipino were good as !@#%&*()

just like 5cm more or less i could grab the ring .... pretty amazing for my height

did i received a double confirmation of what im gonna do? ..... gonna be hard though ...

2008-03-18T02:37:00.002+08:00

**********

currently my computer is down ... so basically cant update or go msn often ... (<---who cares) ....................... tis days moody when i thought of that 'thing' .... so far i shared abit to xue yong the outer but whole thing 2 my shepherd ... couldnt take it ... 4years is more den enuff 2 tahan already ... couldnt stand it no longer .... cant stand it .......... when den will i do? ........ tis will be my last emo post ...... LOL .......... sathya is ........ gonna .......... change ............. its not for bad for i noe its for better .................. the point being ** ....... God ... i need 2 learn 2 be more ****** ......... eyyucks! ......... ill try ... am i escaping reality? maybe ... im just escaping from pain :D first he lost it ... now u .... 'let u win lar' .... is tat how you speak 2 ur father ... or me? ..... wow! amazed! marvelous indeed ........................................... not bothering not bothering ... i promise tis is last .... so i bid u farewell to ..................................my above title ..... not me not me u see ....... not me not me i will be .... and not me not me ...........sathya (dun think 2 much and dun bother!

2008-03-12T01:37:00.001+08:00

A smile is contagious.(stolen from Johnson from hopekuching)

Smile and the whole world smiles with you. In fact, this is surely agreeable. Whenever you project a smile to people, people can't help but bounce back with a simple smile back to you.

To a greater degree, even strangers do that too. Even in your weariness, you still can't help but smile back when people smile at you. Despite of its simplicity, it does make the world a better place to stay. It enhances the atmosphere.

It creates positive and heartening surroundings. And it definitely makes a difference.Likewise, a frown creates an atmosphere too. An atmosphere of friction that will lead to conflict and hostility as to a smile can create a better unity and rapport.

The question is, "Which is more preferable?" It's a gateway to your personality. It takes seventeen muscles to smile and forty-three to frown. A smile can diminish pain, especially emotional and psychological pain. It helps in brightening your day.

I mean, the entire day! A smile is worth more than a thousand words. It's a universal language. When people or friends smile at you, especially when you are so downcast, melancholy and least expecting it, you feel overjoyed and untroubled. It helps to erase off our papaya mood instantaneously.

As a result, it turns your mourning into dancing.In reality, I, myself is not perfect when it comes to smiling. I do luxuriate in smiling. Even many have evaluated me as a cheerful and sanguine guy. Yet, I do fail often times. I carry papaya face early in the morning and whenever i am discouraged.

It's bad, i know. Still, i will disciple myself to consistently wear a smile whenever I am around. Or should i say, when i am still alive.

=D Above all, it comes from the heart.After all, the bible says in the book of Psalm 17:22,"A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones."It's undoubtedly difficult to consistently carry a smile with you right? Yet believing that a smile will bring a little sunshine to my life and others, I reckon that i am more blissful to bless others with it. No amount of money can buy you one. It has no monetary worth yet it's priceless. Even if it causes me to be very uncomfortable at times, but it will turn out to be comfortably uncomfortable.

I will try my best! Under-construction. LOL!Let's make it a habit.

To sum up everything, once again allow Dr. Johnson W. to inspirit all of his readers with these quotes.

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Smile and it will increase your face value. ~Mutu Sadararajan

All the statistics in the world can't measure the warmth of a smile. ~Chris Hart

If you meet someone who has no smile, give him yours. ~Proverb

Remember that there is no happiness in having or in getting, but only in giving.

Reach out. Share. Smile. Hug. ~Og Mandino

People seldom notice old clothes if you wear a big smile. ~Lee Mildon

Today, give a stranger one of your smiles. It might be the only sunshine he sees all day. ~H. Jackson Brown, Jr.

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So, ready to show your best smile? Go to the mirror and practice smiling now! After all, a smile invites a smile.

