Monday, September 10, 2007
Are you retarded or insane?
i just dun get it ... why does he reacts tis way? why does he say like tis? why does he even think like tis? its like ... no human ... have a heart of a animal .... but its not possible ... kindness is sometimes seen .... mad ...... i cant blame him or him ........ haiz ... God! why? using Godly words for his own gain ... a SINNER! SHUT UP! just shut up! ... go away! ur a block tat preventing my growth towards God! speaking 2 u is as good as speaking to Satan's devils ! GRRR
sum1 say wanna affirm didnt lor ... lol ! lame person ............... nvm God still loves the person ....
oh ... God has been graceful indeed ... ytd i prayed for 20minutes! i felt super empowered after praying in tongues for continuously! after tat God came to my room and filled his presence ... i was stunned!i couldnt move ..... i dunno wat happen ... den God dropped me a version of what my skool will be by end of this year .... he said "do u want 2 grow more like Christ?den now since ur a CL why not aim for UL wif God's help...be faithful,work hard,study hard and pray hard and it shall be given 2 u" .... i tear tickle down my eyes as i started 2 worship God wif tongues ... suddenly i spoke in a new language ... i dunno wat i was saying but it was a new tongues .... i really felt the change of my heart ....... i realise the power of prayer ... i wanna pray more!
i wanna try it ... dewen said he study for 4hrs ... i could only most 45minutes not more ... today im gonna pray and study! for 2hrs first ... if i can go on den another 2hrs! but must have break in between :P ... im hungry for growth
God ... i really hope my 10 will come! 10 west spring by end september ... a big leap of faith+deeds is required ... God may u move in tis group! amen :P
suddenly i thought of few things ... friendship ... i think the best memories where i loved going CG is when keith,aaron,yong le,david,joel,vincent and me were always seeing constantly each other ... we played basketball, did many crazy and koo koo things ... i really missed those moments .... every1 is moving on .... i lag the expression of myself .... i took the characteristics test and my fear was rejection and insecurity ... lol ... wat tragedy ... anyways miss those good moments ... nvm ... i have God still ... fun can always get ... here or tere ... but ... my goal,my purpose,my duty,my job and my responsibility is 2 do God's will ... ill let not anything hinder me but ..........................................................
i ask keith whether hes coming for CLM later ... he said hes not going i ask him why he said dunno not enuff constant ppl .................................... my heart totally broken ..... i missed those times going home together ... haiz ... i could just .... be myself around him ... oh well .................................... gotta move on and grow up*your love pursues me*
3:01 PM
I never will leave You ~
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