Tuesday, August 12, 2008
family!
I got a craving for marshmellows :P
i dunno how to start, maybe i should start by using alien language.bla la bli li bli si di bu ki li ee c. :P
I had gastric ytd.How come arh.was extremely in pain.Breakfast i didnt eat.Lunch i ate.Dinner i didnt eat,Enuff mah i thought.Wait... oh one meal a day? no wonder -.-''
another act of retardedness,anyways one week never update,i can only remember since thursday with pics! yay!
THURSDAY
ZhengKai,Ming Yee,Gina and I went to sheng siong to buy food and the materials for the game for B.B.Q on Friday.Since My mum would ask me to get the grocies,I already installed the knowledge in my mind on what products are exactly placed.Pro man.Anyways Gina had a addiction for 'cigarettes' so she decided to get bobdog(sweet) and started 2 'find trouble' see the pic and you might know what i mean :P
'Gangsters'
FRIDAY
the pics arent wif me yet so ill update this nxt time ASAP ... hahaz
SATURDAY
yay again! Got to meet God. Jia en on his own accord asked for paper and pen to write down sermon.And He remembered the title and all the points.Really wanna affirm him for the spirit of hungerness for God.Lets learn from him :P.Then went to eat !@#$%^&*()_ its beancurd in english i guess.Dewen went off without taking the same bus with us.Two reasons,the bus was full,and that bus wont bring him to Jurong east.But We gonna him as Dewen because hes a ppl-oriented person and he loves to be around ppl.So making that decision,only I know how secure you must be after its done. yay dewen! setting a example ! Let me recall who was in the bus.Zhengkai,Shaun,Peiying,Waihan,Jess,Ming yee,Sherry,Shazalind,Vanessa,WeiXian,Gina and Me.Yups
SUNDAY
Went to fajar with JiaEn to fetch bryan,Ming Lun and 'girl'. MingLun and 'girl' left.Played basketball.Was fun and rough but overall okay :P To me playing basketball r meant to play a GG and play wif ur friends :P.Im not bothered with losing. :P
actually i did more for each day.Quite lazy 2 type actually.But the pictures I took will make me remember :P
Actually during sunday,while we were all slacking,one of my school seniors came out to me and asked me what am I doing now.I told him im aheading for my NS first because the course that I wanted to take has no more vacancy for me and asked me to come nxt year.I dont want to waste time so decided to finish my NS first den pursue my studies later.Hearing on this,shazalind and sherry started to 'console' me.Shall not elaborate but I really have to admit, its kinda a very sad thing.Funny thing is I dont wanna think about it,nor a hint come my mind.Coz im already sad that we will 'depart' temperory and you guys kept reminding me of it.Makes me 100000000millions more sad.But den again Im really happy.I didnt do anything to deserve the care and concern.All I wish for is for my brothers and sisters to continue to please God and be joyful always :P Coz i dun want to go heaven seeing any1 missing ( dun k! )
If it happens,it happens.Yea,i agree.NS gonna be like the biggest test of my life.I know Im gonna go thru ALOT of problems,struggles and issue alone.But I know im never alone.God is with me.I believe thru NS ill grow way much closer to God.Theres nth more that i desire than this :P
Anyways,those who arent close with me wouldnt noe this.I think the person who knows me the most also not really know me that much.If those who know me abit closer would know that im extremely sensitive and emotional.But doesnt mean im petty or emo-kia -.-''.Im a guy I know how to control it(sometimes).Understanding emotions itself is a very complicated thing.Emotions tells u what feels right.Emotions tell you what you get and see only now.Emotions makes you look ugly and bad.Emotions lies to you and hide things from you.Emotions comes and goes doesnt stays.Emotions depends on fantasy circumstances.Emotions spirals you down or up,it never stays constant.Emotions will influence your decision-making.Emotions come only when they feel like emo-ing to you.Emotions,emotions,emotions.One thing I know,is Im not serving God with emotions.When I feel sad,distressed or lonely I go to God.When I am feeling okay,ill chunk God aside and go chase other things till I have nth but God.If We do this,we are only having a Crush on God.Because Love is a decision to commit to one another no matter what happens.And I have made myself committed to God,my spiritual family.( and the person i dunno who is it yet :P).So how do u know when you really love the person?When emotions is not accompanying you and u dont feel like loving anymore but you still choose to love that person regardless of any emotions or circumstances.But I know no human beings can love that much to a fellow human being but lets aim to have a unconditional love for God ^^
phew,tats our of my hair.I just wanna say to that person for caring me so much on msn.You know who r u.I dont think i deserve it but ty really.
if u need 2 be more precise, u asked me for the 'ticket' :P
This picture will be with me forever :P ty u all from the btm of my <3
*not easy not easy.But sathya you must jiayou! ok? ^^ *
9:19 AM
I never will leave You ~
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