Thursday, February 15, 2007
GROWTH!!!
...i felt so wat lor ... i woke up when my V.P called me...n i woke up through by my brother shouting n hitted me while i was still half-consicous ... den i dam angry...but i try control first...den my V.P at the phone shouted at me "SATHYA!Y R U NOT IN SKOOL! U BETTER COME NOW BY 9:30 IF NOT IM EXPELLING YOU" den i ok ok den put down ...den i went 2 found out how come my alarm did not ring den i realise it wasnt tere...n it landed up in my father's room ...den as i was ironing my school T-shirt my father also scold me saying "y u neva go skool?" den started 2 nag... den i shouted "U TAKE THE ALARM CLOCK DEN U BLAME ME? SOMORE TAT ONE BEAT ME FOR NO REASON" .... den my brother buai song den want wack me...but my mother stop him ... haiz... he want beat me as if he had the right 2 be angry..den i kena wack for something which is not my fault i dont have the reason...but God reminded me "is not whether he has sin against u or not...but whether the way u reacted was righteous" ...wa sian ....
den i just went skool den my mother say tat whatever i feel i can share my problems 2 the principal ...first of all...i dun share my problems 2 stranger....2nd i told her this kind of ppl wouldnt understand...den my mother said " just try"...she tried but ... LOL she failed...i end up being more pissed off
... den she suddenly came to me n ask me "Y U DIDNT GO TAMIL CLASS" i told her my whole body ache i barely could walk so i took rest...den she also cannot take it ask me sit down outside the office....den she came to me wif a paper n few questions n told me "answer it honestly" ...i was emotional den i just wrote wateva i felt like saying ... den she started sharing 2 me sum stuff ... I COULD TELL SHE WAS CHRISTIAN!!! coz the way she talk... no teachers.. i mean non-christian wouldnt talk until like tat one .. she share bibical principals y liek tat y like tis .... so i was renewed by the talk she had wif me n i was super motivated to study ..but den she's making stay after skool till 6 just 2 make me study!!! STUDY STUDY STUDY!!! tats all she ask me 2 do when i see her...argh... i couldnt handle it ...i thought of transfering school but which school? i first thought of cck ... but my T-score wasnt high enuff 2 go ..den my conscious said ..." AES" den i questioned it " y AES?"
no reply..den i thought thru ...had sum advice n decided 2 stay... if i cant handle tis environment i cant move forward...if u get it u get it ... my real motive for going to AES was so tat i got more time for SOW n Shepherding n BASKETBALL!!! I WANT GO THE SKOOL TEAM!!!
but..soz...nvm..forget it.... so i decided 2 stay... oh God...help me thru my studies i cant handle so much pressure....may u be my source of motivation.........
12:02 AM
I never will leave You ~
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