I have no topic but ill wack all i wanna say :P tis gonna be very long post ... haha


Last sunday, we had basketball match with the North ..... logically speaking,we were better at skills.Basically all-rounded we r but we won them by 8 points i guess?Some were messing around,and we cant blame at one another because i realised all of us made ALOT of mistakes during the match.I guess we having 2 much CONFIDENCE! LOL ... we were like "hey,if we dun win the north by 20 pts we really very lousy" . Though considering North and West,relatively speaking in skills,West was better.Yet, at that point of time North was better at Teamwork.Pretty amazed at how much we screwed up.Haha practice makes perfect.WRONG!practice makes permanent :P.


abit sad ... keith went back home , he TOO tired ... OH YEA! i remembered ... he was injuired as well . He had like a ... bowling ball stuck in his leg or sumthing ... it was HUGE! haha ... i was tere ... why he got that 'balaku' is because he tempted to be DD(dare-devil) , so he glided across the railing,slipped,'FLYED',spin and ... ARGH! ... at the point of time i dunno whether to laugh or to help ... i decided to LAUGH! LOL ... sorri keith ... but u try 2 be me LOL! jk jk anyways its healed already ... he learn sumthing ... i think


later headed over to Wei loong's house to PARTY! ... i couldnt remember all of them but i so far i remembered was,Wei loong(obviously -.-'),Sathya(obviously!!! -.-''),Jolene,Jogina,Nicolas,Jian Hao,Xue Yong and a few others which i forgotten or dunno the name(SORRIZ). Was fun ... really FUN! his house was super hospital! lots of food . and i ate the best food in my life! ...noodles! u noe why? coz the noodles wasnt even cooked properly ... it was like ,only loosen havent cook yet... noe wat i mean? LOL ... and guess whose the chef? ... im not telling :D


actually i did sumthing 3days ago my older brother and i had a ... not so direct fight which was caused by my mother ... i felt guilty after that and went outside my house staircase 2 let out my guilt... that i saw a guy pass by and i feel like ps sit alone at staircase like emo kia... den later when i thought abt the 'fight' ... i felt distant away from my brother ... i hate to say it but i do ... l.....o.....v.....e my brother ... i dunno why ... after all those things he did for me i was moved ... i couldnt stand being further away from him ... den unable 2 control my soft little heart ... i teared ... den i wiped myself den a guy passbied me... WA LAO embarassing ...zzz i couldnt stand it ... if i continue sitting here im gonna cry the whole night .... ,so i decided to let it go thru cycling! ... i cycled to yew tee to explore yew tee abit more . after many turns and detours. i always appear somewhere else ... not to the extreme i in CCK den suddenly end up in pasir ris lar ... wa lao ... i mean i cycle front i suddenly turn here and tere den appear at where i was or behind the building ... LOL! im a country-bumpkin=no sense of direction :( . F.Y.I ... i only know where meridian was after two years going tere ... SIAO RITE??!! LOL!!! ... den i cycled till quite bored but i was super 'HIGH' coz tis my first time cycling alone. den decided to do sumthing spiritual *huhuhuhuhuh* i cycled to cck,teck whye and bpgs to do spiritual prayers :D den i decided to pray for the BP side ... so i decided to take the furthest skool first which was AES and chestnut ... so i cycled inside ten-mile that route ... i kept cycling ... at almost 3/4 of max speed most of the time and max speed most of the time as well.i cycle for like 30minutes!non-stop speeding and i wasnt able 2 reach there.I ended up at weird places and a sign board shown "5KM to Singapore Zoo" WAH!!! should i turn back? maybe abit more ... cycled for another 10 minutes another sign board "> to Singapore Zoo" WAH! i scared liao ... 'where am i ?' 'should i go on?' ... i scared i too tired 2 go back sia ... so i decided to head back ... was super duper tired.my butt was NUMB! LOL ps ..... was very bumpy ride ... shall continue tis spiritual adventure :D


