Dear deAr DEaR .......... i just wanna post that my brother is still out tere in the night...n now its 12:44pm already... i heard he brought eugene wif him 2 play lan ...ARGH!!! tis happen last week tis week also did the same thing also...ok i dun care the anymore... im gonna say sum stuff 2 God so outside ppl just dun bother me k?

Letter to God
Dear jesus,
as i came home from meeting my shepherd.....i realise i gave alot of excuses n blame it on my ppl,when i cant shepherd them...even though i tried many ways...i was still in the blame coz i didnt in the end shepherd them...but God sorri for how i reacted...not taking the blame as a leader...a leader takes the blame for his ppl...but God...u noe urself i really tried...n all suddenly topple on my head...it got so heavy...but the mistake i did was i couldnt sort it out...i was going thru pressure n stress till i threw everything aside...n tis gonna come again if i dun solve it...God...i noe my mistake....i have 2 be secure in u...i have 2 be truth-guided...i cant lead my ppl when i 'feel' like it...shouldnt serve god on emotions...n the thing is tis is one of my greatest weakness...being emo...God...its not tat im gonna hardened my heart...but im gonna shut it from expressing anymore...ill make my body my slave...dear jesus...plz teach me ur ways...teach n disciple me .... continue 2 use me...if ever i wont able 2 handle such things...plz remove from taking care of ur flock...i shall not oni remove myself from PCL but also as a shepherd...coz i cant slow the KOG i have 2 make it advancing ...God...it wont be easy...but i noe tis time...i shall folo the bible truth...not how i feel abt it...May ur Hands be upon me always...ty n i really love u :) in ur name i pray .... amen :)

Yes ... ok ... *blank* .............. i dun really care anymore if my coming birthday is grand or not...but God if u can grant my wish now...make a CG by my birthday...yup !

random post:
as i wonder my mind away...ur face is all i see....yet when i try deny it...i cant lie it 2 myself but ur presence can be felt ...tt i know u r always tere...yet we only know but do not show it as if we noe...all we store up r useless knowledge kept in our heads...without putting them 2 good use...we can boost abt our knowledge but when do we gain from it? eternal life? i doubt so...my heart is filled wif words tat cannot express words... yet my heavenly understand them wat they r... oh Dear jesus...my dear dear jesus...for u r always looking forward 2 hear my voice...i will be looking forward 2 see u in heaven ...till den...ill be doing ur will...watch out for me for i am coming...coming towards u...embrace me when i see u...n neva let me go...for all i want is...you ........................................................................................................................................