Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Now i can say that im a full fledge Christ follower ...haha..so many ppl was wondering y im so siao one or veri noisy or just being so call happy go lucky person...well ...God made me tis way n im being how God made me...anyways...its was 2 years ago which was when i was sec2 at 2004...my best friend accepting Christ the same year wif me but i was abit more months later....he told me 2 also believe that Christ was so called 'God'....thats wat i believe before i accepting God n i was like...god was such a waste or i still dun believe he is n dun bother 2 noe...as days goes by he kept insisting 2 covert....so i said 2 him...as his studies was very bad that time,i told him this "u pass ur exams wif flying colours i consider whether want 2 convert,"and he told me that passing wif exams doesnt do anything abt knowing God...so if i remember wat i said...i said 2 him...2 show ur 'god' is real...den he got nth 2 say so he just say i share 2 u sumthing u come 2 my house now...as a best friend i couldnt reject him mah...so i went 2 his house n he shared 2 me the gospel...at that point of time the reason y i covert is i was afraid 2 go to hell...keith was like emphasizing on his sharing about....'imagine u go hell...u will be stab a millions times...burning inside like as if in volcano' i coverted that day n said a prayer in my heart...later we played ps2 n i went home after that...i dun noe y I so stupid...i showed off 2 my small brothers telling 2 them tis when i was going 2 go sleep "i need 2 go church tomorrow so i need my sleep" he was like "for wat u not christian wat" den i said "i was"...den after i went service....i went back home receiving a book of john (1 book out of the whole bible)so i went home n read closing the door...den suddenly my big bro came in n snatch the book from my hand "WAT IS THIS?"den reading apart of it n scanning it "TIS ONE BIBLE RIGHT" den i said..."yea my friend give me read"...den he said "got our religon can read rite y must read bible....give ur friend number now i call him now"den i give my best friend number n he called him "Hello?r u sathya's friend?did u give my brother a bible?"den dunno wat they say already coz i scared like shit dun noe wat he gonna do...den he hang up n say..."UR FRIEND SAY IS U WANT 2 READ!!!R U LYING 2 ME" ...den i got nth 2 say mah coz best friend sabo me ...den i kept quiet...den he struggled my neck n said..."U want 2 convert is it?!" n i still didnt answer...thank god that day my dad was at home n said 2 my big bro "no point beating him....it cant change his mind" LOL THAT WAS THE FIRST TIME MY FATHER 'SURPPORTED' ME...my family is quite broken coz my father last time gangster...thats wat i heard from my mum but not sure... my grandfather is chinese btw :)....anyways i was abit relieved...den after i went camp...God spoke 2 me thru the Holy Spirit. I didnt noe anything or even teres a such thing as Holy spirit.and i felt at peace.i felt joy overflowing in my heart...n tis was the first time in my life i felt so happy....n i remembered that day after camp going 2 my house that time..got 2 couples;one guy one girl n another guy n girl....they were hugging so intimately so i ignore them mah ....anyways i carried on talking 2 keith den suddenly one of the boyfriend say "hey u next saturday free or not? want 2 go out n watch movie?" den the girlfriend said "cannot...my mum force me 2 go church" den the boyfriend said "tell ur mum den i dun believe in God n he doesnt exist" omg...u noe how sad i felt when i heard that...my heart filled wif pain and tears n i told keith abt it and he said 'coz u love God'...it was true...god gave me eternal joy which can never be taken away from me and i could neva repay him back as he had paid all for me ....anyways after that i went 2 church. 'Trick' my parents saying im going 2 my friends...i did go wif my friends but i still neva tell them every single detail on where i go or what i do...so day goes by...den one day, my mum went 2 jail for 3 months...n within tis three months...i cant help 2 tell it was like hell....my pocketmoney was decrease like crazy or sumthings i dun even get...n..i ate like bread everyday...my big bro told me i should not go out n all times without asking him first..means if i go shop also must tell...if not he will beat me...den saturday came n i was scared 2 go out so i didnt...but keith was faithful 2 god n 2 me...he told me 2 meet me downstairs my house...den i told my bro can let me out just 30minutes..thinking it was a short period n i neva went out for along time he let me go out...so i went down n he start talking abt putting God first...n he brought me 2 the bus-stop ..gave me money 2 take bus...i was like..i cant ..i cant..i realli cant...he said...ur problem wif ur bro is important or going 2 god is more important...since i coverted...god was my everything...i realli mean everything....so i went wif him 2 church...n he said "u made a wise choice" but my heart was full of fear...thinking wat would happen after i come bak...after church i went home guess wat happen...SOMETHING SO GREAT i tell u...i kena wack from top 2 bottom,head 2 toe...i was bruised,wired,showered(he keep wacking me so i run around in pain till i reach toilet den i cant run LOL)n..i was actually covered in little blood...but u noe wats the funni part...i prayed 2 God be4 i kena beaten n god answerd my prayer....God made the pain not so pain n i even laughed after he stop beating me...den my little bro said "u crazy arh? no pain meh? or is it u want more?" den i carry on laughing...as these 3 months goes...i after church went home kena beaten ...kena blood here n tere...den i laugh...my small bro think that im retarded already after kena so many beating...as day goes by...my bro was sick of beating me n leave me be...there was many problems in my life but God was faithful n helped me thru hard times...so let me encourage u guys...neva give up on ur sheep....coz if my sheperd abandoned me a long time i would not have come tis far...not oni that...for those new-believers n non-believers....becoming n being a christian for me is the most hardest thing for me in earth but its the most worthy purpose 2 be n for believers....perserverve on...neva give up...god will sure be wif u all the way neva abandon u its us 2 go back 2 god everyday...i hope my testimony tells that GOD is indeed real n Christianity isnt going 2 be a bed of roses...but it doesnt have 2 be boring either =)...ill keep all of you in prayer n if u want 2 noe more ...comment me :) BB N PEACE OUT
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I never will leave You ~
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