Wednesday, May 23, 2007
See the value
hi all!!! feeling so good!!! .... todae morning the sisters,my sheep plan 2 evax but there were all leaving for camp ... boo!!! not good! i cant do a thing ... soz ... well ... but i could pray for them rite? lol ... anyways the Pei ying initiated that we should pray ... actually i wanted 2 ask them want 2 pray but i scared later they un-spiritual den come n wack me ... sorry hor but coz i still dun noe them alot! lol :P nvm nxt time i see them in skool should pray more!!! :P
well ... i wanna say a few things about my sheep liang jie ... well ..... i dun believe it but i thank God for tis wonderful sheep tat God gave me ... Ytd i met him up abt 9:40 ... it was very late after i went 2 celebrate Xiaojun birthday ... btw wanna say again HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIAOJUN!!! ... anyways i had 2 rush 2 yew tee 2 celebrate Xiaojun birthday den rush back 2 Jelapang 2 meet my sheep den rush back 2 sleep ... i reach home abt close to 11 .... den i was in bed by 12++ .... anyways i went to his house 2 ask him whether he wanted 2 become a shepherd so i shared 2 him my conviction why we should S.O.W n tat because i S.O.W him tts why he came 2 know Christ n told him we should do the same for others ... den i try teach him the value of why we S.O.W by asking "okay... which person u care for the most?" i was hoping for God but i noe hes very new so i wouldnt expect tat answer yet .... maybe parents or friends but he told me "the person who matter to me the most is you" ................................................. HELLO?! how do u feel when ur sheep tells u tis?! i FELT so touched man ... but den again hes a NB den i told him "den how abt God?" he told me "u said person wat ... obvious is God is first n also ur my first " man ......... i dunno wat 2 do sia ... i felt so touched i felt like ........... dunno ... i could feel the feeling of God's Joy going thru my spine den up n down again n again ... so i went home ....todae i went 2 meet him again 2 actually evax ... den after i prayed wif the west spring sisters .... i went 2 meet liang jie ... den i share 2 him again why we r doing tis n encouraged him 2 bring more friends ........ den i told him "how u feel after all tis?" first he was like "can i bring u 2 camp?" den i was basically LOL ... he was good at crapping :P .... den he told me seriously "i think im gonna miss u" ........................................................................................................... my heart melted when he told me tat ..... den he was blushing ... dun u noe tat its GAY!!@!@!@!@ 2 say to another guy tat u would miss him? actually i feel awkward also hearing tat but ... i saw beyond the words i actually saw the Heart .......... God ... i prayed real hard for tis that I rise him up by tis year 2 be a CL :P ... n i also pray for Pei ying 2 be full-time CL n ruifen to be PCL asap :P jiayou 2 both of ya!!! :P
i learned alot within tis few days ...i learn tat the more u serve God ... the more the Devil will get 2 u ... at first i was like 'okay normal teaching n obvious' but i felt it strongly tat the Devil was prompting me 2 do all sorts of sins ... first the Devil will make u moody ... which means u will feel certain way of certain things which he doesnt wants ya 2 grow ... like for example ... ur going outreaching n u want 2 evax 2 a real gangster Satan will come into ur thought n say "dun evax 2 him ... he sure wont convert or will beat u up ..." or even sumtimes "cannot evax 2 him lar .. try nxt one" or "too many ppl ... see they in threes ... try go for ppl who r alone or younger so tat more chance 2 retain" ... all i can say is be holy-spirit guided.. He says Go den Go ... stop asking questions n stop delaying n also stop having second thoughts ... When God died for us on the Cross he made up his mind that he wanted 2 died for us .. if god would have said "surely sathya wont be saved ... coz hes indian n his family dun like is faith or he will sure backslide if he accepts Me"... man if God had 2nd thoughts i dun think i would be even here .... many times we took God's grace for granted but always always God was patient ... he didnt thunder strike us when we choose 2 obey him ...sumtimes we even tell in our hearts or believe by saying "God u real u do tis .... God if u real why r u unable 2 do tis?" God is not interested 2 make u happy rather he wants 2 trains u up 2 trust him though things dun go ur way ... we r always "God i noe i need tis coz u noe why? coz i need it " bleah!!! tts the reason why we shut God n leave him aside n sumtimes hate him because of one thing tat God tries 2 help ya ... we might say "but i didnt say tat n neva thought of it " but den our actions shows ... God said in the bible "Why do u call Me Lord,Lord,when u dun follow Me" following Jesus basically leaving all ur decisions 2 him :P
Change= pain+getting out of comfort zone+becoming who we are not=Growth=Becoming more like Jesus character
we may think "what u mean? become who we r not?den becoming more like Jesus? doesnt make sense" well if u understand already den dun bother reading anymore if not ....what im trying 2 say actually is we r sinners n we r trying 2 be prefect(means me transforming into Jesus):P
