Friday, December 08, 2006
DAM DISCOURAGED!!!
im feeling so discourage discourage discourage discourage discourage....todae i skip clc2 2 go share christ...got street converts but cant retain them...coz they said that they cant go out at all only on friday *so chun* n n the other all kinds of excuses...I SHARED CHRIST WIF JUN MING FOR 4HRS N NO1 COULD BE RETAIN!!!!!??? i was so ...discouraged i told jun ming my sheep...plz can take a hammer n wack my head till i die...i couldnt bear it...i pour my heart,my sou,my energy,my mind my EVERYTHING N THE RESULTS?!!! so TERRIBLE!! ARGH!!! i felt so discouraged tat i had 2 cry.......i couldnt stand it....the pain that no1 could be saved....argh!!! den joel came in n said "its not abt the outcome but the spirit tts wat it matters" i noe leh the thing is my shepherd told me God challenged my group for 7ppl...I GAVE MY BEST n TIS? wat does it mean? didnt i lost too much blood just 2 share christ?! den y do i reap tis? argh?!!!! all i could do is...i should have went clc2 rather den sharing...completely felt like i wasted my time!!!.....haiz its okay ppl....i just need time 2 heal...haiz...God...no matter wat let me find rest in u...coz discourage is a choice u can choose 2 be discourage or think abt it...but im gonna dwell in it awhile more...awhile more 2 boost me up 2 share more of God's goodness...no...i shall not stop....not now not never...ill carry on till i die...NO!tis contenment must rise!!!No WAY REJECTION CAN STOP ME!!! GOD ...TIS IS FOR YOU!!! WATEVA I DO...ITS ALL FOR U...
*double ppl=double growth*
10:36 PM
I never will leave You ~
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