Tuesday, July 03, 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEPHERD!!!
if i dun post means i dun love my shepherd?(yea rite) anyways just wanna say a few words
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JUSTIN!!!HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!! YAY!!!
kinda silly ... the day be4 his birthday i quarrelled with him LOL ... den hor monday he come 2 my house for shepherding ... den i brought him down to my playground and dewen and zhengkai was tere and they held a cake in their hands singing the birthday song :P den dewen angry coz he said justin no emotions at all ... not surprised,touched or happy LOL ... while they singing the birthday song ...justin walk towards them and just stared at them ... LOL!!! ... den the playground got hop-scotch .... den dewen said suddenly "hey... lets versus hop-scotch arh?" den i was like "OMG!!! HOW OLD R U!!! LOL" den he ask "hey justin .... want 2 play or not?" den justin said "come arh" I WAS LIKE ROFL!!! SO LAME!!! LOL
well todae was .... okay ... i really controlled my temper ... the malay boys keep making fun of my father's name ... i just ignored till he was sian .... but ignorant is it rude? bleah .... nope we just dun entertain Sin tats all :P
todae lead worship together wif pei ying .... i couldnt multi-task so i ask pei ying 2 help me lead worship .... okay ... i played the role of a guitarist and boy ... i made alot of mistake ... DUH!!! u try learn a song overnight lar LOL ... but i saw tat even if pei ying was not ready she gave all she could ... i could see she was trying 2 muster sum courage out of her :P i completely understand :P jiayou peiying! anyways .... while i was playing guitar and watching over how Jess led everything .... i dunno wat 2 say ... its like i dunno even noe if she was Jess at all .... i was shocked for the first time ... i saw the power,conviction,courage and energy given ... omg ... i was speechless... i keep telling jonathan "tat is not Jess .... tat is the holy spirit working through her"
left me speechless till now ..........
okay i wanna share abt friday ... as u can read my below post ... i was completely discouraged ... i keep telling God "WHY!!! WHY NEVER BLESS!!!" i was so furious at God for not blessing me i shut my heart awhile from God ... so i was very emo and moody tat night abt 12midnight ... i was super discouraged .... so i started 2 hear music from my mp3 2 ease myself down .... den suddenly came the song "You said" den i shout bak at God "You said u will bless still never bless" den i shut my heart again from God ... den suddenly the song Love of my life played thru the mp3 ... den my heart was suddenly softened ... den i told God "jesus ... the love of my life" ... den God started 2 talk 2 me ... he said "why do u care so much abt the outcome and results?what does it matter to u so much? is it not I who draw them 2 me? isnt it I who planned it all? do u noe i love them more than you know? why den do u feel so onto the results?the results isnt everything .... and wouldnt i be so happy that my child,tat is u, have work so hard for my kingdom?wats ur heart motive?" .............. i felt super wronged ... den i told God "sorry God ... ill trust u for 2morrow .. i noe u will still bless me tomorrow ... i still have faith tat u will bless me thru brothers and sisters for contacts ... i believe u will give me ... not converts but visitors "
so saturday only one visitor ... and two of my CG members came ... OMG LAR!!! I FELT EVEN MORE DISCOURAGED TILL ..... but den i told God "let it be ... as You Will " so i hit 5 ... but my goal was 10 and west spring goal was 5 .... i hit only 2 west spring ppl ... me and my visitor ... i told God"god ... it will really make me happy if tis visitor accepts u but ... let it be as You Will" ... den later i noticed a AES guy ... his heart was opened towards God ... so i shared 2 him my life testimony and he accepted Jesus!!! PRAISE GOD MAN!!!... den after service i heard from jiawann got 3 westspring guys .... so i was super happy!!! they came!!! i hit 5 west spring ppl! though i didnt bring but i atleast saw 5 west spring altogether!!! WAS SUPER HAPPY!!! ... so its 5currently+1 aes convert+3west spring=9 .... the west spring visitors didnt received Jesus but atleast i hit my west spring goal ... den i still ..argh ... nvm God ... its Ur Will bah... den after 2nd service ... my shepherd justin called me and told me tat there was a chestnut Drive guy ... WA!!! super bless .... i hit 10!!! amen?! WOW!!! GOD BLESSED ME MAN!!!! he also received CHRIST!!! I HIT my converts GOAL !!! WAHAHA!!! .... but i felt abit ... urgh ... coz i missed CLM ... i was like ... "man ... i missed CLM ...." den later God told me "if u dun do it for the ppl ... den u defeat the purpose of u being a CL" ... den i was like "okay ... let it be as You said" very holy rite i? lol .... den God assured me tat tis chestnut drive will received Him ... so i focus on the sermon ... and boy ... i learnt alot ... i didnt realised tat tere was 8 subpoints .... the faith,perservance bla bla .... coz first service and 2nd service i was so focus on the visitors tat i forget abt meeting God ... soz ... really was blessed man ... God is really great amen ? plz say amen because God is great :P i was superly blessed ... more 2 come :P
(will update soon tis post)
9:13 PM
I never will leave You ~
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