1. anyways... as i realise how 2 help our people or how 2 'touch' them ... i guess its really never easy... y i say tis i remember a time when i wasnt spiritual well ....den my shepherd's shepherd love me more than my shepherd ...(tat time lar) came under my house,bought me ice blend choclate n dairy chocolate... WOW!!! I LOVE CHOCOLATE ALOT!!! they were very initiative 2 know what i really love ....n i realise it only inspire me a drop ...but what they did is they pour out a bucket...teres a saying "pour a bucket of blood to inspire a drop" wow man ... not easy leh... but if my shepherd's shepherd have not done tat... i dun think... i would have stayed in church ...i really thank God for that ...

i realise 2nd thing ... i sometimes affirm myself that im courageous,brave or 'righteous' by evaxing and outreaching .....but God reminded what my shepherd said ... "Y do we feel good when we share the gospel to people...in the bible it says that we OWE the person the gospel.its a OWE that we must give to them" it was like ... so true ... y we take it as an another 'job' in our christian walk with life? but im feel very angry when we feel that to share the gosepl depends on our mood...n we feel also pai seh or scared what will happen if we share to them ... matthew 18-20...yup tts all...ill try update asap...