Saturday, June 09, 2007
im real sorry ..... really really sorry
anyways i change song because a certain sum1 said my blog was noisy...i guess the certain sum1 noes who r u :P LOL jkjk
im wanna apologise 2 a person for assuming things ... argh ... i think i think 2 much seriously ... sian .... why sia? i mean its not tat i think 2 much ... its like im so sensitive 2 ppl's behaviour change ...... like i said again ... is it because of closeness? but i really hate the feeling man .... pondering upon tis subject suddenly make think abt ..... Gift of celebacy (if tts how u spelled it)haha the brothers were saying "u sure or not ?" but i mean seriously if its helps expand the kingdom even further im willing :P no questions ask ... but must be faithful wif little den God can give us much :P ... i just wanna forget tis n never assume again n i wanna keep telling myself "if its urs ... God will give it 2 u" and i wanna be secured in the Lord :P
well had WFL todae .... was real happy 2 talk good stuff into my ppl ... challenged them ... correct them lovingly ... n my ex-sheep coming for WFL ... n also doing the G.A.P stuff ... den went home in nightrider *i wanna cry leh ... $2.50 for the NR bus ... wa sian keith i hate u* .. den jess suddenly got down den keith also went down n i followed him ... den jess said "dun come my father fetching me" :P i think hor jess if keith didnt come down ... u wouldnt have used his phone 2 called him and also find out tat he was actually waiting at pending :P haha :P
i wanna cry abit .... i was banned from going kai en's house :( oh well ... actually i feel much better being at home ... seriously ......... i havent been at home for a long time .......................
haiz ... God i still wanna grow in u ... i can only put my security in u if i noe u ... but God it seems tat i dunno u tts why i didnt put my security in u ...... God ... i wanna do things wif a reminder of ur Love .... wow ... i think dunno who said ... while i was holding the cross... it was super tireding n sum1 said "u imagine how Jesus would have felt" my heart melted man .... argh ... God i dun mind emoing .. but only wif u ... nth else plz? ......................
YES!!! i feel a little sense of break thru in bathing ... u noe why? thon at kai en's house till morning den leave for WFL didnt bath one whole day :P stinked pretty bad :)
anyways my studies super duper weak lor ... i lack the motivation 2 study man ... i hate studies as near as Sin ... zzZZZ ... now my greatest weakness is studies ... seriously ... i need sum1 2 be my buddy man ... 2 encouraged,empower,enlight,entertain me :P a spiritually buddy man ... also 2 study wif me .. argh .. if i dun .... im gonna go ITE seriously.. .i cant tahan my studies .... Pain PAIN!!! btw... God prompted we both already tat we meant 2 be buddies but den u n i got pride mah dun dare ask...YUP its U!!! stop thinking so much ...... but den u so many times disappoint me liao ... sumtimes i think ur not but God doesnt say tat ..... we r not prefect man. ... anyways let me off alone den ... let me die 2 the world alone!!! (!@#$%^&*) <--- dun think 2 much again can?
yes !! i feel super empowered when i think of my role models ... let me tell u one by one ...
first is pastor jeff... its really a amazing pastor n a person of great conviction tat he always do wat comes important ... many times i feel like doing wat he doing rite now :P i hope my turn is soon after i plant church :P .. well the another person is David .. wow hes such a marvelous shepherd last time 2 me ... i feel tat he's really a guy im reminded 2 be used alot by God because hes always tere 2 talk 2 us when we shut out ears from God :P ... nxt is tingting ... man when i see her sheeps growing 2 rise up ... i could see chances in their life ... i was super duper encouraged man !!! love her spirit :P ... nxt is joel! ... though he doesnt come 2 church currently but hes okay wif God already :P dun think 2 much .. hes one young leader i used 2 get jealous man ... fiting over ranks :P LOL ... but hes really one of my role model because hes young n did alot of things i couldnt do like being a great CL :P... nxt is christine ... i really love her good shepherd's heart :P iwanna have a heart like hers :P...nxt is alexis .. haha u noe ... my weakness is study but her testimony abt maintaining first n shepherding all her sheep isnt a excuse for me 2 do bad in both my ministry and studies ... if she can do it why can i ?
i mean its great 2 have role model in ur life so u can follow their example but den again their r not perfect ... they might fail u n u will feel super duper discouraged ... but as for me tis doesnt happen because almost all areas i place a role model so tat if one fails another can take over LOL ROFL :P kidding ... what i mean is let our perfect role model be is Jesus ... hes sum1 u can be ur role model n will never fail u :P amen ? lurve ya lots Jesu
man ... after reading the teaching below ... i feel so blessed i went thru alot of hurt ... but now i dun really... coz i didnt ask ... now seriously ... after tis ... im gonna ask God 2 hurt me wif every kind of pain in my life ... so much pain tat i feel like backsliding but i wont ... i wanna grow ... God if its ur will and if u hear my prayer ... inflict me wif the whole's world pain onto me :P i pray for tat :P if tat i still wanna say i lurv ya lots!!!
