k roughly let me tell about todae...but not the pissed off part....i woke up late so i didnt go skool...but needed 2 shepherd my sheep so i called him...n he said he will come my house 4 or 5pm....but in the end he didnt....den i was thinking like...should pioritise leh...put God first....den i realise he was growing so i just did what i needed 2 do...den confirmation time...he said he can come den later at night he said cannot...den he said his mother wont let him out coz he neva take thing n put thing...*i believed u y do u lie 2 me?* den i say call ur mother i want 2 speak 2 her...he keep saying cannot...she angry dun want 2 talk 2 u...but i keep persisting on talking his mum after much asking....den his mother told me he has been disobeying n coming home late...so i said,"auntie...i understand how u feel n i can hear wen jin voice angrily talking 2 u...but if he doesnt come cg he will get from bad 2 worst...hes growing...ill change him 2 be better...n ill keep xtra watch on him nowards" den his mother said "oh okay...thx...coz he do bad things mah so i punish he dun go out" but i said "let him plz" den she said "okay lar i let him" i said "ty n ill take responsibilites over him now" basically...i felt that sumtimes we r lying 2 our shepherd n u think our shepherd doesnt know it....its ur shepherd keeps quiet...n God will deal wif u personally...dun hide anything from ur shepherd...coz u only end up trying 2 deceive God...so plz....dun cheat ur shepherds....its hurting for us shepherds...we really love you...dun try 2 cheat us anymore or hide anything...we r there for u ....n the pissed off part is...i trying 2 saved up for my camp ....den my father saw it...den he said i should use it for my food money n takes it all...grrrr....so angry leh lyk want 2 explode....n i told my father "if u dun give me ill take it from ur wallet...if i have 2 steal it i will if u dun give me"....i noe i have sinned...i quickly repent coz God spoke 2 me..."theres a reason y i made u going thru tis situation...so that once again u will come 2 me for help n increase ur faith in trusting me"....i was touched ....so ill wait for God's planning n word 2 drop on my heart 2 move on . . . . . . . . - - - - - - - - a person who really loves God >>>>>sathya