Wednesday, May 09, 2007
Are we following Jesus?
i really am stressed out abt school life ... the studying ... mugging ... im really tired pushing myself ... but i dunno how long more i can push ... its so tiring it... i hate studying seriously... hate it as close as Satan ... but why do i study is to glorify God ... den i ask God "cant i glorify u wif my talents or sumthing else? why must study?" den God said "sure if u can glorify Me wif ur talents that I gave you go ahead ... but den again ... if u dun have studies ... what job would u work for money ? and how will ur people follow u if u show a lousy example of saying tat Glorify me wif ur talents?if u ppl reply u the same way back ... i will follow u leader wif my talents not my life... If u,den again 2 say u give ur life to Me ... den studies is just one part of ur area in ur life" i feel so down again ... its feel like telling God back 'easy for u 2 say' ... den when i thought of the Cross i hate myself for the Sin of tis body 2 think of tis ......its always abt how i feel or wat i wanna do .... me me me... i thought abt the backsliders who backslided ... i think ... its about them ... did they spare a thought abt Jesus?How would Jesus felt when they left Him ... i dun wanna carry xtra weight on my shoulders thinking about tis... gotta move on n grow myself to be stronger ... just now a sister share 2 me about her and her cg member... i feel... so ... cant put words into it ... the cg is so in disunity ... n who can i blame?the members?shepherds?leaders? or God? but wat i can do? suddenly im reminded of tis verse "Many are called but few are chosen" am i the chosen one? or r u the chosen one? if u think ur the chosen one den wat should a chosen one do? just think abt it...
well ... im off 2 learn a new song on piano ... mug justa bit den off 2 bed ... im really tired running tis race... i guess... tis r exams perioud ... zzz ... but neva should i neglect my relationship wif God ... tis is my heart beat '2 noe Christ each day more and more'...what is ur heart-beat ? is it for Jesus? ..................................
6:21 PM
I never will leave You ~
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