2008-03-06T16:50:00.013+08:00

What am I?
took alot of personality test for fun and sum r fakes but sum r really true abt me so i posting them :D

Your Interpersonal Intelligence Score: 78%

Your Interpersonal Intelligence is High

You are definitely a "people person." You enjoy spending time with others.

You instinctively understand people, and you are both a good counsellor and mediator.

However, there are definitely times when you've had enough. And that's when you cherish being alone.

Your Heart is Feeling Safe

Right now, all is good with your heart. And you intend on keeping it that way.

Whether you're deeply in love or just looking, you know that your heart will be taken care of.

You never risk your heart too much, but you don't hold it back either. You know who to trust your heart with.

Deep down, your heart is susceptible to: Getting a little too comfortable

Your current outlook on love: Calm and future oriented

Your love life will improve if you: Treat other people's hearts the way you expect yours to be treated

Your Blogging Type Is Thoughtful and Considerate

You're a well liked, though underrated, blogger.

You have a heart of gold, and are likely to blog for a cause.

You're a peaceful blogger - no drama for you!

A good listener and friend, you tend to leave thoughtful comments for others.

People Definitely Like You

You are very well liked, and many people admire you.

You are friendly, well mannered, and fun to be around.

Of course, you're not perfect... but that's okay.

Your friends are usually willing to accept you for who you are!

What People Don't Like About You:

People don't like that you seem unnatural and stiff at times. You sometimes give off an impression of being standoffish or fake.

What People Like About You:

People like that you can defend what you believe in calmly and rationally. You stand your ground and gain respect.

People like that you give them complements. You make people feel good about themselves!

People like that you don't gossip or talk poorly of others. They trust that you will speak positively about them too.

You Are 72% Open Minded

You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded.

Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints.

But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line.

You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself.

You Are a Night Person
(if u dun noe im a night person den u dunno me at all ... coz tis is sumthing very obvious when ur around me :D)

For you, there's nothing worse than having to get up and moving early.

In fact, you probably don't hit your peak until well after the sun has set.

So if your struggling to make it on a normal schedule, realize it's not your fault.

You just weren't meant to do anything during the day!

You Can Change Your Life, But It Won't Be Easy

You really, truly want to change. You're just not sure that you can do it.

You need a solid plan, supportive friends, and a strong will.

Think about times you've made hard changes, and what you did to get through them.

A change is in your future - you just need a little help getting started.

You Are Very Honest

You tell it like it is, no matter what.

Even if the truth hurts, you'll dish it out.

And while some may get hurt by your honesty...

At least everyone knows where you stand!

You Mostly Have Your Emotions in Check

Sometimes your emotions get out of control, but you usually are a pretty stable person.

You can find a lot to be happy about, as long as things are going your way.

But if a few bad things happen to you, you tend to go in a bit of a downward spiral.(true but sumtimes)

Luckily, you usually come out of it okay and no worse for the wear.

Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF)

You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.

You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals.

You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.

Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings.

You seek out other empathetic people to befriend.

Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships.

In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily.(doesnt mean its BGR.May include friendship as well :D)

At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career.

With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone.

As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style.

On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

You Are A Loyal Sidekick

While you aren't the most visable one in your group...

You're always up for a good time or conversation

And you stick with your friends no matter what

You may feel underappreciated - but it only seems that way!

hehehehehe .. hope u noe more abt me after tis :D *CHEESE*

2008-03-04T01:34:00.006+08:00

Memories

weeeEEE! im here 2 talk 2 my blog! how r ya blog ? miss me arh? hahahahaz ! i sure u miss me till die arh? haha ... okay lar i here liao dun cry cry blog k ? :D

i just wanna congratz those names i remembered for water baptising because ... the east ppl were disturbing me!!! sorri if i left ya out! :D

Zhengkai

Kenny

YongMei

Jogina

YuanHan

SIANZ~ !!! my hp spoilt ... i wanted 2 take photo wif all of them ... IM SO sad ... i missed it ... ZZZzzzZZ ... and if any1 happen 2 passby and noes me and i didnt write ur name ... PLEASE tag! hahaz! i wanna include ur name as well :D cheese

i went for a spiritual 'walk'! so kool! ... actually cycling basically ... i carried on where i left .... i cycled to west spring,fajar,zheng hua and greenridge! den i prayed for each skool! I felt like winning the world for God! LOL :D ... i thank God tat He answered my prayer which is zk and his group growing! yay!

