As i continued listening 2 christian songs,i cant express the words how i feel about god...coz god is beyond greater than any words n i cant help 2 tell that...if...i really...dun hav...god in my life i would die as god n my life is one...i cant help but pray 2 god... i will bring more ppl 2 know ur greatness...many ppl out tere dun noe how great Jesus have been wif us n them 2...n ill gonna stand firm...that i will stop useless talks wif my friends unless it helps us grow n its within bibical principals,n friends,brothers n sisters,ill tell u how much god means 2 me...i remember last monday...i did a so call mistake...my family rejected n hate christianity as christians r the only one who bring ppl closer 2 god n they think christanity is another religon n told me such actions made them the lowest of all religon...anyways i tell u wat happen on that day...i was sleeping in bed...think...think n think...suddenly i remembered i wrote my blogspot website on the link n forgot 2 delete it...but already done so i prayed that he wont see it but i think again....how can he miss it??? its so obvious...den he went into my room n woke me out n ask me 2 come out awhile...den i saw the clock it was 11om n i realise wats gonna happen...delaying as much time n acting as much innocently as i can...i said " i want 2 sleep...." den he said "just come out for awhile" i keeping saying i want 2 sleep den i didnt wanted 2 disobey so i went out of my room into the hall....den he said "come here n have a look here" den i said "um...y" n he said "no just awhile come see tis" he gave me a serious look...den i like dun want 2 go see coz i noe wat it was....den he said "i been very cool wif u dun get me anymore angry come here n tell me wat is this" den i said "i know" he said "u noe wat?" i said again "i know that one" he replied again "u noe wat" i said "the blog thingy"...den he ask me 2 call my mum out...so i went n called her out den my big bro ask her "I WANT TO KNOW HOW MANY SONS YOU HAVE WHETHER THIS SON(refering 2 me)BELONGS IN THIS FAMILY AND IF HE IS I WANT 2 KNOW WAT RACE N RELIGON HE IS" den he wack the door very hard...i was very terrified...i didnt now wat 2 do...he ask my mum "I WENT 2 MALAYSIA N TIS ALL HAPPEN UNDER UR CARE...WAT R U DOING AT HOME....R U TAKING CARE OF HIM...REMEMBER OR NOT UR SISTER SON COVERTED INTO CHRISTAN? DEN WHEN HIS FATHER DEATH HE COULDNT DO THE RITUAL N WHEN HIS FATHER DEATH ANNIVERSARY HE CAME BACK BEING AS A FATHER....DO U REMEMBER? U WANT HIM 2 ALSO FOLO LIKE HIM N HAPPEN 2 U THE SAME WAY? IF U DIE ME N MY BROTHERS WILL DO THE DEATH RITUAL FOR BUT U THINK HE WILL BE TERE OR NOT?" i ......was so speechless i couldnt do anything....theres so many things in the world i wanted 2 share 2 my bro but couldnt coz....he's short-tempered n watever i speak he just wacks....i sit down in my chair n started 2 think wat 2 say...den my mum say "y u go read bible? read our indian bible...its better... u noe jesus also is a human n is same wif all gods" (my heart melt wif sadness when i heard tis coz...i want my whole family 2 come 2 christ n each time i got closer 2 god...they went further away from god n me)"n let say jesus is god...god wont feed u wont give u money....u must work urself 2 eat not god....when she said that...i had a slight doubt in my heart...saying god where r u??? r u real???...den again it was satan working in me...so i said 2 myself ....u prayed n god gave u...god shown miracles 2 ppl n u believed...wat more can i do 2 show u god is real when u dun believe such things...at this i trusted god n...my bro told me go 2 sleep...so i went 2 sleep but my bro n father n mother started 2 criticise christanity n think of ways 2 prevent me 2 go church. like wanting 2 make me study in malaysia..i really believe god for great things so i prayed real hard...i cried thinking whether will my family every be christian??? i cried real long...den suddenly...god told me...trust in me...ill be wif u till the every end n neva will i leave u or forsake...hearing tis from god...i smiled...i didnt noe y i smiled...coz i noe god is still in control...so i went 2 bed wif peace n rest in my heart....den my bro went to malaysia...n from that day onwards...my life is on the edge....im at a critical moment rite now if my bro comes back...n stays in singapore...my life....will neva be....happy....but no wat happens I WILL STAND FIRM...at this point of time i grew tremendously by having my faith in god n no1 will be able 2 take it away from me...amen