Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Love
i think tis sumthing that no1 wanna miss on ... u might curious 2 read abt it coz by seeing the word Love ... actually makes u wanna find out what is it exactly abt? y? because it has indeed have a powerful meaning n impact on every1 tat is living
as i was walking back home after following up on sum1 wif justin ... i saw my mum n i passed her by saying :bye" den she replied "bye" too ... den later as i was walking she told me "take care of ur brothers n go sleep early" ... well ... u might be thinking ... wats the big deal abt it? doesnt my mum loves me? y does it seems like a big thing 2 me just because she talked 2 me 2 lines?doesnt it seems inlogical? ... well ... let tell u wat happen todae tat u will noe
todae my father woke me up at 6:45 ... tis was the latest he woke me up ... i guess... usually is 6 most is 6:30 ... but so late liao ... if i prepare everything i would be late... if i late they sure do sumthing 'evil' to me one ... so i didnt go lor ... i went 2 polyclinic 2 take MC so they got nth 2 say... wa ... thank God is 2days somore ... (btw i was really sick but naturally sickness doesnt effect me but slows me only... so means i will still go still n do wat i need 2 do ... but slowly) ... den before i went 2 the polyclinic my mum came n wake me up saying "y u didnt go?" she hit me once ...i was quite tired so i kept quiet .... "y u didnt go skool?" he hit me the 2nd time...but tis time it was painful ... so i purposely show her that i dun wanna reply her...den she told me "y u become so bad suddenly?" den i replied her "is ur the one who become more bad" den she walked away ....its really true tat her actions towards me was abit worst ... but but ... I WAS WRONGED!!! .... man i felt so terrible ... i cant believe i just shoned my mum off .. man i hated myself for doing tat 2 my mum ... Jesus is first ... my mum is 2nd ... i couldnt bear tat i hurted her by saying tat 2 her ... MUM IM SORRI!!! ... anyways after i woke up i talked 2 her but she also purposely ignored me ... i was abit sad ... i rarely see my mum yet she doesnt talk 2 me ... i guess ... she was angry wat i said 2 her ... wa sian... i not purposely lor !!! i was sleepy !!! if i sleepy i will get angry if any1 disturb me!!! ill get dam emo if i woke up while i am sleeping ... haiz... so nvm dun want talk dun talk lor ... so like i said ... i told her bye n she replied me bye later ... holy spirit suddenly told me tis "Love overcomes all evil n hates" ... means though i hurt her terribly for wat i said she still forgive me n talked 2 me ... If we really Love God ... we must love ppl ... n if we love ppl ... we shouldnt,never say or feel "i dun feel like seeing his/her face"... do u have grudges againist tis person? do u truly love tis person? do u truely love God? ... after tis i was more convicted 2 see ppl accept Jesus because Jesus loves them n i love Jesus ... so currently our new brother is .... JASON!!! i just met him just now wif my shepherd,justin ... had a chat wif him n yup! hes retain !!! im gonna use him 2 starburst!!! God i noe u can work thru him for i noe U r the God of miracle... the God would answer me according 2 my faith n the God who loves me as much as He loves His ppl :P
suddenly it hit me when sum1 told me tis ... many ppl .... including sum christians ... thinks n still thinks tat Christianity is a religon ...Christianity is not about religon but a relationship .. Being Christian means u have a relationship wif God ... n ur relationship wif Him is ur His son/daughter ...so how does the daughter/son spend time or know his Father more? By talking 2 him,sharing our life,problems,complaints,basically anything u wanna talk abt because talking builds bond n stronger trust in each other ..... n i cant believe we can take our quiet time for granted ... did u ever start ur quiet like tis "God ... im going 2 spend time wif u the bible.Hope i can understand u even more,Amen" den u read maybe until u sian or 'know' sumthing new abt God den u said "wow ...God ur like tis.. i know u more thru tis qt" bam! u go sleep ... maybe u just keep it ritual ... u do ur qt the same way but differently ...haiz... dun u noe ur being religous? i mean im not saying doing everyday quiet time is religous ... but after doing it for alot of time u tend 2 take it a ritual,a job, a duty 2 do ....when did u ever felt excited 2 read the bible? when did u ever wanted 2 read more but couldnt because u lack the time to read even coz u need 2 go skool or sumthing else? ...when i do my QT ... i always go hungry to feel God's presence when i do QT .. my QT is like service 2 me ... the only difference is environment n atmosphere ... hope u catch sumthing in tis ...
anyways i just talked finished wif ruifen ...actually i was renewed abt West sprng hitting 50 ... as i look upon the condition now ....50 is never possible ... i let my dream died ... but ruifen made me remember n convicted me tat 50 is still possible!!! surely,slowly... God will make it come 2 past !!!! i will work real hard!!! though if i still leave the skool ...i noe west spring will grow to 50 n even more!!! because God will make it come 2 past!!!(ty ruifen) ... i have big dreams for God!!! thinking abt tis 50 makes me so excited !!! ... i dun care wat u think or say... tis 50 will surely come 2 past!!!
12:32 AM
I never will leave You ~
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