hmmmm ......... sum nerd was talking 2 msn ... den he ask me so many pervertic questions ... den he end up saying 3things "indian boy" "indian r the worst . especially u" " i am ****" .... i dunno who exactly is he ... he seems 2noe things and i noe hes not one of 'us' ....... hmmmmmmm ... i guess i dun bother ... *God who exactly is he?*

hmmm ... alot of emotions is brewing up ... many times=90% i have 2 bottled it up ... 10 is improper ....... i seen so many things ... proven last week only 'those who r my friends r not really my friends,those who r my friends wasnt really my friends" =90% true ..... last sunday someone initiated abt my feelings ... thx :D ... last last week sum1 spared a thought ... thx! :P... (i dun wanna go on ..... to my diary! )

ytd i like the best was when i was wif sherman ... was fun! hes a nice guy ... LOL ... suddenly thinking abt him brought me 2 look the below pictures which resulted in my entry ... hehehez

our mismatched photo! :D

FNW (2years ago)

stolen from her old blog(the women to the right is eelee :D

..... i dunno how much 2 say i missed her ... but thank God i have so many friends 2 fill tat 'eelee's void :D LOL! ..... all i can remember of her is encouragement from her always! ...she always tell me that she believed in me .... she talks 2 me end up always only end up in three ways 'encourage me,support me(stands up for me),mold me(grow me)' i will constantly wait 2 hear her speak every CLM ..... and i remembered her preaching and the only thing i remembered was "hey! lets really be attentive to the WOG because overall the WOG has full authority over us.Let us not be choosy and have favourite speakers.I noe that u guys including me, im most guilty of it, that we have a list of favourite preachers.Why not we cast that list away and hear from WOG shall we?" tis sumthing tat will never leave me ....! proberbly when she comes back, im not much known to her i wouldnt be the one who she will expect 2 see but ..... who cares ... i just hope 2 see her real person to person ...tat will do!if i could ill just HUG her to death LOL! no wrong motives k? shes my spiritual mother :D

sathya ... please be strong ... tis aint gonna be easy ... but let Peter,in the bible, become real to u ...... stand up among West,and GO!(pray for me plz)

2008-02-28T03:43:00.002+08:00

Seven questions to ask every ministry leader

by Rick Warren

We have a lot of haphazard ministry being done in our churches around the world. Good people, who love the Lord, aren’t thinking through what God has called them to do. Ministry is too important to be done haphazardly. We can’t just say, “I’ll give it my best shot!” We need to think through what the ministries in our church are all about. Our ministries must be good stewards of all they’ve been given. For that to happen, we’ve got to plan ministry strategically.
There are seven important questions that need to be answered when you’re planning an effective ministry. These are questions for any healthy ministry – whether it’s your music ministry, greeters, small group leaders, or any other ministry team.

1. Why are you here?

Every ministry in your church should have a clear idea of what it’s all about. Each one needs a purpose statement. You develop that statement by asking two questions: What is the business of this ministry? And what is none of this ministry’s business?
What’s the business of Saddleback? We attract members, teach them to worship God, develop them to Christlike maturity, and mobilize them for ministry in the church and a life mission in the world. We do that in each stage and segment of their lives. If something doesn’t fit within that mission statement, we don’t do it.

Every ministry within your church needs a purpose statement like that. Ask each ministry:

What do you do and what do you not do?

2. What purpose of the church does your ministry fulfill?

Every ministry in your church should be tied to at least one of the five purposes of the church. Is this ministry designed to exalt Christ (worship)? Is it designed to reach out to the community (evangelism)? Is it designed to deepen relationships within the church (fellowship)? Is it designed to build people into Christian maturity (discipleship)? Is it designed to serve the needs of the church family (ministry)?

