its 2am! Im suppose 2 be resting but couldnt sleep.My head is filled worries,stress and my heart is full of pain,hurt but my spirit is in Joy and peace.Mixed feelings LOL.


Today was rather fun.Had DMM at bryan's house.Played squash for the first time in my life.Though I was at my 20%, I still played rather well at it yea? :P

Bryan's mum was nice and we were blessed.She bought for us Old Chang Kee.I greedily went for the curry Os.After that subway-ed with Donkey,kelver,MKB,TDS and parrot.Ops,Kelver lacks a nick name! Ill come out one for you :P . Subway rocks haha.If I can, I would eat it everyday :P


After that, went to home-visit Gervan.At first, I was going through excruciating pain due to my ankle injury.Was planning to head back home and take my painkillers.I havent taken it for two days and I cannot bear the pain anymore.But, my heart was full of complaints and excuses at first,but my spirit was settled to meet Gervan.In the end,due to 'pressure',decided to visit him.And I gotta tell you.IT WAS HELL! I could almost faint or cry in pain anytime.I allowed the Spirit to take control over me cause I know full well I could not do this on my own.But still,rather I was in extreme pain. As I was almost reaching the destination,I was still reluctant to visit him.But,something in me kept me to visit Gervan.In the end,after meeting Gervan,I realised that,God loved Gervan too much as well that He 'pressured' me spiritually to meet him.I was guilty at the end of the meeting as I shouldnt have such a mindset at the first place.I had to say, "God, ty for using me and believing in me". At the end of the day, I know what I should do but rather God, I want to have a healthy mindset.I shouldnt dwell in emotions for too long cause emotions only spirals down.


Im hurt by people's small little action.Being an IS and a high people-oriented,its hard to ignore people's heck careness.I guess IS people will understand the pain of the slightest word or action that will make us think too deeply about them till it hurts us only and not them. When it comes to people, WE R WAY TOO SENSITIVE about it

Two conclusions:
1)I should not blame on my personality
2)Im just sharing :P


I like people who initiates to befriend with me :P
And, Im sorry if im not returning the same amount of energy that you put in the friendship I have with you equally back to you.Not purposely and can let me know about it if I can be a better friend to ya :P

And and, despite me most of the times hurting my mum, without my mum's indirectly shown love,care and concern to me,Sathya wouldnt have survive this emotional ride. Ty God :P