Thursday, January 18, 2007
Need a Breakthru
haiz lor...todae i wake up 5am...purposely mah so tat i can slack 30minutes...but in the end i slack 2hrs till i dun feel like going skool liao...like dam tired or 'lazy' ...den 7pm...shud i go or dun go? ...sien i go late better coz i really no energy 2 wake up..den my brother shouted at me "R U GOING 2 SKOOL?!" den i said "yea but later" ...."WAT TIME UR SKOOL START?!" i kept quiet for 1minute...den answered "7:45" ...den he said "good job" he was being sarcastic...dotz...den i went skool late abt 10pm reach skool ...LOL LAR.....den as normal...but okay leh so far...i think i growing liao in all areas...except running away from temption....like gossip all these...sien...i mean its not i gossip...but if ppl gossip n i agree...same thing wat...haiz...den i quite angry n veri pek chey...my friend ask my classmate "from scale 1 to 10 how handsome am i " idiot i hate tis question!!!! i dun care how ppl look lar if ppl nice can liao i like them...y must ask me how u look...i hate tis question....those whoever ask tis question i think dam very insecure lor...i veri irritated my friend ask me always ALWAYS ask me once in awhile...everyday in skool "hey my fringe nice"," my hair okay?" "i dun need cut my hair at the top coz short rite?" idiot lor everyday ask me abt his looks...fed up but im not angey leh :) den as i was going home i saw like ...look like jess....den i ignore my imagination coz look abit fat from veri far....den i just walk...den at the lift already i was behind her....hmm...veri familiar confirm is jess...den i look at the lift reflection...hmm den she also saw me den turn...den give me tat look like..."y r u here?" the face...den later she said "i noe how u outreach liao u say 2 them 'hey u noe me rite?'" ...den i was like yea...den after i get down from my stop den i think again...how did she noe? ....must be waihan tell her one...confirm...how can jess so chun guess one...dotz....anyways i went Tamil class after tat...den as i sit down...the teacher teach during tat time he see me n talk the way as if he wants me 2 agree ...den i just nod my head lor...den behind the gal laugh like siao...den nvm ignore...den later my teacher do again...maybe he want me 2 pay attention tts y ...den the gal again laugh...den my teacher say im tamil "y u laugh" den she carry on laughing...den the whole class laugh den she said "coz he dun understand " wa sien lor!!! the gal think im tat dumb...i undertsand but dunno how 2 speak...i was very hurt...i carry on being quiet...den the teacher surpport me say i understand just tat i dun want speak i shy alot of truths...den my classmate which also my tamil classmate say "shy arh?he bully us in west spring lor so we bully him back in here" diaoz lar...out of point plus where i got bully...anyways after i came back i dota wif my classmates...haiz...dun wanna scold them or wat...i was just angry n finished playing wif them...they keep playing cheat...neva folo rules...nvm...i wanna train my patient laio...2 breakthrus i wanna break...stop being lazy every morning n slow to anger :) yup!!!! GOD BE WIF ME !!! yay !!! LOL
7:43 PM
I never will leave You ~
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