3. Who are you trying to reach?
You need to figure out who your ministry is trying to reach – the Community, the Crowd, the Congregation, the Committed, the Core, or the Commissioned. Ministries trying to reach the Community are evangelistic in nature. Ministries that serve those during weekend services are focused on the Crowd. Ministries focused on church members will work with the Congregation. Ministries that help people grow spiritually will center on the Committed. Ministries that meet the needs of people within the church or try to get people involved in the ministry of the church will focus on the Core.

You need to know who your ministry is trying to reach. The Community has different needs than the Committed. The Congregation has different needs than the Core. Knowing who your ministry is trying to serve will influence how the ministry operates.

4. Where do you believe God is calling your ministry to be in six months?

This is the stage where your ministry leaders dream. Where would they like to see the ministry six months from now? If your ministry leaders can’t think about the future, they aren’t ready to lead the ministry. Ask your ministry leaders to get away with God and talk to him about the ministry’s future.

5. How does your ministry do what it has been called to do?

Did you know that your body has nine systems in it? When any one of those systems gets out of order, it’s called an illness or disease. The church (the body of Christ) has systems in it as well. And for us to be healthy our systems have to work properly. How do your ministries do what they’ve been called to do? Ask your ministry leaders to think and pray about how to do ministry more effectively.

6. Who can you partner with to do what God has called you to do?
Your ministry leaders need to constantly be on the watch for people who can join them in ministry. Ask your ministry leaders to begin praying for at least one person who should be joining their ministry team.
Jesus said, “The harvest is plentiful but the laborers are few. Pray for laborers.” Ask your ministry leaders to begin praying for more laborers.

7. In what way do you serve people?

Your ministries should serve the people in your community. Are you meeting physical, emotional, mental, or spiritual needs (or a combination thereof)? All of those needs are valid. Part of understanding the identity of your ministries is to know how each of them serves people. Then look for ways you can add value to the services those ministries provide. In other words, look for ways each of your ministries can do a better job providing for the physical, emotional, mental, or spiritual needs of the community.

2008-02-26T02:06:00.004+08:00

Faith!

didnt do much today ... was planning to do some planning as well as checking ... did that but didnt went out ... haha ... what i discerned was exactly the same ... wow ... God is so kool!

ytd was talking to matt ... den suddenly we came upon our spiritual gifts ..... and i was suddenly surprised at how many gifts God has entrusted it to me ...

1) Gift of mercy

2)Gift of evangelism

3)Gift of serving

4)Gift of wisdom

5)Gift of understanding( i think its a gift)

6)Gift of discernment

i think maybe i got more but tis is alot! already ... maybe u guys can let me noe wat gifts do i still have ... haha :D

anyways God increased my faith alot when i was reading Luke chapter 18 ..... what made my eyes filled wif atonishment was in verse 8b However,when the Son of Man comes, will he find faith on the earth?' ... the chapter basically talks abt having a persistant spirit of not giving up and never having the intention to give up in anything and everything we do.But how do we be persistant? ... Have a goal ... ask God what He wants u to do be4 u say sayonara to Earth ... wat is it that He wants u 2 accomplished? that will be ur goal :D

more to come "Smiling is a bibical thing"

choose sathya .....

2008-02-25T01:48:00.004+08:00

randomness

I have no topic but ill wack all i wanna say :P tis gonna be very long post ... haha

Last sunday, we had basketball match with the North ..... logically speaking,we were better at skills.Basically all-rounded we r but we won them by 8 points i guess?Some were messing around,and we cant blame at one another because i realised all of us made ALOT of mistakes during the match.I guess we having 2 much CONFIDENCE! LOL ... we were like "hey,if we dun win the north by 20 pts we really very lousy" . Though considering North and West,relatively speaking in skills,West was better.Yet, at that point of time North was better at Teamwork.Pretty amazed at how much we screwed up.Haha practice makes perfect.WRONG!practice makes permanent :P.