Remember the steps of problems
many times we tell Jesus "God ... thx for accompanying for the ride ... but now let me take over coz i know wats best for me " like i said again literally we may not say tat but our actions shows ..... many times i go thru problems i try get out of it on my own ... most of the times i followed what my brothers n sisters would do 2 get out of this mess... it did work for them but not me ... God told me "not every1 is running at the same speed" which means not everything will work out 2 me but rather another way out from God actually helps us only .. theres always one way out for us just for us ... tats what it meant 'We got our own race 2 run' ... so dun feel discouraged if things dun work out ... all we have 2 do is just keep on trusting God n ill tell u how,what we benefit from doing tat :P
well i heard abt a story so its acutally copy-right from a book i read ... teres was tis guy tat the parents just bought him a expensive brand new car and as he was abt 2 take it for a ride his parents told him not 2 have even a single scratch on the car.. so he was driving happily till he saw a place empty parking spaces ... so he started 2 make 'donuts' by drifting the car round n round ... den he accidently damage the side door of his car ... he was so terrified and scared den he actually begun 2 think alternative ways 2 make up a excuse... because it was Sunday, the auto-shop repair shop was not open ... so he went around finding one anyways... after 3hrs of searching he actually saw a guy fixing up a car at a small mini auto-shop repair store ... so he ask the mechanic whether he could fix his car door which was damaged ... so he said "no problem" so the guy brought his car 2 him ... the mechanic started 2 dismantle the door ... so he was actually thinking "can i trust tis guy? i dun even noe him n he doesnt look professional" ... so he just placed all his hope on tis guy ... so after he dismantle the door he actually put sum kind of glue on the door .... it still wasnt fixed ... so he doubt him even more... he was thinking "does tis guy really noes what hes doing? obviously he seems clueless coz its like he failed Plan A 2 fix my car door my dismantling n try fixed up wif Plan B by putting glue on it "he felt like saying "hey ... do u noe wat ur doing? u r doing all wrong .. let me take over n show u how's it done " ... after it was his car n he was the driver so tat made him thinks he noe it all so the mechanic told him "dun worri" but tat was the only thing on the guy's mind ... so he asked him "could u get the exact colour for my car? it seems damaged badly" he said "sure ... but i gotta get the paint ... mind following me to the paint shop?" so he just followed him 2 buy the paint ... so the mechanic bought 2 tins of paint ... tat even made the guy more doubt him "hey isnt my car just one colour? why r u buying two of it?" the mechanic replied "im gonna mixed them together 2 get the colour u wanted" the guy felt hopeless ... first of all both of the colours doesnt look at his car at all ... n all his methods seems wronged .... n also he was paying $75 for the repair ... it was very cheap considering reparing the damaged door ...so he just sadly followed him back 2 the car .... the mechanic mixed both the colours n started 2 spray on his car ... the guy was shocked ... it was actually the same colour .... den the door was attached as it was originally ...
wat im trying 2 say abt tis story is tat we always take things 2 our own hand n get ourself into trouble ... i mean most of the time why because Satan is constantly on the move 2 tear us apart from God ... think abt it ... do u face more trouble before u became a Christian or after? honestly my answer is after ... ALOT ... because God is training up his children 2 be more like him ... n also 2 enter heaven :P .... u noe by taking things 2 our own hands is actually doing what? ... is exactly like telling "David beckam ... i noe how 2 score a Goal ... i dun need u 2 teach me i know i know better than ya n noe the best way 2 score a Goal" doesnt tat sounds stupid? tts actually what we r doing :P .... i hope tat all of u faithful readers 2 really think of what i mention in my blog alot ... i hope u guys just dun come here .... read because u got nothing better else 2 do ... its wasted time ... i rather u go sumthing more Fun den burn time reading my blog just because it may seems interesting or sum other reasons ... hope 2 blog even more n lets be DOERS not SAYERS ...if we say we will die for God ... den lets really die for him "Whoever tries 2 save his own life,lose it .... but whoever lose it for Christ will save his life for eternity" notice i didnt put up the verse but tts what i always remember haha :P may not be exact but u get it dun u? TC n bye :P n rmb 2 tag anything or email me if u need anything :P ... i will gladly share more in details or u need encouragement ill be tere :P BYE !!!
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I never will leave You ~
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