Sunday, December 17, 2006

i was so discouraged be4 service n abit after service coz i went 2 skool morning 2 find ppl no1 n my ppl invite also no1 came...we invite 20+....no1 could come...i was so disppointed...i work so hard no ppl...den i ask God...U said U will give if i ask...I ASK N I DIDNT RECEIVE!!!...U say seek n U will find it...I SEEK N DIDNT FIND ANYTHING!!!...knock n the door will be open...IM STILL KNOCKING N THE DOOR DOESNT SEEMS 2 OPEN AT ALL!!!...2 get to the point i was plainly discouraged...argh i just hate the word discouraged...one of the most terrible 2 happen 2 any1 is being discouraged...when we r discouraged we tend 2 look on ourselves n do many things 2 harm ourself or ppl around us...so i just kept quiet n keep it all 2 myself...den at night...while i was fellowshipping wif my brothers...my shepherd took me 2 a quiet spot n started 2 talk abt my life n how i feel abt things that happen...so i started sharing 2 him everything...for no reason my eyes started tearing...i didnt noe y but i realise...my burden of talking 2 my shepherd was so terrible tat after sharing...it all went away in my tears...den i started 2 realise alot of things...y r we so banging on hitting goals?whats wif the 'must hit goal...do or die' thing i mean...its okay wif such convictions but y r we so banging on the goal part but not the spirit of ourself or our ppl...instead we must feel encouraged n overjoyed that our ppl or we have done our best...the rest doesnt matter...i know our goal,ur goal will surely surely surely come 2 past...but we must know tat we r doing it for God...not for me,not for u,not for ur leaders,not for ur friends or family or any1 but God..lets get our motive rite...motive is veri dangerous when it is hidden...check ur heart...y r u still serving God?im still serving God coz i love the ppl in church...they all so kind,sensitive,understanding,caring,giving,trustworthy n many more...bibical reasons..God cared for me so i want 2 love God wif all my heart !!! brothers n sisters...wateva ur goal maybe always know...we do it for God though we may feel tat the outcome may not be how we want it 2 be...we must always be joyful n thank god through all circumstances .... n remember tis also leaders...spirituality is not abt having alot of ppl under u,skills,talents or wateva...but its abt how close r u 2 God 2 listen 2 him...God sees our heart so lets see wat God's heart is :)... AMEN!!!

I never will leave You ~

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