abit sad ... keith went back home , he TOO tired ... OH YEA! i remembered ... he was injuired as well . He had like a ... bowling ball stuck in his leg or sumthing ... it was HUGE! haha ... i was tere ... why he got that 'balaku' is because he tempted to be DD(dare-devil) , so he glided across the railing,slipped,'FLYED',spin and ... ARGH! ... at the point of time i dunno whether to laugh or to help ... i decided to LAUGH! LOL ... sorri keith ... but u try 2 be me LOL! jk jk anyways its healed already ... he learn sumthing ... i think

later headed over to Wei loong's house to PARTY! ... i couldnt remember all of them but i so far i remembered was,Wei loong(obviously -.-'),Sathya(obviously!!! -.-''),Jolene,Jogina,Nicolas,Jian Hao,Xue Yong and a few others which i forgotten or dunno the name(SORRIZ). Was fun ... really FUN! his house was super hospital! lots of food . and i ate the best food in my life! ...noodles! u noe why? coz the noodles wasnt even cooked properly ... it was like ,only loosen havent cook yet... noe wat i mean? LOL ... and guess whose the chef? ... im not telling :D

actually i did sumthing 3days ago my older brother and i had a ... not so direct fight which was caused by my mother ... i felt guilty after that and went outside my house staircase 2 let out my guilt... that i saw a guy pass by and i feel like ps sit alone at staircase like emo kia... den later when i thought abt the 'fight' ... i felt distant away from my brother ... i hate to say it but i do ... l.....o.....v.....e my brother ... i dunno why ... after all those things he did for me i was moved ... i couldnt stand being further away from him ... den unable 2 control my soft little heart ... i teared ... den i wiped myself den a guy passbied me... WA LAO embarassing ...zzz i couldnt stand it ... if i continue sitting here im gonna cry the whole night .... ,so i decided to let it go thru cycling! ... i cycled to yew tee to explore yew tee abit more . after many turns and detours. i always appear somewhere else ... not to the extreme i in CCK den suddenly end up in pasir ris lar ... wa lao ... i mean i cycle front i suddenly turn here and tere den appear at where i was or behind the building ... LOL! im a country-bumpkin=no sense of direction :( . F.Y.I ... i only know where meridian was after two years going tere ... SIAO RITE??!! LOL!!! ... den i cycled till quite bored but i was super 'HIGH' coz tis my first time cycling alone. den decided to do sumthing spiritual *huhuhuhuhuh* i cycled to cck,teck whye and bpgs to do spiritual prayers :D den i decided to pray for the BP side ... so i decided to take the furthest skool first which was AES and chestnut ... so i cycled inside ten-mile that route ... i kept cycling ... at almost 3/4 of max speed most of the time and max speed most of the time as well.i cycle for like 30minutes!non-stop speeding and i wasnt able 2 reach there.I ended up at weird places and a sign board shown "5KM to Singapore Zoo" WAH!!! should i turn back? maybe abit more ... cycled for another 10 minutes another sign board "> to Singapore Zoo" WAH! i scared liao ... 'where am i ?' 'should i go on?' ... i scared i too tired 2 go back sia ... so i decided to head back ... was super duper tired.my butt was NUMB! LOL ps ..... was very bumpy ride ... shall continue tis spiritual adventure :D

anyways i just checked 4 blogs for now and guess what, 3 of them talked about the same thing ... and those posts i read was, they didnt noe how to so if ur reading this den ur blessed lol! ... They talked about how they wish their friends were nicer,and those good stuff , or also how other ppl r troubling their friends as well and willing 2 fight and protect their friends <--- kool . As well as why they cant find good friends so on and forth . Was abit troubled ... i dunno whether to help or pity them. anyways, wat is my say in this? i totally agree that we all desire great friends.Such as a friend that will never ps u,friend that is always nice to u,friend that shows more care,concern and value in u,friend that says or does nice things for u but i can guarantee we all know that even our best friend WILL SURELY LET US DOWN! .... not because they wanted to,but simply because they r being human.Yet sometimes because of tis one thing or a few that our buddies does that makes u go outraged,we will try win their attention by doing sumthing or simply saying 'byebye' . is tis true friendship? friendship is considered as it is as long as 'they got ur back' ... tats enuff ! what i mean is friendship is just friendship and has no limt nor minimum.its a profound thing. a great advice i give to all ... instead of asking or wanting ur friends 2 be ur friends,why not u be their friend always? even if they ps u,never ever have a thought ' they ps me once, i think its okay if i ps him/her now' ........... LOL ... i couldnt bare do the things all the evil things my friends did to me.my friends are everyone and im everyone's friend.Sathya got ur back.Its a promise :P