Admit your weaknesses, expand your ministry
I think there are two great confessions in the Bible. One of them is Peter’s great confession in Mark 8:29: “You are the Christ.” Our faith is built on that great confession. Then there’s what I call Paul’s great confession in Acts 14:15 at Iconium: “We too are only men, human like you.” (NIV) I know a lot of pastors who are quick to agree with the first confession, but they’re more cautious to proclaim Paul’s confession. A lot of us are more interested in proclaiming our spirituality than admitting our humanity. We want to deny that we are mere mortals and appear super human.
But to deny your humanity is not only untruthful, it’s a disservice to both yourself and those you serve. The fact is that God likes to take weaknesses and turn them into strengths.
In this context, I’m not talking about sins of character – like greed, overeating, or laziness. I mean any limitation in your life or ministry that you’ve inherited and can’t change.
Maybe it’s a circumstantial limitation or a disadvantage that you’re facing in your church. It could be emotional limitations, scars we all carry from childhood. It could be personality or temperament characteristics. Or it could be physical or talent limitations that you have.
But we’re all limited by something. We all carry the Gospel in jars of clay. Yet the limitations that God allows in our lives can actually be a blessing in disguise if we’re honest about them.
Here’s how:
1. You’ll have a greater dependence upon God.
This is a lesson that we have to learn over and over again in ministry. At times, we forget that we find our power in our weakness. Usually we resist or resent any limitation that we have on our ministry. We usually ask God to remove them. But if God shows himself strong in these limitations, then why should he take the limitation away? The fact is sometimes God works through our human weaknesses rather than eliminating them.
Remember the story of God using Gideon to overthrow the Midianites? He chose the youngest kid in the poorest family in Israel. Then before God let Gideon go to battle against 135,000 Midianites, God whittled down the army to only 300 men, which meant the odds were now 450 to one. Why? God wanted them to trust him alone for success.
When I have a limitation in my ministry and personal life, it is an opportunity to trust God more. Andre Crouch said it like this, “If I never had a problem, I’d never know God could solve them.”
2. It prevents pride. Paul was given a thorn.
We don’t know what that thorn was, but we know it caused him pain and limited his ministry – and we know it kept Paul humble. In 2 Corinthians 12:7-10 Paul says, “To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me.”
You can understand why Paul would be a little proud. He had written more than two-thirds of the New Testament, been persecuted for his faith in Jesus, and had helped spread Christianity throughout the known world. But it was hard to be arrogant about his own accomplishments, because he knew he had great weaknesses.
I've read that Paul Y. Cho, the pastor of the world’s largest church in Seoul, Korea, experienced a period of physical weakness in his ministry. It occurred in 1964 when he had several thousand members in his church. He wrote, “I began to think I was one of God’s accomplished servants, and I almost entered into a complacency in my ministry. Then God allowed the perplexity of physical weakness to be my thorn ... . After God had made the needed changes as a part of my modified mentality, the perplexity of weakness was lifted. I regained strength and the power to institute the needed changes. My life, my ministry, and my church have never been the same since. All three reached heights I’d only dreamed of before.”
3. It causes a greater dependence on other Christians.
One of the dangers of our strengths is that it breeds an independent spirit. God allows weaknesses in each of us so that all parts of his body will recognize their need for one another. None of us can stand alone. Our humanity demands interdependence. It produces fellowship. Vance Havner says, “Snowflakes are frail, but if enough of them stick together they can stop traffic.”
4. It expands our capacity to minister.
If you’re going to have a Christ-like ministry it means that sometimes other people are going to find healing in your wounds. I believe that our greatest messages come out of our deepest hurts. One of the most powerful testimonies I’ve ever heard was when a well known pastor shared from a broken heart how one of his kids had gone off the deep end and got involved in drugs and such. Through that testimony, he was able to minister to many, many families among the thousands who were listening to him.
Paul says in 2 Corinthians 1:4:“[God] comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When others are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us.” (NLT)
Pain sensitizes us to the hurts of others. If you’ve never struggled with any weaknesses, my guess is that your ministry is out of touch with those you want to minister to. Pastors who deny any struggles, and deny that they’ve had any pain are labeled as unreal. Our weakness and failures can be used to expand our capacity to minister to others. God helps us in trouble, then we comfort others with the same comfort we’ve been given.
You only get these benefits if you’re willing to share your weakness. If you hold back the weaknesses, faults, and pain in your life, it’s of no benefit to those you could possibly minister to.
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I never will leave You ~
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