Wednesday, January 17, 2007
Decision making
eeh yeee...SIEN LAR....haha...its been my addictive favourite quote...nvm lame....
kk i woke up 5am tis morning....5AM!!! but i compromise again...dam tired or lazy...just alittleabit...the nxt thing i know 6:15....shiok...during tat 1hr i still can dream of sumthing...but forget liao wat was tat...anyways i couldnt outreach...didnt feel any bad at all first...den skool begin as normal...den later 4:30 release...den i walk wif my friend to Jelapang LRT coz my CCA idiot lor the coach...say todae got training den change 2 skool team training den neva tell me...hot sia i...somore the coach i think dam racist...the skool team veri lan lor... i own them....nvm...fat hope tis skool for basketball...
den i wanted 2 go jelapang 2 play basketball but no1...so i feel like going home...but when i walking towards jelapang...i wonder who live nearby here...den i remember jess n her dog...I LOVE DOGS!!!i dam high thinking abt the dog...when i ask my mother i want dog my big brother said "u cant even take care of urself u want take care of a dog" den also can joke "tere,got dog liao" basically he making fun of my little bro but didnt meant it lar....haiz...i see first lar...maybe after ...hmm...ill think abt it :) ...den i remember she said she wanna see a district in her skool...like i dun want like tat but all must be brothers :) no lar jk jk... den i thought 2 myself...shud i go their skool outreach mah? ...den i dun want quite focus on playing basketball....i even told myself there might might west spring n zhenghua ppl at fajar basketball so i walk till tere...n saw oni one west spring...but he like pia kia like tat..the zhenghua...sure...is my classmate stead n gal somore...soz den i just played basketball
...after tat as i walk home i think again....was my day fruitful?what did i do tat i think was meaningful? ...den i felt veri guithy n bad abt my actions...den God said "u have 2 live ur life as if u do it for God" ...i didnt understand so God explain it "u have 2 eat like as if u eat for my sake,u have 2 outreach as if it was my sake,u have 2 have fun as if it was my sake...wat im trying 2 say wateva u do...do it in a way that u honour Me,do it in a way that its for me ...can be anything but must be for me,go 2 msn n talk 2 ppl as if u for my sake....bibical tat is n its oni examples but wat do u think wat honours me? do it :) u noe me so u will noe wat i love :)" wah!!! I GREW ALOT LOR!!@!@!@ but i hoping 2 sink it in me :) ...grew dam alot .... okay anyways reach home...so tired...come n laze at the com...den my mother nag at me abt my younger brother not going skool,disobeying blah blah blah...alot of things,i help i kena like tat....den she keep saying me like..sum rubbish n veri sian 2 hear...i so frustrated she make me even more frustrated...den my Dad put my invitation cards n LTTF book sumwhere...i couldnt find tis morning 2 shepherd my sheep n invite ppl...sian lor...i think its just excuse ...zzzz ...i admit i shouted at my father saying "y u go n take things n anyhow put? i already told u not 2 touch my room liao" den he still can make fun of me....i so hot LOR!! i got the feeling of shouting at him or beat him...but i control (lol i veri violent when im angry) ..i told myself...control...be faithful,if u sin God cant bless...so i kept my cool......haiz...so stress lor skool den my parents n brothers disturb me...nvm atleast in the end...!
1 VISITOR IS COMING WOOT N 3VISITOR FROM MY SHEEP SIDE!!! YES!!!its the first day contact i made...n i confirm u he will receieve Christ :) confirm!!!! if not...i let u chop my head n kick soccer...i noe i noe...u might think saying "who give u the rights 2 say tis?r u predicting the future or going againist God will or sumthing?" ...sorri lar its my faith n the way he talk makes me think like tis...n he also 100% retentionship ... :) u will see :) anyways dam happy n God...nvm im writing a letter 2 God in my excercise named by me called "my personal dairy to God" ....tere where i write all my secret stuff :) no1 can no except 5 person...2 person u can see the other 3...u cant....the 2 person arh ... David(my shepherd) n me :)...the other 3 is...Father,Son,Holy Spirit ...!!!! LOL LOL LOL!!! lame...nvm i want go write liao so nitez!!!
8:45 PM
I never will leave You ~
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