did alot of thinking ..... i asked myself why am i sOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO fragile and soft hearted ..... why do i see orphans,starving children,elderly ppl selling tissues,handicapped, i feel like a spear just went thru my heart ....... argh!!! my whole family im the only one sensitive to many issues ... my character is NTH like my parents ... NTH! .....im even more sensitive than my mother in many issues -.-'' ..... i wondered why was i so soft-hearted ... i think thru deeply, ... when i was young was i like that? ...........no i dun think so. i had really really really low self-esteem be4 i received Christ ... my life was in a mess without Christ ... i only realised the more close i get to God ... the more softer i get ......... is it a good thing or a bad thing? haha ...... why? in what circumstances was i like tat? *thinking* *thinking* *thinking* the only two reasons i can come out was because of Christ made me this way ...and/or my heart was molded during the time in my mother's womb haha! carry on reading if u wanna noe wat i meant

i love to think about alot of stuff .... suddenly my mum brought out tis subject and tis like dunno the how many million times ... she said " when u were in my stomach (mind her coz her english not that good LOL! ... sounds like she ate me or sumthing) ... i thought u were girl , i take care of u . i ate fruits and healthy healthy stuff no unhealty food at all.and when u was born,we thought we had the wrong child because u was very very fair.like the english man like tat ... very very bright.now u c , so tanned." *diaoing* "if u girl arh,u sure die one.all ur brothers will treat u like a maid will ask u iron their clothes cook all tis ... lucky u born guy" *so if i girl i become maria arh?* i think tis works i think ...during the process of the child is in the mother's womb,the mother's intake of food and emotion is VERY VERY IMPT! .. for even if she emotional stress it will DEFINITELY affects the child growth and everything ... i dunno whether sciencetist has found out tis that the mother's mentally and emotion is very impt as well ... f.y.i it does :P... speaking abt tis i remembered at my workplace two of my colleages keep pesting me "whose ur gf?" or "go get one lar" ... den they were like talking abt those american-born-chinese they were either super handsome or super hot! ... den suddenly they turn 2 me "aiya ... when u dun born as girl" *diao as if i had a choice* so kool ... END of tis :D

i love to think ... i think about alot alot of stuff! ...... but sumtimes i end up think till im worried to a point im stress ... though it wasnt impt i dunno why i think i think till stress ... and David said to me be4 "focus on thinking on/wif God" ... i still can remembered while waiting for sum1 at MRT ,i sat down and think , think and think ... den i think till i was worried, den i was stress , den i started 2 wept ... and u noe wat ? .... it was on my birthday somore 2 years ago ... LOL! my first emotional break down for no reason... SO FUNNY! coz its silly hahaz! (no comments 2 be made for tis post :D its meant for me only)

oh yea i want 2 thank S for catching me at the right time and cheering me up :P i think u noe who u r ... also J for being a great sis/bro(not telling) and Z for being relational wif me :P and T for showing me that my words matter to u though we r like nobody ... so it shows i matter to u ... haha thx! ... and V for offering me sweets and not my friends ... i mean though he/she is very young spirtually and physically ... cant blame mah ... tis mean i was a friend 2 u .. little thing i also valued it and also J was giving me a light punch. i dunno why everytime i around u ... i feel so secured,happy,joyful and simply SUPER DUPER HIGH ur character is simply amazing! if i can ill marry u LOL maybe not ... i just think that ur one of the greatest relational friends :P ty! ... and lastly J for watching over me ALWAYS! and FOREVER! LOVES U and all my B=buddies and FRIENDS!!! WEEE

2008-02-20T23:55:00.001+08:00

Initiator and Initiate

updates tomorrow!

so many things to say and let go ... i guess ill tell it to him haha ... TIS SAT NIGHT :P haha!

