The more I share, the more im adding weight to what I said.

I thank God that my shepherd,Justin,talked to me during the West A's meet( im not thanking God that I missed it.Sad that I missed it though).Was letting go of unwanted emotions due 2 my sensitivity with people.The funny thing about me is,I know what I need to do or have to do,but I cant push myself to do it.I guess most/all of us knows it as we grow older.As we grow up,we are setting foundations in our life towards certain things and questions in life.Thats why,during our youth,we need 2 gain/habitual many good habits if not it only gets harder and harder.Anyways,I feel safer around Justin.There were some blind spots in my life and things that I may have done wrong/unwisely.And as Justin corrects me or point out blind spots in my life, I really feel guilty and not proud of myself though it was not intentionally.I was blaming myself and come on,Im a guy, just get over it and change :P . I find it funny at the same time encouraging as well.Dunno why, let me share to you our conversion



Sathya:Hey Justin,I want to say two things.One is sorry for PSing you that time.Was not intentional.Second is, Thanks :P
Justin:Oh.Its okay lar.Just allowing you to let go unwanted emotions and dont you to bottle your emotions.Anyways,I meet you coz God will hold me accountable if I dont meet u
Sathya:LOL.You scared Judgement day God will hold you accountable of my life coz u didnt take care of me arh? LOL
Justin:Yea.I scared.Thats why I meet you mah


Ok.It sounds cruel and not genuine but I sort of loved it.Because those words were cruel but my shepherd's heart is genuine. im weird! :P


Yes.I really think im weird .. .wait not weird.Unique!


Did you know that I hate drinking coke when Im outside but I love drinking Coke at home?

Did you know that I hate eating chicken when Im outside but like to eat it at home?

Theres alot of things I do that no1 can/will understand me.Only God can/will.*skip subject*


To me, my interest is understanding people.In terms of knowing why certain guys and girls react to certain situation.Though those who have felt the effect of my real self knows I have very good inter-personal skills,I just want to be faster to know it without taking too much time getting the answer(though I always get it)


I remembered a few years ago, after watching movie with some of my brothers and sisters.I sat alone and started to 'emo'.Then one of the brother noticed me thinking deeply. Thats what I always do when Im alone.Thats when Im task-oriented.And ill share to u our conversion :P

Brother:Hey,Why you suddenly so emo?
Sathya:Im thinking
Brother:Think about what?
Sathya:God.self evaluation.
Brother:Evaluate what thing?
Sathya:Evaluate what I have done for the day and how can I improve/change/add/remove in certain things.
Brother:Ask you arh,actually inwardly your quite spiritual,but outside u always very joke joke like that.Why u dont show ur spirituality one?
Sathya:I can only define Spirituality in one phrase.Spirituality=closeness with God.And You cant determine a person closeness with God just by seeing.Yes,indeed some are evidently close to God in the way they live their life.But overall,Spirituality with God cant be judge in this way.Even a member of a Church can be more spiritual den a pastor.

At the same time,i dunno how 2 be proud,I can only act proud.Neither can I show my humbleness because I behaved as if Im not humble at all.Overall I dun care LOL :P.But please dun deemed me as 'good or spiritual' .When I compare myself to God, I feel very not worthy.There is no Good except God.Everything good that is within me is from God and every evil that is in me is from Satan. God is spiritual and good amen? :P


I wanna thank God for my beloved West Family. The very act at the kfc moved me big time and im very thankful and grateful to God for you guys.Thanks jiaen for the Zinger meal :P


Jiaen is fasting from com and Im fasting from ALL video gaming. I wanna use my time for God :P God, please entrust me a good seed :P

Sum1 asked me whether can sabo me do quiz.At first i knew what it was and didnt felt like doing it.It was seriously lame.But being a nice person, i decided to do the quiz.Ill try not to be too biblical with my answers.Though I feel like giving teachings for each question 0.0

QUIZ

1. Do you have secrets?

Ans: -.-''.No one has a 'open book' life

2. Would you fall in love with a boy/girl younger than you

Ans:love is commitment not age

3. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love

Ans: For God's timing if He wants me to be single or attached

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?

Ans: You give me than i show you -.-''

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?

Ans:Jesus is my best friend so im already fallin in love with Him :P

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?

Ans:being loved by someone.Thats why God love us and we r the blessed one :P

7. Give one reason why you love your significant other

Ans:If Its Jesus,because He loved me first so I want to love Him back.If it means future spouse,( what kind of english is 'significant other'? ), the only reason is committed to help each in other grow in God. :P

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?

Ans:This question is very lame.I would do nothing.Its the person's loss anyways :P

9. What is the first thing you want to do when you're legal?

Ans:Vote for Obama! :P ( i find this question lame so im answering it lamely back)

10. What would you do if your significant other cheats on you?

Ans: Talk things out

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?

Ans: More handsome (LOL)

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?

Ans: Only God, I dun trust any1 my all yet

13. How many times your heart has been broken?

Ans:1 ... 2 ... 3 ...4 ...lost count

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?

Ans: Up to God's.Preferred being married but poor :P

15. What is your favourite colour?

Ans: pink

16. If you're attached but you feel as if you like someone else, what would you do?

Ans: Love is commitment not feeling.Ill stick to my commitment always :P

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?

Ans: Yes.God has forgiven the horrible things I did to Him so I will also forgive :P

18. What do you want to tell the someone you like?

Ans: liking someone is just infactuation.Don't need to care or say anything :P

Ans:lame question.To me,My Lover=My buddy.Lover and friends is the same.Just intimacy level.

Ans:Alot of things.Especially why are you reading all of this :P

My one desire,I dont care If im insulted,make fun of,look down at,stepped on,bullied,flogged,crucified,crushed,struck down,persecuted or whatever shit Im in.As long as I can put a smile on your face,Im willing to give anything to achieve that :P