anyways i just checked 4 blogs for now and guess what, 3 of them talked about the same thing ... and those posts i read was, they didnt noe how to so if ur reading this den ur blessed lol! ... They talked about how they wish their friends were nicer,and those good stuff , or also how other ppl r troubling their friends as well and willing 2 fight and protect their friends <--- kool . As well as why they cant find good friends so on and forth . Was abit troubled ... i dunno whether to help or pity them. anyways, wat is my say in this? i totally agree that we all desire great friends.Such as a friend that will never ps u,friend that is always nice to u,friend that shows more care,concern and value in u,friend that says or does nice things for u but i can guarantee we all know that even our best friend WILL SURELY LET US DOWN! .... not because they wanted to,but simply because they r being human.Yet sometimes because of tis one thing or a few that our buddies does that makes u go outraged,we will try win their attention by doing sumthing or simply saying 'byebye' . is tis true friendship? friendship is considered as it is as long as 'they got ur back' ... tats enuff ! what i mean is friendship is just friendship and has no limt nor minimum.its a profound thing. a great advice i give to all ... instead of asking or wanting ur friends 2 be ur friends,why not u be their friend always? even if they ps u,never ever have a thought ' they ps me once, i think its okay if i ps him/her now' ........... LOL ... i couldnt bare do the things all the evil things my friends did to me.my friends are everyone and im everyone's friend.Sathya got ur back.Its a promise :P




did alot of thinking ..... i asked myself why am i sOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO fragile and soft hearted ..... why do i see orphans,starving children,elderly ppl selling tissues,handicapped, i feel like a spear just went thru my heart ....... argh!!! my whole family im the only one sensitive to many issues ... my character is NTH like my parents ... NTH! .....im even more sensitive than my mother in many issues -.-'' ..... i wondered why was i so soft-hearted ... i think thru deeply, ... when i was young was i like that? ...........no i dun think so. i had really really really low self-esteem be4 i received Christ ... my life was in a mess without Christ ... i only realised the more close i get to God ... the more softer i get ......... is it a good thing or a bad thing? haha ...... why? in what circumstances was i like tat? *thinking* *thinking* *thinking* the only two reasons i can come out was because of Christ made me this way ...and/or my heart was molded during the time in my mother's womb haha! carry on reading if u wanna noe wat i meant


i love to think about alot of stuff .... suddenly my mum brought out tis subject and tis like dunno the how many million times ... she said " when u were in my stomach (mind her coz her english not that good LOL! ... sounds like she ate me or sumthing) ... i thought u were girl , i take care of u . i ate fruits and healthy healthy stuff no unhealty food at all.and when u was born,we thought we had the wrong child because u was very very fair.like the english man like tat ... very very bright.now u c , so tanned." *diaoing* "if u girl arh,u sure die one.all ur brothers will treat u like a maid will ask u iron their clothes cook all tis ... lucky u born guy" *so if i girl i become maria arh?* i think tis works i think ...during the process of the child is in the mother's womb,the mother's intake of food and emotion is VERY VERY IMPT! .. for even if she emotional stress it will DEFINITELY affects the child growth and everything ... i dunno whether sciencetist has found out tis that the mother's mentally and emotion is very impt as well ... f.y.i it does :P... speaking abt tis i remembered at my workplace two of my colleages keep pesting me "whose ur gf?" or "go get one lar" ... den they were like talking abt those american-born-chinese they were either super handsome or super hot! ... den suddenly they turn 2 me "aiya ... when u dun born as girl" *diao as if i had a choice* so kool ... END of tis :D


i love to think ... i think about alot alot of stuff! ...... but sumtimes i end up think till im worried to a point im stress ... though it wasnt impt i dunno why i think i think till stress ... and David said to me be4 "focus on thinking on/wif God" ... i still can remembered while waiting for sum1 at MRT ,i sat down and think , think and think ... den i think till i was worried, den i was stress , den i started 2 wept ... and u noe wat ? .... it was on my birthday somore 2 years ago ... LOL! my first emotional break down for no reason... SO FUNNY! coz its silly hahaz! (no comments 2 be made for tis post :D its meant for me only)


oh yea i want 2 thank S for catching me at the right time and cheering me up :P i think u noe who u r ... also J for being a great sis/bro(not telling) and Z for being relational wif me :P and T for showing me that my words matter to u though we r like nobody ... so it shows i matter to u ... haha thx! ... and V for offering me sweets and not my friends ... i mean though he/she is very young spirtually and physically ... cant blame mah ... tis mean i was a friend 2 u .. little thing i also valued it and also J was giving me a light punch. i dunno why everytime i around u ... i feel so secured,happy,joyful and simply SUPER DUPER HIGH ur character is simply amazing! if i can ill marry u LOL maybe not ... i just think that ur one of the greatest relational friends :P ty! ... and lastly J for watching over me ALWAYS! and FOREVER! LOVES U and all my B=buddies and FRIENDS!!! WEEE