2008-02-16T01:46:00.009+08:00

Eye-candies!

well ... if girls can have eye candies why cant guys have it? HAHA!!! LOL .... tis will be written about at the last paragraph for now lets head to ... David's chef! :P

Chef JH and BlackAI

the chocolate cake we made a hole in the middle and name it "David hole(hoe)" LOL

the lifes Hole impacted

do check out the videos i take during the process David's birthday ... its long and maybe boring but if u got time just see lor LOL ... btw ... do check out my other videos as well HAHAZ!!!

http://www.youtube.com/user/sathya13524

ok drum roll please .................. EYE CANDIES HAHAZ!!!

tis is jojo ... i cant believe tis pic is when she was 15 ... now she same age as me ... kool huh? she just cute not much of pretty though hahaz :P

this is carrie underwood ... ok she is pretty but ... not my type of looks ... anyways she very spiritual leh! got a song named "Jesus takes the wheel" and mention bible prayer all these in her songs ... and she used 2 be MTV top hotlist ... KOOLIER

this is hilary duff ... OMG! she used 2 be hot! ... coz tis pic is the whole hilary duff ... now her songs and dressing is so BGR and so 'dress down' ... i used 2 love her old songs and old self ... her songs were very inspirational 2 me when i was a non-believer ... she has a show Lizzure Mcguire and was so innocent like .... i hate the new her ... :(

i purposely enlarge her pic :P ...but overall i think her old-self is SUPER HOT!!! LOL her songs keeps ringing in my head and brings back old memories hahaz! i talk as if i know her like tat ...

dun think im gay just because i put a guy's face .... -.-'' ... i also think he's quite handsome as well... hes jesee mccartney... i only envy him coz he can sing and i cant ... if i can i would have been more famous as him coz im already more handsome than him like 2000 times ..... LOL!!! jk jk ... (i still think its true lol)

wanna draft thru wat happen today morning ... today morning i wake up i saw my big brother using my com again ... i was super pissed and angry coz he keeps doing tis for few months already not like suddenly today morning he use ... and when i using i need go toilet or drink water ... sneaky he will come my room and sits down,off my msn and start watching anime and stuff ... i was even was pissed lor ...so tis is my conversation wif God

Sathya: God ... i tabuleh tahan leh , tis not first time i dunno how long more i can tahan , on the edge of my anger liao . help me 2 cool down...

God: let say *** come and use ur com ... would u let him/her 2 use?

Sathya: maybe ... maybe we can plan out the slot time who use how long and wat time

God: If i were 2 come use ur computer while ur asleep ... wat will u do?

Sathya: ill gladly use as long as u want and wont feel anything abt it

God:den let it be as u said,give Me the same treatment as to your brother as well

Sathya:why?hes being unfair.

God:'love your neighbour as yourself' if u dun love ur neighbour u dun love Me for it is written 'Love God=Love ppl'

Sathya:*silences for a moment* ok God ... let it be, as U will

during the conversion, it may have been wrong motives ... but God never failed 2 show my own root issue 2 myself hahaz! God is kool!

anyways enuff abt that already .... i came upon a topic on why ppl r leaving God/not staying and how 2 improve how we evangelise ... tis quite a long topic so if u wanna noe ask me personally ... tat is if u want 2 learn and grow :P

i suddenly remembered a brother used 2 sit beside and we talk abt tis about 2-3 years ago ... i think its kinda funny ...

Sathya:i realised that nowadays Girls r getting more prettier,sexier and putting more make-up also.

Brother:yea i agree.nowadays also Guys r getting more lustful

Sathya:yea ... *LOL*

Brother:*LOL*

*2nd time liao ps me ... 3rd time i dunno wat i will do .....*